the negative space 🛸

symphony 23 it/its

[negativespirits]

hi! i'm symphony, i'm 23 and this is my blog for nonhuman/kin-related stuff.

more about this place under the cut

me:

a polyfragmented did system

lesbian

religious (not christian)

genderfucked (it/zhe/he)

my identity:

deep connection to the negative spirits from doom patrol and their dimension and culture, and the sense that i Am one (not The negative spirit, a negative spirit), just very lost from home

fictionkin (is it still called that?) types: anna sheridan (b5), casey brinke (doom patr0l)

questioning fictionkintypes: jessica day (new gil)

theriotype: binturong

using this blog to explore these experiences and dip my toes back into the community, i never stopped being heavily alterhuman but left the community for several years due to bad experiences

it's nice to meet you! if you want to be mutuals, i follow from @/annakeller

[realfootage]

[negativespirits]

i think i might be j*ssica d*y unfortunately

[fictionkinfessions]

"can i read you some of my headcanons?" i say hopefully. you excitedly agree. we prepare for enthralling discussion. i open my notes app. i go into my "kin memories" folder-

(#sparkler🔥🎇)

x

[emberslimehunts]

Yo, any other alter/nonhumans considering going into/are already in fields relating to their experiences? For example, fictionkin & writing or literary analysis or journalism, therian & veterinary practice or zookeeper or aquarium caretaker, otherkin & theoretical STEM fields or history or mythology-based academia, etc. Cause I've been strongly considering going into certain fields and have been considering how my nonhumanity has been affecting this decision.

[entity56]

sometimes being eldritch/alienkin is like 'I am trapped in this mortal casing. I am much too big for this form. I want to rip myself open and set myself free but if I even attempt to my true self will die with it. My body is a flesh prison and I am the unwilling, weakened inhabitant. Do not perceive me, for those who lay their eyes upon me will not see my true form, but will be unsettled by the subconscious primal fear of knowing what lies underneath my exterior, and the pain of being put underfoot of the same mortals I am meant to be far away from and far more powerful than is almost identical to knowing I will never be truly free.'

and then sometimes it's like 'waow.... stars.... waow.... ocean... humans are weird and cool.... waooooww.....'

[your-rutherfurr]

[mxmorbidmidnight]

I CANNOT argue with nonhumans like whatever you say gorgeous creature. Can I do a biology depth study on you/make a conspiracy theory commentary video on you/ take unnerving pictures of you sneaking around in the woods/ feed you a peace of cheese/study you under a microscope? Babes I cannot you guys are so cool.

[senorita-patita]

what the FUCK is this supposed to mean, Spotify ??????

[negativespirits]

moodboard for the negative spirit i am, in a different universe.

all images from unsplash

[negativespirits]

i still dont fully remember what the negative space was like for me tbh. i wish i did because i miss it so so much but when i try to think about what specifically i miss there's a voidnothingness

[escuerzoresucitado]

[thylacines-toybox]

Binbag

Very soft and squishable mini binturong by Ravensden, bought at Edinburgh Zoo in April 2024. I think my bigger binturong should now be named Bin Truck to match.

[negativespirits]

i think a lot of the reason why i tend to relate to characters like casey and anna (not that i think kinning is simply relating to someone, but like in a general sense i mean) is that both of their stories have different degrees of autonomy loss. casey was ripped out of fiction and forced to become a real person, forced to adjust to the real world around her, and anna was forced OUT of existence and all of her choices and life and even her own body was stolen from her. i have felt like this so many times in my life, and they're kind of like inverse and yet married experiences idk

[ecneir]

[negativespirits]

i do unfortunately still think i was right about being kin with tur.lough but i dont wanna think abt that

[negativespirits]

sometimes my alterhumanity/kin-ness (?) confuses me because my personal beliefs do not encompass past lives so for me it's more of a multiverse theory time thing, like "i exist in many universes and in some of them i am [kintype]" and ive never seen anyone else describe it like that