Ngiti Tayo Kaibigan!

Registered Nurse | Teacher | Singer | Pianist | Blogger | Pet Mom | Traveller | Adventure Geek | Ngiti Tayo Kaibigan™ 

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If I needed to count points, yours is already overflowing.

I appreciate you, ever since.

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If it’s not you, I’ll ask God for the grace of acceptance. I don’t see myself with someone rather than you.

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2025 HIGHLIGHTS

January - Calatagan, Batangas with Triads girls (Ate Ja, Ate Mitch, Dhin).

February - Boracay trip with Mark and Pols; attended LSS#37 with Mark.

March - LSS proper; Solo trip to Siargao (1 week). Went to the ER with Mark after arriving MNL.

May - SE#28 team building in Tagaytay.

June - Sponsored SE#29 weekend.

July - transferred to Anytime Fitness; started the 33 Days to Morning Glory with some of the SJRM peeps

August - Consecrated to Mary; Worship ministry audition

September - I'm No Moses retreat

October - SE#28 thanksgiving celebration in La Union

November - birthday shoot. Celebrated my birthday with SE28. Started Tiktok Affiliate.

December - Finished my Worship Ministry probation period; served with Triads on the last Sunday of 2025; Disney on Ice with Mark and Kim.

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TikTok - Make Your Day

Eating before gym

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Hindi ko natapos yung workout session ko kahapon. I hate it!

Ayoko talaga yung feeling ng nahihinto ako ng matagal sa gym tapos pag balik ko, nahihilo ako agad. Thankful ako sa coach ko na understanding kasi hindi niya ko pinipilit tapusin yung workout lalo na pag alam niyang hindi ko kaya.

So eto, I have gout. Matagal ko nang sakit to. So pag may attack, umiiyak ako sa sakit at ilang days or weeks kong hindi nagagalaw yung affected site. Itong last attack ko happened 3rd week of August at left shoulder ko ang sumakit. So definitely, hindi ako makakapag workout. And because of that, napahinga ako sa gym ng 2 weeks.

Gustong gusto ko na mag gym this week kahit medyo masakit pa yung balikat ko kasi hello! Nagbabayad ako ng monthly at nag avail ako ng personal training. Hindi biro ang presyo kaya dapat gamitin. Plus, may health goals ako.

Ayun na nga. Kanina, excited ako na medyo hindi maganda ang pakiramdam. For the sake of showing up talaga. 3 sets of 6 exercises yung dapat gawin pero naka dalawang set lang ako. Grabe yung hilo ko. Muntik pa kong malaglag sa ellipticals. Naka ilang pahinga ako in between exercises. Humihiga ako at tinataas ko yung paa ko. Pag feel ko na medyo okay na, balik buhat. Nung hindi ko na talaga kaya, modified na yung last exercises ko. Sabi ko sa coach ko habang naka higa ako sasabayan ko na ng leg raises para ok na yung ab exercise ko. Tapos nung sabi ko na hindi ko na kaya with panghihinayang talaga, sabi ng coach ko okay lang naman daw kasi kahit papano nakumpleto ko ang isang set at nakapag cardio pa ko. So stretching na. After nun pumunta na ko sa locker area tapos pag upo ko nahilo na naman ako. Nakita ako ng isang coach tapos pinahiga niya ko. Sabi ko dun na ko hihiga kung saan ako umupo pero ang ginawa niya inalalayan niya ko papunta sa workout area na maluwag tapos pinahiga niya ko at tinaas yung paa ko. Yan yung pic na naka post.

Nakarating ako dyan ng hindi ko alam sa sobrang hilo. Nakapikit akong naglalakad basta hawak lang ako nung coach. Tapos binalikan niya ko para pakainin ng asukal.

Haaay. What a day. Kailangan ko na bumalik sa dati kong routine. Tapos bago na ulit ang coach ko starting session 11.

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Lady in Red ❣️🌹

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MORE THAN HALF

A lot had happened in a span of 8 months. Tama ba grammar ko? Haha anyway. How am I?

