nikos diary

just a silly angel here to talk ab his day :3

[nikos-diary]

aaa hi im niko and i have a rlly bad memory so i wanted to document stuff from now on. I also just like talking ab my day. I use he/him and my favorite animals are jellyfish. I am in highschool!! I also like to imagine myself as a silly little angel guy, please do not try to tell me otherwise. i will also maybe post art and ootds and stuff :3!! maybe i do not know. I want to be a marine biologist in the future so sorrry if i get insufferable about jellyfish or sharks or something.

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aaa im so tired already from school :( got in a situation w my math teacher, i hope i can switch out :( but im going to a boys house tmmr :3 gna ask him if he actually likes me or what yk like whats going on w him , i rlly does hope he does like me :(

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forgot to write my entry last night oops ! but yesterday was my first day of school and it was pretty nice. I couldnt sleep the night before though. But anyways, i ended up getting to school late after an hour and a half long bus ride. For some reason, my bus driver went through the bus loop for my school but didnt think to stop? So at the exit i had to call him like hey dude this is My School Tf. He got upset at me cus apparently he called for mcfatter students but im deaf, i cannot hear sometimes man. Anyways, in first period, i sit by myself in the very back, and i mean bymyself, no one occupies the desk in front or to either side of me. Im thinking of moving up a seat today to sit behind a kid i know. Then i wont be isolated yk. in second period, i got a new math teacher and hes some old guy who IMMEDIATELY jumped into the lesson, i was like okay wow damn bros excited. it was easy to understand. i hope i keep understanding the math, i hate math when i cant understand it. like it sucks dog when i cant understand and then i give up and nearly fail. I like when i understand. Anyways, then was lunch, and i met up with a friend i havent seen since middle school. Im a junior now so its been about two years. But they told me that on the last day of school , i interrupted a confession from someone else to them and they were glad i interrupted. I felt kinda bad for interrupting but at least i helped? anyways, i had to show two new kids how my schools lunch works, and they both like culinary food. Both got the wings and chocolate cake and stuff. I just bought a soda. after that was my tech program. I was rlly excited to see one of my friends but apparently HE SKIPPED SCHOOL YESTERDAY>:( so i didnt get to see him. but . whatever. Hes coming today ! :3 but my texh program is multi media and im really excited to start except we cant rlly start until we have both teams and our adobe accounts up, which might take a week. So free week? But im antsy to start working already honestly. but it was nice and fun to be there, im excited for the rest of the year. Afterschool was bus, and i was in a different bus loop this year so it was confusing. And so many more people go to that bus loop, so it was also overwhelming. And hot. Summer heat sucks :( i was sweating so much, and im wearing jeans anx a leather vest and a button up, and none of those are good for heat. so that sucked. I got home around 6, which is normal. my sister told me she needs to use my computer for her school and i got upset because thats my computer why cant you use your computer i dont want you in my room asking for my computer when i need to do My work. so im working on fixing the old computer again. The old computer is the computer i used to use before it killed itself and its now being an absolute ass to me. refuses to work >:(. but i hope i can work on it more tonight.

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today was nice and boring i think. I didnt do much. My mom, however, went crazy with my room, taking over most of the work for me. Im pretty okay with that, less for me to do, but then she gets all overworked over everything :(. I showered early and sorted laundry though, and then later i straightened my hair. I havent straightened all of my hair in a long while but i really like how it looks :3? Kinda like some rocker hippie hehe. But then we went to church. I really dislike church, ive always felt off and uncomfortable in one, i get itchy and stuffy, and i cant pray along. Ive tried speaking the prayers and songs outloud but every time it feels wrong and i lose my voice. I think my body knows im not meant to be in a church. Im not sure. I also bought some beads and legwarmers! The beads are to make pretty charms and jewelry, and the legwarmers r just to make me look cute :3. Oh, and the chair cover my dad ordered me arrived tdy, i had no idea what it looked like or what to expect, and i walked into my room after my shower and its just YELLOW. its such a bright yellow that it looks ugly contrasting the rest of my room. I do hope i can get a new chair for christmas, but this will do for now, since it stops the chair from peeling any further (its pleather). i wonder if ill be able to sleep tonight. Every single night before the first day of school, ive never been able to fall asleep easy, or early, despite every effort. i dont feel tired, but hopefully i get to sleep soon so i can wake up sooner and be at school sooner. Im actually excited for it.

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its three am on the day before my first day of junior year and i have watched the perks of a wallflower and cried. I also wondered how some freshman attracted so many seniors to kiss him but hes also the boy from the maze runner so i suppose it makes sense. Before that i went out thrifting and it was nice. I just dont know what style i like. I like all styles. I just dont like my hair. And how clothes look on me. But clothes themselves are cool and i wish i could do them justice but i suppose im trying. But anyways, people think im cooler now because of my clothes, so maybe i am doing tgem some justice. I need more accessories though. You cant find many leg warmers and stuff at goodwill. However , i did find a lot of cute clothes. Anyways. Thats all i did today. Or at least on august 19th, and the night of and after midnight of the 20th but before the day has started.