I don't know whoever you are you might be reading this. But I'd like to share with you something I'm holding on to and why I'm still here, praying that everything will workout well here at the hospital.
I took up a business course in college where we really need to put up a legal running business. And of course businesses costs a lot with all the permit and capital you are needing.
My partner and I were really struggling. We failed our implementation and were really in need of a break. So we took time and somehow she got to enroll and retake it much earlier than mine. I was depressed, I felt paralysed. I got mad at her because I was left behind. She got a new group who helped her and I am nowhere. I wasn't able to enroll in the class because I have no one. But that was all in the past and we have forgiven each other. We're still friends, really good ones.
Fast forward on to the next semester, I still have no group. I need to retake everything I need to start again at nothing. I was already running for graduation and I felt like nothing was going on right. I went to school, even if I'm not enrolled. Even if I don't know what I will do.
Or so I thought... My adviser called me and told me that my grades haven't lapsed yet so I can still do something. I can still graduate If I find a group that would adopt me. 4 weeks into enrollment, I was preparing for an org event, really tired and exhausted from worrying if I'll ever find a group. Because I've talked to about 4 groups and sadly I can't be in theirs. I was tired of worrying and we're reading a verse in the Bible:
Here the woman likens herself to a dog while talking to Jesus. She needs help but Jesus said, as she was a gentile, that children must go first (pertaining to Jewish people, but mostly trying to test her faith). She answered that even dogs eat the crumbs under the children's table. Jesus was so amazed of her faith and did what she asked him to do.
I was so desperate at this moment that it moved me to go fix and pass my completion paper even without a group. And when I went to see my adviser, he was all smiles telling me he found me a group. Who apparently needs one more and I really had fun working with them. And soon after we all graduated.
I think the Lord allows things because he also needs us to be of help to other people. I think he always has the perfect time.
And even now, 2 months at the hospital. No assurance of how we will pay or get out of here. But the Lord is good. He is good. He will continue to be good. He will never stop fighting for me. He hasn't been silent. Because of all you people who have been donating. Of all the people who prayed and have been willing to listen. With those things I know he hasn't been silent. He has been moving and sending his angels. And as little faith as I got left, I know He would continue to renew it and as a Father is to his children... He has given more than any father in this world. He gave His only Son because He loves us so much. Just so death has no power over us. Just so, He could to be with us. So how much more the bread we will eat today? How much more are these hospital bills? How much more of what we ask can he not do if He was able to give His Son despite of we were the ones who deserve to face death. I think I'll think to lightly of Him if I don't believe.
So if you need this, I hope you pray with me for every ounce of unbelief we have in our hearts. And that it be changed to a believing and trusting heart.
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