I’m good. Not at my best but I’m good. Last update ko was my weight loss journey. Weight wise, up and down. Hahaha! Currently getting back in shape. New gym, new coach, new adjustment. Fitness First Fairview already shut its doors so I need to transfer to a different gym. Hello, Anytime Fitness.

Currently around 66-68kg. Napaka tagal maabot ang goal na 59-60kg. But this time, magseseryoso na ko ulit. Para naman masabi ko sa sarili ko na may na-achieve akong goal ngayong taon. Kahit ito na lang muna. Gusto ko kasi magpa professional photoshoot sa birthday ko kaya gusto ko ma-achieve yung goal weight ko. Bukod sa sayang ang monthly membership, need kong mag gym para patuloy ang sinimulan kong healthy lifestyle. No turning back. No stopping.

Dapat nakahiga na ko para matulog pero may time pa talaga ko na mag blog. It’s been a while. Gusto ko sana regular ulit ang pag post ko pero hindi na kasi ito ang priority ko. Gusto ko na nga to burahin eh. Hahaha! Wala naman tong readers unlike before. Plan ko na lang gumawa ng panibagong blog. But something different. Parang online diary or journal na puro prayers ko lang. Pero wag na, I’ll keep my prayers personal.

Ano ba kasing point ng blog na ‘to? Super random. Another ordinary day. Plan ko mag gym mamayang hapon, kukumpletuhin ko muna ang tulog ko.

Sa susunod talaga na mag open ako nito may sense na. Haha! Whatever.

More than half? What’s with it? More than half na ang natapos sa 2025. Yun lang. Nothing deep about it. Sobrang bilis lang ng paglipas ng araw. Sana naman magparamdam na yung lalaking papakasalan ako. Hahaha! Napaka random! Wala sa hulog tong post na ‘to.

Makatulog na nga.

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Yup, same person. That was me on the left. From stagnant to soaring - a lifelong work in progress. ✨️

I saw an old photo while cleaning my phone storage and it made me stare at it for a few minutes. In my head, "ang laki ko pala talaga". I remembered the feeling when I was slowly losing my self confidence because of my physique. I seldom take and post pictures because I thought that the clothes I wore doesn't look good on me. I never showed anyone how frustrated I was because of my built. I remained to be the bubbly me in the eyes of everyone but deep down, I was problematic.

"You will never change unless you do something". That hit me. I thought of the times I avoided the stairs because my knees hurt everytime I go down. I thought of the painful gout attacks that I rate as "gusto ko na mamatay over ten". Lastly, I thought of my dream of having a family of my own. How will I play with my future child if I can't even carry myself? Those thoughts motivated me to become who I am now. I love the old me and I'm loving myself even more now. 🩷 Way to go, self. A little more! Push na natin 'to. 💪

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2025 SO FAR

Hello! First entry of the year. How's life going?

So far so good. Currently feeling the laziness after a few days of pure fun in Boracay last week. Ang bilis ng panahon! Nung December pinoproblema ko pa kung pano magiging buhay HVA ko sa Bora. Iniisip ko kung papano ang magiging schedule ko na mag enjoy sa bakasyon kahit may trabaho sa gabi. Thankful enough na kinaya ko at may mga kasama akong considerate din naman sa oras ko. I have the sweetest best friend ever! Imagine, ginagawan niya ko ng sandwich from the buffet para lang sure na may food ako pag gising ko dahil alam niyang hindi na ko makaka abot sa buffet breakfast.

Aside from that unplanned Boracay trip, I was able to go to Calatagan, Batangas nung January with some of the girls of Triads. Day tour lang pero sobrang saya. I hope mapanindigan ko yung monthly travel plans ko. I have Siargao and Mt. Pinatubo lined up for the next coming months.

I'm happy. I have a good job, I can still workout regularly despite my weight climbing up and down (ang hirap i-lose ng last 10-13 pounds!), I have regular social life every weekend and of course hear mass every Sunday. And of course, I can travel anywhere I want with my own money. Work-life balance on point! Lovelife na lang ang kulang.

