I cried a lot, at night. Realized that I've been through a lot of pain and sadness and all of discomfort things in life. I know I shouldn't comparing my entire life with another but..the more I tried to denied the more I realized, mine is not that easy to pass. I feel like I wanna die every single breath of mine. I start questioning myself, can you do this all over again? To walk in gravel. To killed many times by fucking expectations and beyond.














