Nephis’ Thoughts.

Thoughts of a fallen one. A little depressed guy with anxiety. Nobody will read this anyway.

[nephis-thoughts]

Thought #7

It’s been a while. I had a lot in mind and it was, for the most part, not really fun or happy. Bad thoughts came back and I had nobody to talk about it. Not that I have no friend or what, but I don’t expect anyone to understand what I’m going through when it happens. I had a friend who came to visit me for a week, and I showed her my town, we walked a lot, talked a lot too (but not about what I have in my mind). It was a little refreshing, but when she was going back, everything I was holding back to seem happy kicked out. I thought my soul was going to shatter in thousand of pieces.

For now, I don’t know if I can speak about everything I am going through here. So, I guess I will not talk about it today. But I’m thinking a lot about letting my heart speak, cry, scream here. It’s anonymous, no one I know would be able to know it’s me. And I think it’s better than keeping everything to myself. I don’t expect anyone to read it neither understand what I’m saying.

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Thought #6

I finished to watch all the lessons of my drawing module. And now, I’m pretty sure I’ll have a lot of work to do.

Next step is to finish my windmill. Yeah, i didn’t finish it last week because of a lack of motivation (and a little feeling of depression). After that, I’ll do a watermill, just for fun, and also to practice a little more the second module. Then only, I’ll attack the third module exercices, because it will be long and hard for sure.

I also found a sketchbook buried in my shelves, it will be a great help !

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Thought #5

I just finished the fourth chapter of the third module of my basics of drawing lessons (you follow me?). I already have so many practice exercises to do, like a snake, or a nightstand for example. The last (but not least!) lesson lasts 1 hour and a half, so I guess I’ll have a bunch of new exercises to do, it’ll last forever. But let’s stay motivated, I’m doing that to achieve my purpose, so let’s fight !

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Thought #4

Currently reading Metro 2035. I’m wondering how could these people live well in a tunnel without any sunlight and so many dangers. I mean, you don’t know when it’s day or night, and to go to a subway station to another you have to take a weapon and you should never go alone. Plus, there are so many people living in the stations that you can’t be alone. And with that, they all lost hope to come back to the surface one day, but they still live like it’s no big deal anyway. They don’t even think of the future of their children. Fortunately, they have guys like Artyom and Homere that think for the rest of them. They don’t want to lose hope and will do whatever it take to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

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Thought #3

Currently watching 名探偵コナン (Case Closed) episode #337. These people have a knack for running into murderers. Or maybe are they cursed I guess ? Or lucky in some point because they’re paid to solve it. Anyway, it’s fascinating how many criminals are in this district. And they still don’t have PTSD yet.

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Thought #2

I’m practicing and learning how to draw right now. Drawing basics and perspective is so hard. Until now I only knew how to draw fly and stick figures. Now I have learned how to draw cubes, rectangular parrallelepided,cylinder and ellipses in perspective. I’ve made my first church and windmill this week.

And today I begin to learn primary forms to draw more complex forms and create my own drawings.

I found that this month is the #marchofrobots , #monstermarch and #magicalmarch drawing challenge. Maybe with my new skills will I be able to draw at least one robot until the end of the month ?

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Thought #1

Here will be written my thoughts. It could be not understandable nor logical because I will write them as its come to my mind. Nobody will ever read it anyway so why bother ?