I’ve not given up on you, regardless of whether we are still together.
Been compiling all the research I’ve done over these past 2 years to find a solution to your issues (both pre-existing & drug-induced).
For the record, I wasn’t cheating on you despite what you might think. That’s the meth-induced hallucinations I’ve been seeing growing worse in you.
The incident where I went to meet a supp to grab a puff was due to the sudden disappearance of my whole family (my support system), your nonchalance to that fact, and your growing hostility days leading up to my parents’ departure (no doubt it was due to lies told to you by the losers who banged you when you cheated even before that fateful weekend).
Nonetheless, like I said, what’s wrong is wrong; any reasons are subjected to the acceptance of the other party 🙏
Same applies to you meeting way more guys and getting fucked by all of them that weekend, before you confronted me after my parents had flown off. I’ll never forgive that hypocrisy.
And I’m writing it down here so that it will serve as a reminder and hopefully also as a trigger to remind you of all the numerous incidents which you were not just hypocritical but you were also manipulative, cruel, hurtful (physically, emotionally, mentally), shameless, cheap; because I know how your condition buddies up with the meth to selectively erase your memories.
For the record once again, despite how bad the last sentence sounds, I truly believe you couldn’t remember, and not that you were pretending. Hence the need to gift you the compiled research as a detailed hypothetical cure, before you downward spiral to your impending death, which from all the research is pointing to, that will be the inevitable end to this dreadful combi.
And in case you don’t read the article out of spite, then heed this important piece of advice:
DO NOT USE 5-HTP DURING OR STRAIGHT AFTER SESSION! IT WILL LEAD TO NEUROTOXICITY! 🚫☠
5HTP might be the most common supplement for boosting serotonin, but research is showing it causes problems when mixed in with meth! 😲
There are other supplements which can boost serotonin. Similarly, take these other supplements only after sleeping post-session 👍
Sleep-wise, research has shown chemically-induced sleep (sleeping pills like Xanax, Eremin/Happify etc) will not reach R.E.M state, which means you regain your energy but your brain/body does not repair itself.
Stick to herbal sleeping aids or better still, melatonin, which research on mice has shown: that taking melatonin as a daily supplement can attenuate meth-damage to the brain by almost 100%. Suggested using 5mg per day, and 10mg the next few days post-session 💪
Resveratrol, found in red grapes and (hence) also red wine, have been proven to curb meth cravings. So if you’re afraid to use melatonin too often, you can have a glass of red wine before you sleep. It’s supposed to boost neurogenesis, and repair the blood brain barrier which the meth breaks down in the end.
Since the brain is the control center and hence must be the last one standing, the rest of the body will experience cell-damage before the blood brain barrier is finally breached (hence most people don’t exhibit any psychological side-effects till about 2 years of regular cf; regular refers to once every fortnight or more, because it takes at least 2 weeks to leave the blood stream, so that sort of frequency means it has never really left the body).
Perpetual short term memory loss is one of the first symptoms that the blood brain barrier has been breached. The sequence of damage parallels the onset of Parkinson’s and Alzheimer’s.
Synthetic supplementation is still risky because long term effects are still not known to researchers. Hence working natural remedies into daily diet works much better, and is easier to execute 👍
The top ones I’m going to recommend are green tea, chocolate (cocoa), honey, tumeric+black pepper, apple cider vinegar, herbs and spices (especially oregano, sage, thyme, garlic), trehalose (a sugar substitute derived from mushrooms, also touted as the possible youth elixir, available from Phoon Huat)
I know 2 guys who have died from slamming recently, one of whom you know as well, one half of a couple that we met together in a work setting. Over-slamming (either too high an amount in one shot, or too short a frequency between shots) can lead to heart seizure, or hyperthermia (overly high body temperature) which will fry your brains.
I’ve seen your recent pics, one of which shows really darkened legs, a sign of too much meth, which constricts the blood vessels, leading to terribly bad circulation. Puffing will never lead to that unless you’re an industrial chimney 😒
Not wanting to see you have your limbs amputated, I’ll have to tell you reluctantly that AAKG or nitric oxide will reverse that… Should save you money on buying viagra too since it serves the same purpose 😝
I’ve found the research which indicates that this is also a legit cure to respiratory depression (body unable to process oxygen) which is the last stage from G-overdose (regardless of GBL or GHB or even poisoning from crossing either G with alcohol), just before people die from their organs shutting down due to the lack of oxygen being processed anymore in the body.
