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"Am I ready yet?"

Whenever I started feeling sad about my problem in this world I begin to recall the situation when I was sick. At that time I really difficult to breathe normally. My saturation was dropped down. I was thinking that If suddenly I am gone from this world, "Am I ready yet?". It makes me realize that my problem is just like an opportunity for me to prepare myself better for the next life.

A truly real life.

So whenever I faced my problem now that I must remember to don't be arrogant, must be sincere, and be patient.

If someday I am neglectful about it, you can remind me.

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Mulai lelah tapi gak boleh patah semangat.

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I am so sad really so sad and today's midnight I cried. I can't help to hold my tears. It feels so painful that I can't share to anyone.

I don't have friends anymore who can I talk about anything. I am afraid to disturb them. My family just pressuring me. They just blame me about this situation, something that I can't controll and I don't even know the answer yet. Probably in this world there's no one can tell the answer either.

There's no one that say something to encourage me like "you are doing good enough" with sincerely.

There's no one know how painful my heart it was.

I just can encourgare by myself. Because life is like that.

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My first cookies. So happy although I am not in the good state of mood.

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Just another gloomy days.

Feels alone. It's good nor not good.