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He/him | 28 | UK | Meningoencephalitis, stroke + sepsis survivor | Crippled as in fuck you | Blog not made with minors in mind | Free Palestine 🇵🇸

[nightmaretour]

Since people are actually following me for some reason, I thought I should probably make some kind of introductory post I guess.

I'm Zero, I'm a 28 year old visibly disabled trans man with a facial difference living in the UK, and a survivor of meningoencephalitis, septicaemia/sepsis, and a resulting stroke as a teen. I have multifocal right hemisphere brain damage resulting in hemiplegia (including facial paralysis), epilepsy, and a whole host of other health issues. I cannot mobilise without an aid (currently crutch and mobility scooter!) and have to live in sheltered housing. I'm open to questions as long as you are respectful.

I post a lot about disability, cripplepunk stuff, trans rights, general LGBTQ+ rights, anticapitalism, etc. Some of what I post is not suitable for minors, I don't have the energy to go through the profiles of everyone who follows me but I'd really prefer you didn't. My blog runs on a queue, so that I don't spam everyone's feed every time I spend a couple of hours browsing when I don't have the energy for anything else.

I have a cognitive disability, so you have to be a little patient with me sometimes, my sentences don't always make sense on the first go and I forget or misremember things. I appreciate it if you respectfully point out if I minced something. I can make my own judgements and form opinions just fine though, so fuck off if you're going to use it as an excuse to belittle and discredit me.

Terfs/radfems, bigots of any kind, eugenics and genocide supporters or apologists, and radqueers/transID (ESPECIALLY "transabled") please interact so I can block you. Forced birthers/anti-choicers, my posts are not and have never been for you, fuck off. If you whine to me about cripplepunk and physical disability spaces being "exclusionist", I will block you. Same if you cannot be respectful about facial differences, strokes, brain damage, visible disabilities, etc, with a zero tolerance policy. I will also most likely make fun of any and all of the above on my blog :)

I am not a free reference for your whump fic, nor am I a subject for your disability fetish. I block able bodied whump writers and devotee blogs on sight. No exceptions. If you tag my serious/personal posts with fictional characters or things like "writing reference" I will block you.

🍉🇵🇸I believe in a free Palestine! 🇵🇸🍉

I will not argue with or tolerate genocide supporters or apologists, my blog is not a safe space for any kind. You are not welcome here.

If any of my image posts are missing image descriptions, please let me know! I do try to add them when I remember but my brain has a very limited capacity, and often things slip through the cracks and disappear. People who make image descriptions I love you, I will paste them into the original post. Please also let me know if you spot any other accessibility issues, such as text not being screen reader friendly.

I also have an art blog over at @disharm0nious ! There's not much on it so far, since I'm dealing with a lot health-wise right now. I do a lot of work with textiles, including screen printing and making my own cross stitch patterns.

(Pfp is by @reflexicon!)

My common tags because Tumblr's blog search function is dogshit (please ignore this post if you're seeing it in these tags):

[snapcracklepop-myjoints]

happy disability pride month to mean cripples, nasty addicts, people with down syndrome who arent nice and talk constant shit, wheelchair users that WILL run you over, autists that dont care and arent about to pretend to, people who lie to their psychiatrists, people that sit on the floor in public places with no benches, amputees that lie profusely about "what happened", ; to the "noncompliant", the "drug seeking", the "mean", the "difficult" and the "undeserving", and so on and so forth, i love us all and we deserve the world actually mwah mwah

[snapcracklepop-myjoints]

to people that hide contraband in their assistive devices. to people that do party tricks they arent supposed to and people who will spit on you if you ask them to do party tricks. to people that weaponise the infantalisation of disabled people for their own purposes (theft et. al.). to the people who "misuse" their medication and people who dont take it at all. to my mother, who takes out her hearing aids when she doesnt want to hear shit anymore but will still pretend to be listening so you dont catch on. to people who sleep all the time and to people with "abnormal" circadian rhythms who are unwilling to alter their sleep/wake cycle to best appeal to societal (and moral) expectations. to people that complain loudly about inaccessibility and refuse to try and "make it work". to people that charge money for invasive questions and people that pretend not to understand the question at all.

[five-thousand-loaves-of-bread]

AAC users who swear profusely <3

[memorycycle]

youtube video: can i survive a week in the dark cave with only 5$

the thumbnail: handing 1$ to a centipede

[green-is-gay]

i dont WANT pride months to be over,

on the other hand...

