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“Make yourself a priority once in a while. It’s not selfish. It’s necessary.”

— Karen A. Baquiran

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I'd give the fucking world to call you right now....

It wasn't supposed to end.

It wasn't supposed to be a chapter we closed..

It was supposed to be a wedding, adventures, love and cherishing.

I won't ever know why I wasn't enough.

And thats okay. I have survived that before and will survive that again.

But it wasn't supposed to end. We weren't supposed to tear each other apart to the point of no return, not communicate, yell, hurt each other. And I'm sorry that happened.

I'm sorry for the hurt you endured because of me. I'm sorry I was too much. That I feel my emotions loudly and I'm not shy to show them.

I love you always. That won't ever change. But we deserve more than healing through some really big things glaring across a room. We owe our friendship more than that. And I am so hopeful at the end of the day that that still means something.

If you were to read the pages now, they are filled with you and us and how hard I fought. I'm not the same as I was and nobody sees that, not how I do. My hurt has scarred and I am terrified of my next moves. The dark is back in my mind and it's blinding. I never wanted to hurt you. I never wanted this to end. And yet ending is all everything feels like. It's all ending. I keep wondering if I should. It would be better. But there's a house to clean, jobs to do, people to keep happy so I keep going. Even though I don't want to anymore.