Yeah right. Kung kelan ako tumatanda tsaka ako walang lovelife. Kung kelan nasa best version of myself ako, tsaka ako walang lovelife. Pero okay lang. Darating din yan. Ayoko na magmadali this time. Kung may makilala, thank you. Kung wala pa, hintay lang ng hintay. I'm enjoying my life reconnecting with my friends whom I lost connection nung panahong busy pa ko sa maling tao. And speaking of maling tao, I hope he's fine.

I claim this year to be full of answered prayers and achieved goals. Sana effective ang vision board na ginawa ko at nilagay ko din as my wallpaper sa phone. It's my daily reminder to work hard and enjoy life at the same time.

Ayun. Now in my travel era sabi nga nung isa sa faith family ko. Once inumpisahan mo at kayanin mo mag travel ng solo, ma-aadik ka na. True enough! Hindi pa man din ako nakakapunta sa Siargao at Mt. Pinatubo, nag paplano na ko ulit ng mga susunod ko pang pupuntahan. Planning solo, travel with friends, and travel with papa this year. Ang mahalaga sakin sa ngayon eh ma-enjoy ko ng buong buo ang pagiging single. Kasi hindi ko na magagawa 'to pag may pamilya na ko unless same vibe ko yung magiging asawa ko na adventurous at travel geek din.

I seldom post here. Sa tiktok ako nag uupload ng quick videos ko sa mga travel trips ko. Gusto ko na nga ulit mag vlog eh. Hopefully I can have a good Siargao vlog. One week solo travel! See you!!!

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Tinatamad ako! Currently at the gym, observing the place. Ang dami kong pwedeng gawin sa totoo lang pero ayaw kumilos ng katawan ko ngayon. I booked a class at 1:30pm para kahit papano may activity ako today. Grrr! Sarap pa naman sana mag workout kasi wala masyadong tao pero tamad na tamad ako talaga ngayon. Kung kelan ako may mga upcoming trips tsaka ako tinatamad. Hay nako.

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WORKOUT ALONE

I can't believe sunod-sunod na ulit ang blog posts ko. Hahaha! I'm slowly finding time to do the hobbies that I love. So what is it right now?

1st of November: good workout on my own. Challenge unlocked. Kasi naman, I am used having my personal trainer. Olats kasi ako sa pag mememorize ng iba't ibang klase ng exercises tapos di ko alam kung anong gagawin ko pag ako na lang mag-isa. Isang buwan na din atang natapos yung sessions ko sa coach ko kaya ngayon hirap na hirap ako planuhin ang exercise ko. Umaasa na lang ako sa mga group exercise. It's a no-no kasi puro cardio ang GX. Kailangan ko din mag weights para mag build ng muscle at makatulong sa pagbawas ko ng timbang.

Sinamantala ko ang holiday today. Wala ring scheduled GX kaya nagsikap akong mag-isa. Basta ang mahalaga, ginawa ko yung common routine namin ng coach ko - mobilize warm up 2x, active rest after every set, then 15-20 minutes cardio after ng last set to end the work out. Nag focus ako sa legs nung 1st set. Yung 2nd set ko ng exercise pinaghalong hips, arms, and back tapos last set palagi ang core/abs. Nabitin kasi ako sa exercise ko kahapon dahil may laser appointment pala ko. Kaya happy ako sa workout ko kanina at alam kong kahit ako lang mag-isa, sasakit pa din ang katawan ko. Less hingal ako pag ako lang mag-isa. Pag may coach ako grabe ang hingal at pawis. Mag-iipon muna ako ulit para makapag avail ulit ng personal training. Hindi ako makapag barbell squats at deadlifts ng ako lang mag isa eh. Dami ko pa namang issue sa katawan kaya mahirap ang walang professional guide.

Okay, that's all for today. Need to sleep para may energy sa work mamaya.

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OUR CONVERSATION

MAJ: Kanina sabi ko kay FRO, "hay wala na naman". ADR: So naghahanap ka pala. Ay may video akong ipapakita sa'yo.

Sends video of a news for single friends na hahanapan ng potential partner ang isa't isa through powerpoint presentation.