For GBL, which is what we are commonly taking… 3 to 7ml is considered mild overdose, usually leading to puking and a little gasping for air (due to the respiratory depression; 7ml and above is major overdose which will lead to the 3 stages (that I went through, remember that incident?):
1. a mild drunken-like high/happy mood
2. hypothermia: body temperature dropping suddenly (which was why I stood in the shower for more than an hour with the water blasting at almost scalding temp and made you run back and forth to make hot chocolate for me to drink while I was in the shower)
3. respiratory depression: start to feel light-headed and blacking out despite trying to take super deep breaths. Breathing was actually fine, it was the body that wasn’t processing the oxygen properly even though I was breathing as hard as I can.
Administrating a scoop of AAKG during this last stage (take note: not before!) can counter the respiratory depression. AAKG is metabolised into nitric oxide in the body. If someone overdosed on G and goes into unconsciousness, the A&E will let the patient breathe nitrous oxide, which is also converted to nitric oxide in the body, to counter the respiratory depression.
So for the record again, when I ingested more than 10ml of G 2 years back because of you (and you also left me to my own device, and I had to calm you down on top of googling non-stop how to save myself); I didn’t survive because I was lucky, it’s because my intuition was right that AAKG could work.
I know from peeking into your journal that you said sourly that I think I’m a hero from that incident… I was really shocked and saddened to read that… 😔
Well, from all the homework I put into the research, and intuitively surviving that fiasco to spread these important info, I AM A HERO! 😠
I’m slowly returning to the state before I met you, more assured and more confident. And I regret how things ended between us, and also regret not being able to share more good memories with you… 💔
I wasn’t aware my family met you to get back my stuff (they were actually there to get their mibox, not so much for me 😜). So I wasn’t avoiding you in case you thought so… I was preoccupied handling other bizarre/terrible things happening on the biz-end.
On hindsight, I don’t blame you for much. I do see that things started getting turbulent only after I left my job and you pulled out of the company. I had troubling juggling from your sudden exit and finances took a dive of course. Knowing that your childhood financial situation has always left a shadowy imprint on you, I understand why the story unfolded that way in the end… 😢
Recognising that, and with no family around to act as my support pillars, I resisted from trying to patch things with you… Being the pragmatic geek, it would have been a waste of time and might have led to my death eventually, and you know I draw the line at self-damage despite my seemingly masochistic behaviour in our rs…
I didn’t give up, but am in the process of righting those issues that stand in our way. You probably have given up long ago but I need you to know that I haven’t given up… Neither on you nor on us 👍
I’m going to let time be the ultimate test. I need time to get my life back in order anyway. Psychologically, I have resolved everything that has been plaguing me all my life (6 months with no ties to anyone is a lot of time to reflect, psychoanalyse, and resolve). I just need to get the biz back up and finally enjoy the rest of my life properly 😁
Thank you for being the catalyst in my life to lead me to recognise and hence resolve a lifetime of issues 💪 And I dare say if I didn’t love you enough and loved you correctly… to force myself to analyse the rs and adjust myself to right the situations every time, none of those positive aspects would have been possible.
You, who were not brought up in a way to know love, recognise it, practise it (through no fault of your own, ultimately it’s always due to childhood trauma that can’t be undone)… ironically received true love 😜
You might have doubted it because you’ve never been familiar with it, but hindsight would have revealed its authenticity long ago… Too bad you don’t practise hindsight due to denial… 😔
That’s your emotional suppression biting you in the ass, blinding you to facts and leading you to false assumptions and subsequently hallucinations! 😤
Live well baby, I truly loved you and still do 😘 Please don’t damage yourself further in case you are truly meant to be my eventual partner. You owe me that at least 😉 😜
Love you and Merry Christmas… We’ll see if we’re fated to meet again ♥
P. S: a more detailed document that results from my compiled research will be released shortly soon. That’s my gift to you, and also a symbol of the love I bear for you. Tis the season of forgiveness, I forgive you and still love you and miss you 👍 😉 😘
Yours sincerely,
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