Nikki

I'm depressed and lonely

[nikki112401]

It’s quite funny.....

If you’ve ever watched gossip girl you know Chuck and Blair. The inseparable duo who is pure evil. I just realized that I have my own version of Chuck and Blair. Me and someone who loves driving me insane but for some reason we still love each other

[nikki112401]

I have a secret

Can you keep it?

I fucked my friends crush the same day I met him and he said I was better than her so we are gonna continue fucking and just not tell her..oops

[nikki112401]

I love when he calls me babygirl

[brattylikestoeat]

Mute this. The music is annoying.

Follow @brattylikestoeat for more.

[spaghetti-doodle413]

this is what insomnia sounds like

[paprikanoir-deactivated20190515]

Soundtrack of Executive Dysfunction.

[thehighpriestofreverseracism]

fam I’m over here having a laughing fit, tf is this music😭

[teamnowalls-deactivated20180918]

no funny shit if u slowed this down and got sza on it itd be a hit 

[vesface]

[thisisthesadplace]

Abused kid thing #46

When your parents say “you don’t even try” but you’ve actually been trying your hardest and your stomach just sinks because you thought you were doing really good.

[betyourefine]

You know, the voices in my head are probably right, I really am worthless, and lonely, and I should probably kill myself.

[killed-long-ago-deactivated2021]

Loneliness

It’s always there

24/7

Every night when I return home

Two are waiting for me

An empty room

And loneliness

every morning when I wake up

Loneliness is already making coffee

They say when people leave, they make room for someone else to come

And when you left

Loneliness took the opportunity

And snuck in

That’s the difference between loneliness and people

You can see who comes in your life

But not loneliness

No

Loneliness sneaks inside

And it never leaves

It never makes room for someone else to come

And if someone comes, it’s never comfortable

There’s no room for two

There’s only room for one

And loneliness will fight hard to be that one

And that happens again and again

It’s a never ending cycle

Loneliness will never get tired of fighting to stay

People eventually give up

And before you know it

You’re addicted to it

You will do anything

Anything

To push them all away

So in the end

It’s only you

And loneliness

[blogaboutmusic]

bi bops: a playlist

Pro’s of being bi: not having to chance pronouns in songs cuz it all works, WHOO (they’re not all necessarily about love, some of ‘em are just bops.)

janelle monae - make me feel ryan, chad - i don’t dance janelle monae ft grimes - pynk the 1975 - love me halsey - strange love halsey - young god troye sivan - wild cobra starship - hot mess panic! at the disco - girls/girls/boys harry styles - woman dodie - in the middle troye sivan - heaven hayley kioko - girls like girls arctic monkeys - suck it and see rex orange county - best friend panic! at the disco - new perspective zolita - explotion rex orange county - loving is easy hozier - take me to curch reo speedwagon - can’t fight this feeling anymore panic! at the disco - death of a bachelor arctic monkeys - she’s thunderstorms david bowie - heroes queen - i want to break free troye - fools grandson - despicable 5 seconds of summer - why won’t you love me green day - missing you 5 seconds of summer - valentine electric six - gay bar bo burnham - my whole family… gin wigmore - girl gang panic! at the disco - old fashioned the kooks - sweet emotion the kooks - bad habit janelle monae - i like that garbage - queer salt-n-pepa - let’s talk about sex marina and the diamonds - sex yeah

Please reblog if you like the list! Playlist in the link below if you’re interested! bye y’all, xoxo

https://open.spotify.com/user/mauddorien/playlist/4iRYJ9bBPRcyEepvtQxCbJ

[astrodidact]

[dragoni]

Guts for the Gutless

[isthisanewsie]

Girls don’t want guys Girls want full length Broadway musicals professionally recorded and put on Netflix

[nikki112401]

There’s this boy that I think I’m falling for. I don’t think it’s love at the moment but I definitely like him. He’s so sweet and cares and does all these cute things with me or say cute things to me and it kills me. The story behind the pictures is I drew a single heart on him and he once he looked at it he turned to me and simply said “cute” and smiled and then said “now draw me a hundred more” so I started drawing more and he had this cute little smile in his face and then I stopped for a moment and he immediately looked up at me and then at his arm and said “that’s not enough” I knew this fact I was just adjusting my body so I told him just that and as I continued to draw him and I had the same idea a single broken heart in the middle. So I drew the broken heart and then he asked me to draw the rest of the hearts in the shape of a heart so I happily complied and that’s how the masterpiece was created but I think the thing that got me the most was when I was done he looked at it and smiled at me and said “ I love it, I want this tattooed on me and when it comes to then I want you to draw it all over again” that’s what got me. He wanted me to draw something that would be on him forever

[nikki112401]

Is casual sex too much to ask for?

[im-dead-inside11]

Having anxiety and depression. @thebloodundermyskin

[kungfutaichimaster]

Full body work out day! Get to it, monster!

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[asking-the-death]

You need a private talk? Just send me an ask!:)

[nikki112401]

Today I did something that made me very happy. I don’t know if other people would agree but it was something that I did for myself. I might be hurting people that I love and that love me but I don’t know, I just feel so right about what I did and maybe that makes me a monster, but to be honest the monster inside of my is now at ease and that monster is how I’ve gotten this far. So maybe what I did was exactly what I needed to have control over my monsters and demons because the monster inside of me, the one that represents my soul, was losing the battle and this is how it conquered all of the others.

- A happy monster at rest