Hay
I’m just writing here because yet again I felt insecure. I just don’t know if it’s all fine to feel insecure or I am just thinking too much.
You know, I’ve been with my boyfriend for quite some time now. almost 4 years of being together and we still click, I love him, he loves me. I’m telling you, we ain’t having problems we can’t surpass. Which is good, right? Because that isn’t the problem.
Well then, my insecurity is from his Mom. Her treatment. Sabi ng bf ko, I’m good with his family naman daw. like, they approve me as his gf, you know what I mean. But my issue is. I don’t feel like it. You know, I am expecting the treatment that his mother was giving to the girlfriend of his brother, Ate Steph. Sa totoo lang, bago palang sila Ate Steph and Kuya JP (brother of my Jowa) dinadala na talaga ni Kuya si Ate sa bahay nila. (Disclaimer: I have nothing against ate Steph, she really is a good person.) Pero ako? first time ko makapunta sa kanila, what? 2 years na ata kaming magjowa. But don’t get me wrong, I have met his parents even before but not in there house. I have nothing to do with that, I should have insisted if I wanted to go there dba? It’s not his fault. Pero alam mo yun? Iba kasi sa pakiramdam yung gusto mo yung partner mo magustuhan ng family mo ehh. And para sakin, isang malaking role mo para mangyari yun, is of course makilala muna personality niya ng parents mo. One good step is yung pagpunta sa bahay ng jowa mo, maka bonding family mo. dba? Actually, I feel like, his mother really likes Ate Steph to be part of their family. Kulang nalang ipakasal na niya yung dalawa. She really love Ate Steph for Kuya JP. I would also want to feel the same, that she does like me bilang jowa ng anak niya. Eto pa, si tita lagi yan nagcocomment, sort of lagi nyang pinapansin si ate Steph and even kuya JJ (bf naman ng ate ni Jowa).
Bilang pa sa kamay kung ilang beses na ko nakapunta don, pero dba I should have built and gained the same relationship na his mom has with ate Steph and Kuya JJ? Hay. Ako ngayon, pag nagtetext or nagchachat parang ang cold lang ni tita sakin. Nararamdaman ko kasi yung di pantay na treatment, parang may mali for me. Or ako yung may mali? Nakikisama naman ako pag nandun ako sa bahay nila, I do me. You know what I’m saying. I’m being myself. But then I don’t feel like I’m enough para kay tita na matuwa rin siya sakin dahil gf ako ng anak niya. HAY