[nightmaretour]

As we all know, antifascism is when you make the Tumblr profile you use to throw slurs at and suicide bait minorities red and black

[nightmaretour]

And anarchy is about being a young witch trying to shill for police states on a red and black profile in the alps

[funstyle]

*cools ur dashboard down*

[nightmaretour]

[ID: Two extremely pixelated GIFs of a blue 3D desk fan swivelling back and forth, with a transparent background. End ID]

[deltaslost]

btw everyone who calls disability pride month 'gay wrath month' is getting blown up. by me. i have bombs specifically designed to blow up whoever looks over disability pride month

kaboom bitch

[the-future-is-chrome]

irreversible damage? damn, i sure hope it is! (if you need context or an explanation i made one under the cut)

this art piece is based on the cover of the book "irreversible damage" by a terf named abigail shrier. the book is a transphobic shit show that fearmongers about transitioning, specifically for transmascs and trans people afab. i made this art to be a subversion of the book cover by showing the girl as a happy and fulfilled trans man. the phrase "damn, i sure hope it is!" refers to the "irreversible" part of the book title and how a trans person would want their transition to be irreversible

[wizardarchetypes]

oh hell yes an open askbox. builds a nest in it

Aw man I can't remove that bc of the migratory blogger treaty act of 1918. very well.

[dead-mad]

Disability tumblr is nice because you log on to complain about symptoms and your mutual is complaining about the same thing and you can give them a little heart in suffering solidarity

[nohopethiswillallendintears]

you’ve been moving around a lot? FATIGUE!

you’ve not been moving around? FATIGUE!

you’ve been standing? FATIGUE!

you’ve been sitting? FATIGUE!

you are simply conscious? FATIGUE!

you’re sad? FATIGUE!

you’re apathetic? FATIGUE!

you’re happy? Headache…AND THEN FATIGUE!

[memory-of-stargazing]

“It just means you have to work double as hard as most people!”

Well maybe I don’t WANT to work double as hard as abled people!! Maybe I deserve a BREAK!! Maybe I’ve been working MORE THAN double as hard for MY WHOLE LIFE and it’s led me to immense burnout & caused me to develop several MORE disabilities!! Maybe I should be ACCOMMODATED so I don’t have to KILL MY BODY AND BRAIN over trying to do what abled people can do!! Maybe I DON’T have to work double as hard!! Maybe if there’s the option to let me NOT work double as hard, I should have it, because I’m already working double as hard JUST TO SURVIVE!!

Why do you think disabled people deserve less rest than mentally & physically abled people?

[ratbastarddotfuck]

Happy disability pride month to all homebound disabled people, I wish for you so much love, support, and celebration throughout July. Be proud of who you are, where you've been, and where you're going. I love you.

[nightmaretour]

The great thing about piebaldism is that from the front nobody can tell I haven't bleached my mohawk in a while

[gaslit-dipshits]

[appalachian-werewolf]

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[snapcracklepop-myjoints]

happy disability pride month to mean cripples, nasty addicts, people with down syndrome who arent nice and talk constant shit, wheelchair users that WILL run you over, autists that dont care and arent about to pretend to, people who lie to their psychiatrists, people that sit on the floor in public places with no benches, amputees that lie profusely about "what happened"; to the "noncompliant", the "drug seeking", the "mean", the "difficult" and the "undeserving", and so on and so forth, i love us all and we deserve the world actually mwah mwah

[fallout-lou-begas]

something that i find interesting about independent animation nowadays is that if you don't have studio/streamer backing, you have to release your work yourself on the internet, but you have to do it for free on the internet because virtually nobody is going to be willing to accept a paywall just for one original show, so what you have to do in order to make any money off of it is make all of your money from merchandising, but then this means that you show must be merchandisable and have very toyetic character designs that translate easily to plushies and whatnot, but then you also need to cater your show to people who are disproportionately inclined to buy merchandise like that in the first place so that your sales can be enough to sustain you, which means that even if you want to communicate complex or difficult ideas in your work, your independent animation project must attract (at least on a first impression) and retain viewers who are both very consumerist and very capable of rabid passion, which unfortunately has a single-circle shaped venn diagram with a lot of the most toxic fandom tendencies known to man, and this explains a lot of things about independent animation and its fandoms nowadays I think