i'm not happy here

4teen he/it i'll be posting ED content please don't interact if you are sensitive to this everyone deserves recovery when they choose it

[niko-is-sad]

info

i am a minor and i just want those over 18 following me to be aware and just block if you do not wish to be interacting with me

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day3

SW : 103-104lbs

CW : 102.2lbs

GW : 90lbs

ate about 290 maaybe 300 calories, going for 20k steps today.

doing OMAD today, pretty much deficit maxxing lol

going to go swimming soon, at 15k steps currently might even go to 25k if i feel like. burned like 340 calories from walking so far so i'm actually so proud of myself

i got in a goo amount of protein considering i don't usually have enough pretty much always.

(not my photos, they're off pinterest as th1nsp0)

[niko-is-sad]

meal of the day

okay so i dont like eggs but...

i made 3 egg whites (scrambled) added black and white pepper and salt (some normal and pink cuz i havent tried pink salt before) with chopped lettuce (1cup) and 2.5 servings of deli meat ham

~36 or 36g of protein and only ~255 calories

(it's actually not bad! not my favorite but its good protien under 300 cals, afterwards i had a cutie and monster so total is around 295 calories)

[mentalclairity]

“Woah, you must be hungry!”

[niko-is-sad]

my rules

updating my rules now that i know what is actually doable for me

-weigh-ins every morning (i managed to take my parents scale without them noticing)

-post daily progress blogs around noon

-only break a fast after meeting the goal

-tmad max but aim for omad or fast

-6k steps *minimum* but aim for 15k+

-15 minutes working out daily excluding walking

-i can chew gum and drink 10cal or under drinks during fasts

-drink as much ice water as i can between weigh in to 1am

-nap when hunger is uncontrollable and only sleep for the night if i can fall asleep before 11pm

-chew food as much as possible and small bites while drinking lots of water

also, should i start adding th1nsp0 pictures to these kinds of posts because i never see people using men in th1nsp0 and there's really good ones on pinterest

[southinkimskinnyyyyyyy]

the day you said "I will start next week" would've been 2 pounds ago now

[niko-is-sad]

wait i found out i can copy and paste tags its okay now

anyways i know you have to sleep well to lose weight but i want to be up early and i naturally stay up later so i'll try to only nap when i can't control my hunger from now on i guess

[niko-is-sad]

i'm not diagnosed with anything but if i was it would most likely be osfed/ednos anyways but i'm just using ana and mia tags to reach more people (ooooh i'm such a big liar (but really idk i'm bored i should probably go walk)) also i'm trying to collect as many ed tags so i'll probably have more tags not after following a ton but can i make it show more than like 10 tags i'm following when adding tags?

[niko-is-sad]

i'm tempted to get an ana coach and i also can't come up with reasons not to besides a lot being predators and having to send someone body checks uuuuuurgghhh

[niko-is-sad]

i only miss school because i don't get a free extra 8 or 9 hours that i don't have to actively resist food

[niko-is-sad]

after i've done my first fast trying to get back into ⭐🪽 i will now be not breaking fasts until i reach the goal for the fast and i will try not to speep unless i'm hungry. i also will have a hard time trying not to eat a ton once i eat but i think i can manage it now if i prepare better. ughh i hope i only maintained and dont gain tmrw morning i'm going to walk most the night

[niko-is-sad]

so unfortunately i ate the salad and then ate a bunch of cheetos so from now on i'm having absolutely no food in my room except what i want to eat and i'll lock myself in my room for a few hours to let the hunger pass

[niko-is-sad]

actually i'm going to break my fast to eat a salad because if i wait longer i wont be able to control myself once i eat but whatever maybe i can do better next time..

[niko-is-sad]

20 hours and im so so so so so hungry i just want junk food lmao

[niko-is-sad]

walking with music is a life saver, it keeps you from being bored for at least an hour or two when you pace in circles, if you slightly dance to the music on your upper half its more movement (mare cals burnt) and its just so fun to hum and dance to music while you walk.

literally the only enjoyable way to get steps in without going outside.

[niko-is-sad]

day2

SW : 103-104lbs

CW : 101lbs

GW : 90lbs

i think i'll start posting these around midday instead of 9pm like my first one but its currently 2:40pm. i have 12k steps in so far (super happy with myself i will keep pacing more throughout the afternoon though) 18/36 hour fast (if i really want to i'll bump it to 48 later) last night i was super duper hungry but i had a peice of gum and drank ice water and walked around more and felt way better.

all rules will be the same for day 1 but i forgot to say zero sugar energy drinks are okay as long as they are under 10cals. only 1 every 2 or 3 days maximum though.

[niko-is-sad]

tb to the time i made a thinspo board on pinterest and they took it down and i was given a help line number (they can't handle my aura)