[noahparkerwtf]

WHAT DO NOT TELL ME THIS IS OVER WHAT

[noahparkerwtf]

[prouddirection18-deactivated201]

[benjnorth-deactivated20131031]

Nah, it’s getting cold and I don’t wanna die.

[noahparkerwtf]

Buy a wig.

[benjnorth-deactivated20131031]

Bald’s where it’s at though.

[noahparkerwtf]

Shave your head then.

[jessicaskylar-deactivated201311]

Okay, good. Why would you find that hilarious, Noah? I get hysterical. Aw, I get a nickname?

[noahparkerwtf]

Any girl who goes in to hysterics when she cries looks hilarious, I mean, have you seen Kim Kardashian crying. Yes, it was a spontaneous, childish nickname, very creative.

[hugo-grandet-blog]

All I want || Noah and Hugo

The last couple of weeks have been quite hard on Hugo Grandet. On his last trip to Paris, the green-eyed boy took some time to meet with old friends and party like in the old times. A big fan of drugs, Hugo couldn’t help but yield in the temptation of taking some cocaine and LSD. Just for the sake of old times, right? And up until now, the youngest of the Grandet’s had quite the talent to hide from his parents whenever he was tripping. Sure, Thomas and Edith Grandet were not oblivious to their son’s addictions, but they had never actually seen him while he was under the effects of drugs. Long story short, Hugo was not quite lucky this time, and as he watched the sun rise in the sky, turning in different shapes and colors and feeling the humid grass of his house’s garden, Thomas Grandet could finally be certain of Hugo’s addiction. 

The green-eyed boy still wonders how the fuck his father let him comeback to the States after finding him in such an intoxicated state. But now that Hugo has had time to think about it, it’s probably because his father has already given up on him. A lost cause. Tu es sans valeur, he kept repeating to himself as he shifted on his bed. And every time he thought about it, there was nothing really worth it that Hugo had done with his life so far, he felt completely useless. And right now, all he really wanted was to comeback to the City of Light. Paris was the only place where he actually felt like he belonged, like his life actually had some sense. And as he kept thinking about it, the idea of enrolling in IESEG, a prestige business school in Paris, seemed like the best he could do. But then, he would think of Noah and a sense of anxiety would overcome him. Hugo couldn’t leave Noah just like that. In fact, the Grandet boy felt as if his boyfriend was the only good thing left in his life.

As his head kept going around everything he found wrong with himself, Hugo managed to get out of bed and walk outside his room and across the hall to Noah’s. Being with the blue-eyed boy was the only thing that could bring him peace. Wearing sweatpants and with his hair all messy, Hugo knocked on Noah’s door. 

[noahparkerwtf]

After returning from his trip to London a few weeks ago Noah had decided how he seemed to feel was much more important than how he really felt. When he was back in the polluted city he liked to call home his mother and sister began to pick up on the way he acted around the house, less confident than when they went out, only laughing or smiling when someone said something funny, never seeming to just smile, of course the two caring girls asked him what was wrong but he just frowned and answered with "nothing", nothing was wrong, nothing at all. After his family's suspicious arose he decided to set aside how he really feels from now on as he really would rather that everyone didn't worry about him and how he felt about himself so he's been happier, always smiling, always using his manners, always being cheery and preppy and sure, he might be slightly tired of the facade but he knows that if he gave anything up he would be bombarded with questions like "what's wrong?" "are you okay?" "why are you frowning?" and Noah's tired of lieing, he truly is, but how on earth are you supposed to tell someone you hate yourself.

After weeks of faking to be happy he's noticed it's actually taking a good toll on him and he's starting to have days where he forgets about how he looks, and of course there are those daunting days where he wakes up and looks down at his huge arms and large stomach and just really hates himself and thinks 'how on earth could anybody ever over me?' but he'll think of Hugo and how he always tells him he's perfect and beautiful and surely he's told the truth at least one of the times he's said those nice things? Noah still doesn't eat much at all, maybe two grapes in the morning before he feels too full and has to empty himself out. He knows what he's doing has gotten out of hand, it's been months and he's started to have moments where he feels lightheaded and weazy but he can't stop until the reflection in the mirror changes and he stops looking like a piece of shit but instead like a normal guy without flab and a protruding belly, He's stopped using a scale because all the one's he's used have shown two digit numbers which absolutely can not be right, he's far too big to be a two digit number.

So as he sits happily on the cream coloured carpet and plays grand theft auto 5 -which he might have stolen from Ben's suitcase- and awaits his boyfriend he ponders on more happy thoughts; because he's just cheesy like that. Every time he thinks about how happy he's been lately it all leads back to one thing    one person; Hugo and he can't help but smile at the thought of him, and just as he thought about his boyfriend and how much he fucking missed him there was a light tap on the door and Noah smiled, he got up and turned the play station off before making his way to the door, he expected to be greeted with the anxious nerves he always felt when answering the door but instead felt nothing but excitement, he didn't care that he didn't look great -for once- he didn't care that he was just in a pair of boyfriend jeans and an extremely baggy jumper because at least he was seeing Hugo, opening the door he felt a smile creep on to his face, his beautiful boy standing right there with his hair tousled as usual. He didn't bother to say a word before leaning up, cupping the boys cheeks and kissing him.

[noahparkerwtf]

[text]: Can I see you tonight? S'il tu plaît.

[text]: yes yes yes :)

[catspotate]

[noahparkerwtf]

@noahwtf:  blurry camera's suck. Miss you @hughesgrandet

[benjnorth-deactivated20131031]

Go bald.

[noahparkerwtf]

I am not going bald, north. I think I'll just get a trim, thanks for the suggestion though.

[jessicaskylar-deactivated201311]

I don’t remember seeing you hungry, Noah. I hope it’s not pills. Science does really weird things for us. Aw. I’m so moved right now. I may be tearing up just a little bit. I’m proud of you too. You’re one of the best people in the world.

[noahparkerwtf]

Well I    I do get hungry, it's not pills, I swear. Emotional Jess is the best, your pubescent teenage girl side is hilarious. Thank you Jessie-wessie you're the best too.

[noahparkerwtf]

[text]: When I am with you, there is nowhere else I’d rather be. And I am a person who always wants to be somewhere else.

[text]: I don’t know how to react to you when you go all romantic on me, i want to be with you all the time too :)

[thetomlinson]

samwch

[noahparkerwtf]

I think it's finally time for a haircut.

[jessicaskylar-deactivated201311]

You’re never hungry. How is that possible? Are you on weird diet pills? It consists of no fried things and some days even cutting on carbs. It’s hard, but I used to hate myself so that spoke louder. I like it!

[noahparkerwtf]

No, I get hungry, I guess you're never around when I am though? Oh, wow, didn't know you were dieting, that seems pretty hard but considering how in shape you are I'm sure you're fine with cutting carbs once in a while, yeah? How come I didn't know this before, you know you've never had any reason to hate yourself, not even before you started dieting. You've always been pretty perfect if you ask me    in a non creepy way. I'm proud of you.

[benjnorth-deactivated20131031]

The gym’s dumb. You gotta like, do shit. So much work. I like running on the field more.

[noahparkerwtf]

I dislike either, dieting is probably the best option for me.

[jessicaskylar-deactivated201311]

That’s ridiculous. I only need your company if you’re going to join. I know, it’s gross. I’m trying to get used to it. I don’t gain weight because I diet like crazy. That’s not true, cousin. There’s nothing like running.

[noahparkerwtf]

No I want to come, I promise, it's just um..m' not hungry? you diet like crazy? what does this diet consist of.. No running really fucking sucks.