ADR: Oh sabihin mo sa'kin kung ibebenta na kita ah. MAJ: (remained silent) ADR: Basta sana ang mahanap mo mabait. Yung hindi sasayangin yung pagmamahal mo. Pero maghanda ka kasi pag nahanap mo na yan, baka mawalan ka ng friend. MAJ: Sinong friend? ADR: (remained silent)

Yan na lang ang natatandaan kong usapan natin sa panaginip ko. The set-up is magkatabi tayo tapos nag aalangan akong isandal yung ulo ko sa'yo but when you guided my head on your shoulder, I hugged you.

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WHY IS IT SO REAL?

Hindi ko alam kung pano sisimulan 'tong blog post na 'to. Ang dami nang nangyari sa araw ko pero iniisip ko pa rin yung naging panaginip ko. It was so real that I ended up crying.

I sleep usually around 5:30 to 6:00 am and usually wake up at 11:00 am. Sinisikap ko maka 6-8 hours of sleep everyday para may enough energy ako sa gym. So anyway, kanina nagising ako around 11:30 am at pag gising ko inalala ko agad yung napanaginipan ko kasi sobrang parang totoo.

My dream was about me and my best friend talking. At dun sa pag-uusap namin sa panaginip ko, thoughts ko yun sa totoong life. Ang hirap explain ngayon. Dapat pala pag gising ko pa lang kanina nag blog na ko.

So kanina habang nag mumuni-muni ako sa CR at iniisip nga yung panaginip ko, naiyak akong bigla. As in naging sobrang emotional ako to the point na gusto ko na i-chat yung bestfriend ko at ikwento sa kanya yung naging panaginip ko. Pero hindi ko ginawa kasi alam kong sasabihin lang niya na panaginip lang naman yun.

Ang dalas ko managinip at minsan parang di ko na alam kung ang panaginip ba eh may ibig sabihin sa totoong buhay. Sa psychology class namin dati ang sabi subconscious thoughts and desires daw yun. Ewan ko. Siguro oo.

Ano ba 'tong post na 'to, walang kwenta.

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STRAWBERRY LEMONADE

"Ang blooming mo ngayon", says my tribemate as he enters my car. Instead of saying thank you right away, nagreact ako in a way na parang hindi ko tanggap sa sarili ko na blooming ako. Hahaha! Or kasi, hindi ako sanay na nasasabihan ng compliments.

Ewan ko ba. Nahihiya ata ako pag may natatanggap akong compliment. I remember in 2013 during my training as an abacus teacher, nasabihan ako na parang hirap na hirap ako mag bitiw ng "thank you" pag pinupuri. I really don't know pero siguro dala ng hiya. Hindi naman mababa ang tingin ko sa sarili ko pero I admit having insecurities. Maybe the insecurities I have are the reason why it's hard for me sometimes to appreciate compliments.

But I am slowly changing it. Two Sundays ago, I was approached by a female stranger after mass saying na ang ganda daw ng boses ko at dapat sumali ako sa choir. I immediately said "salamat po". And then last Sunday ganun din. I was approached by a male stranger with his wife saying the same thing. Ganda daw ng boses ko at dapat nasa choir loft daw ako at kasali sa kumakanta. I said thank you. It feels good being complimented by strangers. At yun na nga ata ang sign para bumalik ako sa choir. Hahaha!

So kanina hindi ako nakapag thank you sa blooming thing. Siguro kung stranger siya, nag thank you ako agad. Nalibre tuloy ako ng strawberry lemonade drink ng wala sa oras. I am not used to this! Haha! Pero thank you, Nats.

