godmessmer rambling ft. headcanons. mild nsfw mention
godwyn is dominant in their bedroom activities, but he's sincerely messmer's slave. he's the pinnacle of a wife guy, except that his wife is his brother.
messmer is bratty but not because he's a Capital B Brat, but because it's VERY HARD for him to accept affection or to even entertain the idea that he's desired AT ALL let alone by someone as conventionally beautiful as godwyn. so he rejects it and acts spitefully to hopefully push godwyn away (so that his Inevitable Rejection won't hurt as much)
he is stupid though, because to godwyn he's the most beautiful thing to ever exist, the most precious and spectacular miracle. godwyn couldn't leave him if he WANTED to, he's incapable.
and he would never want to, anyway.
... there's a sort of, Twin Princes energy to them - both nihilistic, both tired of the status quo. i know godwyn is the chosen heir and his mother's precious baby who will carry on the Golden Order or ELSE, but i don't think he wants to.
i have a suspicion he was complicit in the knight of the black knives. he let ranni kill him, to free her, because of them all she had the best chance of undoing it all, of Breaking The Cycle. i don't think he wanted to die / was actively suicidal at all, but i think there were things at play he knew he had no control over and the only way to gain any control over his own life was to surrender it.
supported by messmer being sent away. far from someplace godwyn could reach (the shadowlands)...
anyway. i say all this because i am thinking about godwyn's nihilistic dedication to messmer, and how he'd ruin worlds, ruin himself, just to prove to messmer he's worthy of such devotion.
and how messmer, the stupid snake-brained idiot, still thinks godwyn would toss him aside at a moment's notice. you idiot. he'd raze the universe to ash for you
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