I am trapped in a nightmare I can't wake up from. Every day is the same and I have to watch my life pass me by, time running away from me, as I can only repeat myself day in day out. I watch others as through glass, experiencing what I never will. Feeling how I never will.
And whenever something out of the usual happens, it's something bad, something shocking, terrifying or infuriating. That keeps me up for a night, has me recover from to a certain state, in which I then again linger, screaming silently, crying in grief.
For my own time, my soul and a life I never lived.



