I went to UP Diliman earlier as planned to meet my cousin to get the laptop that I asked from his dad. I thought of meeting my tribemate kasi wala lang. Haha! He's working there kaya why not have a little catch up thing. So after finalizing my plan with my cousin, I PMed him saying na I will be around UP nga and maybe he wants to meet with me din to eat somewhere since nung retreat pa lang napag-uusapan na namin ang mga go-to restaurants around the area na masarap kainan since we both love food. Haha! A week after our retreat we visited Gubat in CP Garcia together with another tribemate. Hindi na nasundan yun so good thing natuloy kami kanina kahit super biglaan lang ng plano. He suggested to go to Area 2 to try Malysian food pero unfortunately, buttered chicken lang ang available kaya yun na lang kinain namin. Thanks to him for supporting my diet somehow, he ate most of my rice. Tapos he asked if I wanted to drink some coffee but I declined kasi matagal na ko umiiwas sa kape. Plus, habang papunta kami dun sa kainan bigla niyang sinabi na may meeting siya at 3pm eh 2:40pm kakatapos lang namin kumain. Before leaving the place sabi niya na ililibre niya ko ng drink. I declined kasi nahihiya ako but he really insisted. Pumunta kami sa nearby cafe and ordered the same drink. Nasa isip ko pa lang yung order ko tapos yun yung inorder niya for him. So sabi ko "uy pareho tayo"! Ayun, we planned to go there again to try other drinks plus their croissants. Sabi ko pa next time kung kakain kami dun I'll make sure na hindi pa ko kumakain or after ng workout ko para sulit kumain. It started raining so right after we got our drinks, nagmadali na ko to drop him sa office niya kasi malapit na din dun yung area kung san kami magkikita ng pinsan ko. I just waited mga 30 minutes sa car then ayun.

So bad we haven't taken any pictures. No picture with my friend and no picture with my cousin. Kainis! But yeah, malapit lang naman sila sa'kin so madali na lang yayain.

A post that supposedly be about receiving compliments but ended up with what my day went.

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PLAN EXECUTION

I started my week right. I woke up early to go to the market as planned. Christmas is just around the corner and my personal goals and ambitions are piling up so why not resume in selling goods.

Yup, your entrepreneur will be back. It's time to execute all my plans. Of course I prayed for this and I'm so thankful that it happened.

My empanadas will be ready this weekend and I will be posting the pricelist this week.

Also, I blocked my recent ex. Yup, finally I did. I cried a little but then slept after. Ganun na lang. Besides, I already lifted everything to God. It's for my mental health and peace of mind. No more turning back. I want to move forward and to heal completely. Ayoko na yung aasa pa ko sa taong wala namang isang salita. Ayoko na masaktan. I reached the point where I'm exhausted. Time to focus on myself and on my goals. To follow na lang ang lovelife.

So yun lang. Just a quick update.

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A DATE WITH MYSELF

October 2, 2024 (Wedenesday)

I have to put the date because I don't want to forget how happy I was this day. I was genuinely happy that day. I really enjoyed my own company. How did my day went?

The original plan was to hit the gym and join the yoga class. But then, hindi dumating ng maaga yung kasama namin dito sa bahay tapos umalis ang papa ko. I can't leave the house with no one but the dogs. I waited patiently and just thought of moving my laser appointment to a later time. Ang plano ko after ng gym yung laser treatment pero dahil di ako nakapag gym, might as well show up for the treatment. Besides, nakapag schedule naman ako nung Monday pa lang.

As soon as Ate Annie arrived, naligo na agad ako. I dressed up with something extraordinary. I never wore fitted sando or tank top in public but that day, I wore it with confidence.

I put on a simple make up to feel extra pretty. Because I felt so positive that day, I took a selfie before booking a ride. Actually madaming selfies. Hahaha!

So there. After smiling in front of my cam, nag book na ko ng Grab going to SM Fairview.

I went straight at Skin Station to have my treatment at hindi ko inaasahan na after the session ay required ako bumili ng products nila. Hahaha! Wala sa budget pero inisip ko na lang na part yun ng "self care" ko. Super bilis lang pala ng diode laser kaya I decided to eat somewhere I haven't tried yet.

I went to Nanyang. Akala ko Thai resto yun pero hindi pala. Singaporean pala yun so nag tanong ako agad kung anong best seller. Upon checking their menu, ang gusto ko talaga orderin ay yun curry nila. Pero dahil sa nag tanong ako ng best seller, sinunod ko si ate. Haha!

I ordered their hainanese chicken which is one of my favorite dishes and a glass of their house blend iced tea. I will order the chicken again next time but not the drink anymore kasi super tamis.

