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And yet again i'm speedrunning all 5 pages in one night day instead of drawing it in normal time over days.
ALASTOR FINALLY KNOWS HOW HE'S GONNA GET OUT AND IS SO HAPPY ABOUT IT! What he's planning? You'll learn soon.
AND CARMILLA LORE DROP LIKE ACTUALLY? A LITTLE BIT? A little bit of explanation, my headcanon that Carmilla ended up in hell couple decades before Alastor. And got reunited with her family AND THAT WASN'T A GOOD THING, because head of the family was some old af ancestor of her, and he of course was abusive as well. So yeah, Carmilla didn't have it good in her first years in hell. Was she specifically SAed? I will not confirm nor deny it. But this is why she's able to catch so easily red flags of someone going through abuse. At first just vibes, then more specific details.
But YOU. HAVE. NO FUCKING IDEA HOW MUCH I'M HOLDING MYSELF FROM DOING ANOTHER BONUS PART where Alastor has a severe mental breakdown and makes some poor desicions that only worsen it. And another part where Vox is actually being nice and sweet and it almost looks like that their relationships may not be as bad and may actually work. Almost. And another part where Vox notises the signs of Al's depression, gets conserned, but not enough to understand what that means and accidentally triggers a flashback for Alastor... and so many more. After all, they still have to live through [purposefuly obscured amount of time] of their "partnership", before Alastor finally gets out. Also bonus parts of their first year before sex, and how Alastor tries to keep living right after, and the pre-deal part of them talking after the bar scene... so. fucking. many. ideas. HELP. but i really wanna make the breakdown one. Someone even said that it hit harder than part 13, which i don't really see, BUT STILL.
YALL GET SEE IT ONE DAY I PROMISE, I just wanna get to the ending as soon as possible, because damn. this been going on MUCH longer than i expected. I mean, first draft had just 65 pages, and this part was supposed tobe like at page 35 or something. And because of how long it's going we're all getting little bit tired of it, including me.
Also, hey, the pride month started and I ACTUALLY HAD ANOTHER COMIC PLANNED FOR IT?? I promise the one i'm planning IS SHORT, LIKE AROUND 20 PAGES, and it's about origin of one of my weirdly specific Alastor headcanons, and it's for pride month because it's kinda starts from something on the topic of aceness, and the counsil (discord) decided that it fits the pride month lol. SO I NEED TO FINISH THIS COMIC ASAP!!!!!!!!!!
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I lied, i'm posting this earlier.
Before we begin. No, i did not kiss the bricks. And in the previous part Alastor was calling for his mom, he wasn't calling Rosie mom, just saying, since many people got little bit confused.
Welp, this is the part. First few pages don't have anything graphic, and there will be second warning before the worst stuff. Also some of those sick people we talked about in the previous post will again say that they're disappointed with lack of graphic details, and reddit will call it fetish content. Again. Whatever.
TRIGGER WARNING! ⚠ Next pages contain depictions of coercion to sex, sexual abuse/assault/rape, emotionally heavy stuff. Take care, proceed with caution.
Well, Alastor will have a fun time with countdown to exterminations, when they begin. Let's pause here for a second.
I'd split the part here, but next pages all should be hidden, and i can't make a post hiding all the pictures x)
The previous page, before Vox picks Al up, made my guts twist like 20 times when i was drawing it and it makes me SO FUCKING ANXIOUS. Istg Alastor would be less scared if he had to go and be executed. He would rather die than have sex with Vox again...
Istg waiting for something horrible that is inevitable is a torture on its own. I feel that when i think about death 💀 i hate it so much and if i think for too long, I'll have a panic attack like Alastor in the previous part. Uhh...
Alright, enough yapping. This is your last chance to escape and don't see the worst part. And if you are still here... I can only wish you to be strong.
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Ouff... Well, that happened.
THIS. LOOKS. SO MUCH WORSE IN COLOR, I CAN'T, ESPECIALLY THE LAST PAGE. this page is so... Alastor there is just... You say it. And I'll say that i can look away from his knee.
First time Vox was doing it for like 20 minutes, and Alastor felt like it was forever. This time it was 2 hours... He is so lost in dissociation.
You have no idea how many times i was redrawing sketch for the second page. The only frame that i left the same as it was is the one where Vox is covering Al's mouth with his hand. The rest of them were changed so many times because either it looked too nonsensical, or too explicit, or not painful enough. And all the way from the first sketch to the final rendering, i was on the verge of passing out whenever i had to work on this page, this was too fucking much.
And adding the faded dialogue was last minute thought, because i had this idea that Vox wanted to hear Alastor moaning, but Alastor's reaction to being helpless and in pain is to shut up and pretend dead, and hope that the abuser would get bored or smth. And Vox, not getting what he wants, was becoming more violent. Maybe by the end of it Al sobbed loud enough couple of times and Vox took it as a win.
Alright, i hope you have survived this. This is the "disaster". Few next parts we'll be dealing with mental consequences of this before Al finds a way to break the deal. It's gonna become... Little bit controversial, fair warning. But i promised that Alastor will get out of this, and I'm not changing the ending to please the shippers. This is radioSILENCE, and it will remain that way.
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bonus: the ugly ahh drawing vox made. i hate that it looks all cute and innocent. In different circumstances Alastor would absolutely adore this gift. Tease vox about it, but keep it safe in his room. And it makes it even worse.
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OOFFF... This part was actually reworked so much since the original draft. In the first draft they didn't get in a fight, and everything ended in the chair, and Vox kinda smugly threw some nasty stuff and left, but then something went wrong.
As you can see, Vox wouldn't have trouble killing Alastor... though, he knows that Alastor will be back anyway. Other question, would he kill him permanently if Alastor reqested it?... Good thing we have no way to find out i guess.
Also, drawing that one specific frame where Vox is licking Al's neck made my guts twist. One thing is when Vox is forcing that and Alastor is just trying to disocciate. Other when he has to pretend to be into that and response to... that. Ughhg. Also headcanon i have for a while now that Alastor has sensitive neck and hates it being touches ESPECIALLY.
Okay, anyway. i love that the previous prt sparked discussions about what love is and how it can manifest, really interesting stuff. I also wanted to adress something else, but i forgor... AH, REMEMBERED!!
Some people read the deal wrong and it at first set me in the panic mode, because people were saying that it's "at least once a year" and i was like WAIT DID I FUCK IT UP but no, it's just a misunderstanding. The actual deal is Alastor's second to last line on the first page of the comic, and it says just ONCE. So, no, everything still works. Phew. Yall got me stressin' dudes.
Also, no need to really apologise for things i sometimes complain about in here (unless you request a fucking r///le comic in the replies, which is HUH??? literally happened btw, i tink you can still find that dude under the previous part of THIS comic), but i was like. Almost flattered, because it means my art is that good that r///le shippers want me in their boat. Which won't happen, btw, lol, you can look but you can't touch yk yk. Um what was i talking about?... Ah, yes, no need to apologise because no hard feelings, it's just interntet, people are gonna be dumb, or assholes, or both, and i'm a tough cookie.
p.s. Al def made Vox cut off Vox's own dick multiple times just for this grim satisfaction. In fact, i wanted to include that in the part 6, but couldn't figure out how to draw it and went for the cannibalism scene instead
p.p.s. also, i accidentally came up with even darker version of this au...
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