Since no one really pays attention to my blog, im using this as an outlet to express myself without people im close to or know finding out. I dont post much, but this and my last post had to do with guys. Kinda like a life up date. This was around mid-October when i posted this. time for another "update"
Dumped that bum nigga for hurting me physically and emotionally. He didnt lay hands on me, but he made me not trust the opposite sex for a good minute. Next came an old flame who i got back into contact with after dumping bum nigga #1. He quickly became bum nigga #2 after being petty, making too many excuses to not see me. After that, finished my last fall semester at uni and went on vacation for Christmas.
2017 has been pretty chill. Started a new job so now im working 2. Graduated in May with a degree in chemistry, learning how to save money, im not paycheck to paycheck living like i was. My love life has still been bummy. My FD called me outta the blue one day and couldnt keep his promises-as usual-so that wasnt long. Met a guy off tinder who was like a 8/10 physically but 2/10 elsewhere. Just a pussy nigga who again, not doing shit with his life. Subpar sex-as if he just lost his virginity and couldnt last long. Definitely that type of guy who gets comforatbel quick, without putting any effort. Atm, im crushing on this guy from work, who is pretty sweet and caring, but lately, he talks to me, like we have good convo, then nothing. For hours. Like this week, he came back from vacay, told me he was gonna hang with me tuesday, not one text. Hmu on wed and told me he would hang thurs. again, no text, nothing. Came over friday, after work, no sex. Hes shy, i get it, but i laid down all the signs i was ready. I was so sticky with sauce from work and he made it over fast, i showered while he was here; do you know he came into tue bathroom to mess with my lights and even started talking to me. He totally was tryna peep once i got out, and i wasnt pushing him away either. But its fine, he text me after talkin bout "you was looking like a snack, ill be there tmmrw". I was aight, bet. All day today, no text. I come home from a party, and still no text. Then he randomly texts me at 10 talkin bout "im sorry, i just never find the right time!" Nigga no, that means you knew you said u would be over today but you still made the choice to go do whatever you are currently doing. Hes a weird sleeper, so he will usually hmu about 5/6a, so we shall see what he says.
I feel its different than him because others didnt care when they changed plans or stood me up. He at leaat acknowledged that i was mad and wanted to make it up to me. Idk, hes at like strike 2/3 and idk if i wanna give him another chance. Id score major point cuz hes well liked by girls at work, but none can score with him. Hes messed with one chick at work, but it was drunk and not that good (what he tells me) but she made it seem like they were basically dating. He literally had to tell her to stop when i was digging around on what "their" status was. Shes basically obsessive. I just hope i can actually get down with this guy. I hate fucking first before trying to date someone but hes just.....mmm
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