While eating, madami akong realizations. Kaya ko pala maging masaya mag-isa. Kaya ko palang i-date ang sarili ko na parang never kong nagawa. Hindi ko kailangan ng jowa para i-date ako kasi kaya ko pala mag enjoy ng ako lang. Nasarapan ako sa pagkain ko kahit ako lang mag-isa and being alone is also fun. Masaya naman din talaga ang may kasama pero masaya din pala kahit ikaw lang mag-isa. At naisip ko na kailangan ko din tong gawin paminsan minsan. So dahil madaming sessions pa ang laser treatment ko, I decided to make it my "me time date".

After kumain nag book lang ako ulit ng Grab pauwi. At dahil madami pang time before my shift, I played with my dogs at nag picture sa garahe. Gusto ko lang din subukan yung bago kong tripod. Next time I'll use my fujifilm camera instead of my phone. Ganda ng tripod ko kasi pwede both.

Hay ang hirap mag picture kasama aso. Walang maayos na pic.

So there. Simple lang ang araw ko pero sobrang saya ko. Nagdasal ako pag higa ko sa kama an hour before my shift. I thanked the Lord for this day.

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HOW'S LIFE LATELY?

Moving on, going forward.

This is what life is about. You have to continue moving forward as long as you live. No matter how painful or hard your situation is, you have to push yourself up.

I got my heart broken last May and it was a difficult one. Imagine, huling kita niyo ng mahal mo mismong anniversary celebration niyo pa tapos hindi na siya nagpakita ulit sayo. Ang masakit, ginawa mo lahat para maayos ang problema pero siya, kalalaking tao napaka duwag. Di man lang umaksyon o magbigay ng effort. Isang malaking turn off kaya okay na lang din na naghiwalay kami. Ayokong magmahal ng tao na one sided lang. Ilang beses kong pinaniwalaan ang mga sinabi pero bagsak talaga pag dating sa kilos. Wala. Ako pa naman pag nararamdaman kong ako lang ang nagdadala ng relasyon, nawawalan ako ng gana. May tao pala talaga na sa salita lang magaling. Oh well. I'm done.

So far, I'm enjoying my own company. I'm loving myself more. I love my job, I'm embracing my new lifestyle. Simple pero masaya. I eat what I want and go anywhere I want. Yun nga lang medyo nagkakasakit ako madalas gawa na rin ng malaking adjustment ng katawan ko sa night shift tapos nag babawas pa ko ng timbang. Masaya ako sa kung anong meron ako ngayon. Kahit pa walang lovelife. Okay na rin na mag-isa kesa naman sa nagmamahal ako pero sakit lang sa ulo at puso ang kapalit. I'm still thankful though. Lahat ng sakit at hirap na pinagdaanan ko mula May hanggang ngayon, napatunayan ko sa sarili ko na maswerte ang mga taong minamahal ko kasi kaya ko magmahal, mag sakripisyo at magtiis para sa tao. Kaya ko palang magmahal ng ganito. Pero wala eh, siguro nga hindi ko pa rin natatagpuan yung taong nilaan ng Panginoon para sakin. Umaasa pa rin ako na balang araw matatagpuan ko rin yung para sakin. Yung taong mamahalin ako tulad ng pagmamahal ko o higit pa sa pagmamahal na kaya kong ibigay. Yung pagmamahal na kayang panindigan lahat ng salitang binibitawan. Yung pagmamahal na tunay. Hindi yung pagmamahal na may ibang intensyon.

Hay. Tama na. Basta ngayon, ineenjoy ko ang bawat araw. Pahinga muna sa ngayon dahil galing sa sakit. Hopefully sa simula ng October makapag gym na ko ulit.

Looking forward for my Iloilo and Bacolod trip. Kinakabahan na excited kasi wala akong kasama. Nagyayaya ako pero walang available para samahan akong gumala. Baka ito na yung inaasam kong solo trip. Hahaha! Kayanin ko kaya mag-isa? Hmmm. Bahala na. Pero sana talaga may sumama sakin para may mag picture hahaha.