Never Quite Nathanial

Nate Matthews, 22. I don't understand why I'm here ...

[neverquite-myself-blog]

Are we not allowed to talk to the staff?

[careless-heart-deactivated20130]

I suppose all guards look at crazy people strangely.

[neverquite-myself-blog]

I-I'm not crazy, I just want to know why I'm here.

[neverquite-myself-blog]

Are we not allowed to talk to the staff?

[companygirlelle]

Trust me, it’s in your best interest to have as limited contact with them as possible. Especially Dr. Arden. Once patients visit him, they’re either physically or mentally incapable…..well, more so than prior to their sessions.

This isn’t a commendable treatment center. I can’t emphasis that fact enough.There’s not a record of one patient who was ever graced with the sensation of sunlight again after being committed here.

[neverquite-myself-blog]

Really? Not even once their cured?

But they have families, don't they? They should be checking in ...

[finestjen]

Of course, but remember, I’m the one in charge here, Jake…

[neverquite-myself-blog]

That wasn't a threat, Sister, believe me. Simply a warning.

[laheyisthename]

I swear if that idiot beats down on those piano keys one more time..

[neverquite-myself-blog]

I can imagine you have several. No one seems particularly happy around here.

Fair enough, I was just asking.

[laheyisthename]

When you’re not granted outside access it gets to your head even more. Pity. 

And how do you spend your time here?

[neverquite-myself-blog]

Well when you put it that way, I guess it makes sense. So they never let us out, or only when we kiss their asses?

I, uh ... Haven't been here long enough to quite figure out just yet. Been talking to a few people, only 'cause I can't really find anything to write with.

[laheyisthename]

Oh where oh where would my little lamb be?

[laheyisthename]

As am I. 

I’m not going to spend too much time looking for him. If I don’t find him within ten seconds I become bored and give up. I may like him, but I’m not obsessed with him. 

Yes, right. I understand. Those guys are cock suckers.

[neverquite-myself-blog]

Oh, okay. I will tell him you're looking for him if I see him.

Well they show me to my room every day because I forget, so they're kinda nice. The shoving is a little much, though.

[finestjen]

Of course, it’s Jake…and yes, I’m aware of the consequences, perhaps I’m just provoking you…seeing if you can give me a run for my…virtues. I think you’re forgetting, I’m the one in charge here, I can just as easily throw you into the hole…

But, I think that it’s a reasonable…deal. Maybe I’ll even throw in a Chess set if you’re good.

[neverquite-myself-blog]

Believe me, Sister, you do not want to test my boundaries. I can stay in control only to a certain point.

While we're still on the topic, anything you can find on H.H. Holmes would be lovely. 

[neverquite-myself-blog]

Are we not allowed to talk to the staff?

[companygirlelle]

Unfortunately, you’re inclined to discover more questions rather than answers once you venture into this asylum. 

Have you been introduced to Sister Jude yet? 

[neverquite-myself-blog]

N-No, I haven't had the chance to meet her yet. I haven't been able to talk to anyone in charge, really, and the orderlies just give me odd looks and ignore me.

[laheyisthename]

I swear if that idiot beats down on those piano keys one more time..

[laheyisthename]

I don’t belong here. I have a reason to hate it, don’t I?

That’s not your business.

[neverquite-myself-blog]

I can imagine you have several. No one seems particularly happy around here.

Fair enough, I was just asking.

[laheyisthename]

Oh where oh where would my little lamb be?

[laheyisthename]

…Well this got twice as awkward. 

Because he is a fragile and sweet to the touch. Meaning, he is my little lamb. I’ve already stated claims on ‘im, he’s aware of them as well. 

Door people? What are you-

[neverquite-myself-blog]

I'm confused ...

Oh, then he shouldn't be too hard to find, should he? There aren't many places to be around here. Have you checked his room?

The door people. The ones who open the doors and show me the way here.

[neverquite-myself-blog]

How am I supposed to sleep when it's this cold?

[angel-bayer]

We could find out 

And, we don’t really have a problem, as long as someone’s on top. 

[neverquite-myself-blog]

Well don't you have an answer for everything.

Ah, why not? Anything to keep me away from the zombies in the common room.

[finestjen]

Well, we’re going to have to provide some entertainment for the both of us…and, I have something better than books, that’s if you’d want it. It would be the first time…I don’t think anybody would want to pass this opportunity by, Nathanial.

[neverquite-myself-blog]

My name is Jake. I've told you that before, Sister. I don't anger easily, but I'm sure you're fully aware of the consequences if I were to become so. Let's not bring that about, shall we?

Now, even if I were to say yes to your offer, that still leaves me bored in the long-term. So I say we make a deal here. I say yes to you, and you get what you want, and then you bring me a few books. I think that's pretty fair, don't you?

[neverquite-myself-blog]

Are we not allowed to talk to the staff?

[companygirlelle]

Admittedly, Sister Jude would be prone to punish you if you were caught. However, if you display your vulnerability this visibly, then the retribution could be fatal. I’m not certain who Seb is, but I wouldn’t mention him in front of the Sisters. Not if you value your ability to mobilize. 

[neverquite-myself-blog]

No, I ... I'm not supposed to talk about him.

I'm-I'm fine, really. I can just ... Stay here. I just want to understand why I'm here.

[neverquite-myself-blog]

Are we not allowed to talk to the staff?

[companygirlelle]

Who’s Seb? 

You look very distraught. Perhaps you should indulge in another nap….

[neverquite-myself-blog]

Uh ... Nothing. No one.

Are we allowed? I thought we couldn't go back to our rooms once we were out here ...

[neverquite-myself-blog]

Are we not allowed to talk to the staff?

[companygirlelle]

Are you certain about that fact? I was allowed to be subjected to this asylum because my own lover, who was well aware of my pristine mentally abilities, signed paperwork deeming me insane.

[neverquite-myself-blog]

Yes, yeah I'm very sure. Seb said ... He said they didn't want to, but he won't say anything else.

[neverquite-myself-blog]

Are we not allowed to talk to the staff?

[companygirlelle]

The truth I’m trying to convey to you is that Briarcliff is not a welcoming rehabilitation center. I’ve gathered that it’s an institute where people drop off unwanted problems…..no offense.

[neverquite-myself-blog]

... But my parents would never send me somewhere like that.

They wouldn't ... 

[neverquite-myself-blog]

Are we not allowed to talk to the staff?

[companygirlelle]

If you’re articulating accurate statements, then your parents have made a dreadful error. Once you’re admitted into Briarcliff, you essentially never return to your normal life.

[neverquite-myself-blog]

Wh-What do you mean?

[neverquite-myself-blog]

Are we not allowed to talk to the staff?

[companygirlelle]

My name is Lana. Lana Winters.

Can you recall what exactly was troubling your parents? This isn’t an idea institute to heal inside of. I plan on exposing the diabolical natural of everyone involved in this asylum.

[neverquite-myself-blog]

No they ... They said I ... was dangerous. But I never did anything.