this is not your destiny;

yesterday does not define you. noah alexander vaisey; slytherin alumni, chaser for the falmouth falcons and forever war scarred. not defined by a surname.

[noahvaisey]

ginnysocool:

"Well, for the same reason I must decline."

"Aw, come on. I'll be paying you for it. I'll even double the offer if I have to."

[noahvaisey]

weasleyisourkingx:

"The Falcon’s? They’re pretty good. Still, my favourite team will always be the Cannons."

"I'd say we're better than pretty good, Weasley--especially this season. Cannons... can't say I'm a fan, but I'm obviously biased."

[noahvaisey]

"I may or may not be willing to throw 20 galleons at anyone willing to take my sick, 12 year old sister away from me for the day. I've got a game next week and don't do well with other people's vomit."

[noahvaisey]

katie-bbm:

"If you trust us enough to talk to us, you have to trust that you won’t lose us — you won’t lose me, my loyalty and my love for you won’t die. I’m one of those people you can’t get rid of, even if you wanted to, hehe. You are stronger than you believe."

"It's hard to trust that I won't lose you when the seriousness of what I've done is at such a disgusting level. You wouldn't be able to look at me the same, Katie--I'm sure of it. I can't have you, of all people, be disgusted by me. Don't be so sure of that. I highly doubt it."

[noahvaisey]

theodorenott-bbm:

"I’m not an asshole. Just not interested."

"Then I suppose I should save my breath. Wouldn't want to waste the precious time of Theodore Nott, after all."

[noahvaisey]

futurehealer:

"Oh this can’t be happening.. I had my wand just moments ago…. Oh they’ll never let me graduate Healer training at this rate!" 

"Hey--don't get upset. I'll help you find it, alright? Do you remember where you last had it?"

[noahvaisey]

katie-bbm:

"It took me months to begin the process of moving on after the war and after the incident and this isn’t something that just goes away, it is permanently with you. My um — the person I was seeing, he says talking about it with someone you trust is the first step. That doesn’t have to be me, write it in a journal or anything but you have to let it out, whatever it may be…"

"I... I want to let it out, Katie. Trust me, I really do. Having this weighing on my shoulders each day, and keeping it all bottled inside is killing me, but I can't release it anywhere. Journals aren't my thing, and the few people I trust enough to talk to are the people that I can't afford to lose--you being one of them. You can reassure me that I wouldn't lose you all you please, but... if you knew, I can't help getting the feeling your loyalty would die. It'd have every reason to. I'm not as strong as you are, Katie. I can't even so much as begin to move on."

[noahvaisey]

katie-bbm:

"Awful people don’t realize they are awful, and you Noah, are not awful because you can see that whatever you did was — what you had to do, for whatever reason. You can’t keep holding on to this, you need to move past this guilt.”

"I don't want to keep holding onto this; it's eating at me every day and driving me crazy, but I can't let it go, Katie. Not when I'm forever being reminded of what I did."

[noahvaisey]

katie-bbm:

"I — It does matter Noah, because you wouldn’t do something like he did just because you were asked. I don’t believe that.”

"I wasn't asked. I did something worse than he did because I'm selfish--I did it because I wanted to. That makes me... I'm awful, Katie. I mean it."

[noahvaisey]

theodorenott-bbm:

"Does it look like I’m remotely interested in what you are saying?"

"Well, then. Looks like you're an even bigger asshole than I remember."

[noahvaisey]

katie-bbm:

"You don’t know if it’s worse Noah, besides it’s not what he did, it’s why… I could never hate you because whatever you did, you had a reason for it and I believe it was a good reason.”

"I do know it's worse. You nearly lost your life because of what he did, right? What I did was worse. It doesn't matter what reason I had for it. It was still wrong--disgustingly wrong."

[noahvaisey]

katie-bbm:

"That isn’t true. I didn’t think anything could help me, and somehow I’m managing, okay? I might not have known you very long and I don’t know everything about you, but I know enough to know you aren’t.”

"You... you didn't do what I did. What I did is as bad as what the person who hurt you did, Katie--hell, it's worse. Do you think about the person who hurt you? Do you think of them as a monster? Because I'm just like them, and if you knew, you'd hate me as much as I do."

[noahvaisey]

katie-bbm:

"Because you aren’t willing to let other things help you. You aren’t a monster, not even for a little while."

"Nothing else can help me, Katie. If there were other methods of coping, I'd be using them, but there aren't. No, don't say that. You don't know."

[noahvaisey]

katie-bbm:

"I’ll be here when you realize it isn’t helping. Just know that.”

"If it's not helping, why is it the only thing that makes me feel like I'm not a monster, even if only for a little while?"

[noahvaisey]

katie-bbm:

"…I don’t believe you, you can’t just—-I know it’s hard, but this isn’t as good as it’s going to get."

"I don't see any other way around it, Katie. This is working. Alcohol is helping."

[supwolfe]

[noahvaisey]

katie-bbm:

"I don’t mean to over step Noah, but are you sure it’s actually helping? Instead of just pushing whatever is going on back?” She raised an eyebrow at him, her shoulders shrugging lightly.

  "It makes me numb to everything. I know it's bad, but... I think that's as good as I'm going to get." He released a sigh,pushing his hands into his pockets and averting his gaze. He really had developed a problem.