H - she/they

Active 05/24 • 24y • CW:270 • LW:195 • GW:120

[nocalpizza]

I know that diet pills are the devil, but has anyone tried the Obvi Collagen burn? I bought them on a whim today and like I'm nervous to try them,

but bro I'm fat as fuck rn, working two sedentary jobs and I barely have time to workout. So limiting intake and trying these might be the golden ticket?

Will update when I start taking them, with my cal intake and weight.

[nocalpizza]

absolutely inflated to 270lbs :) :) :) :)

starting again and i won't fuck it up this time. I don't wanna look like this anymore

[ifckinglovu]

[nocalpizza]

im looking at all my old thin spoon have saved and god damn, i wish i wouldn't have stopped. i need to just stop fucking eating. i got too comfortable being in a relationship and assumed he'll stay with me even if i gain. but i hate how my body feels, i hate how i look and i just wanna be small :(

[winterei]

how to lose 30lbs over night please and thank you

[nocalpizza]

anya taylor joy is fucking body goals, i will never eat again if i can just look like her

[nocalpizza]

i want to be small so bad, but i also love beer, so idk how that's gonna work out lmao

[0calcoffeeshop]

how the fuck did my ed go from “omg imagine looking skinny in oversized clothes😍” to “imagine looking skinny in my casket😍” and how do i undo that

[decidedlyunhappy]

PSA

I think i speak for every ED blog when i say that even though i hate myself and my body - i do not think the same about any of my followers.

you could weigh 200lbs more than me and i still would not think you’re ugly, MY body dysmorphia and MY ED does not extend to you

[dedfairyboy]

reblog if you’re constantly torn between wanting to say fuck it and eat whatever you want and wanting to starve yourself till you die

[fatestmodelinthebureau]

[strawberryv0mit]

Gentle reminder 4:

for some people their ED isn't a 24/7 thing. Some days they can ignore that voice and eat more than usual, some days they may go out with friends and have a meal. Some days they may choose to have a big dinner after eating breakfast and lunch.

Most days this doesn't happen.

Just because you have days of "being better" doesn't mean that you're any less valid or any less disordered. Just because you ate a healthy amount before doesn't mean you've recovered. It doesn't mean you're not struggling. It doesn't mean you're not as bad as the rest of us.

ED's can be quiet some days for you, that's okay and normal. You're still valid, your struggles are still real, you still deserve help.

[foreverraininginhere]

wow i really needed to hear that.. been thinking i've been faking it yk?

[animatedtext]

[schaduwen-deactivated20220817]

everything is bothering me but i am being so brave about it

[rheaseahorn]

[nocalpizza]

me tonight

[mia-memes]

“Men don’t like skinny girls, they want something to grab onto”

[iobsessoverbands]

Tag 9 people you would like to know better

Thanks @sassholeantonius for the tag!!

Last song: Heresy by Pantera

Last movie: Nobody

Currently reading: not really actively reading anything, but I did start All The Missing Girls

Currently watching: rewatching Breaking Bad

Currently craving: sushi

I don’t really know who to tag?

@larsmybeloved @mustaint @oxymarine @the-world-passes-by

If you want to :)

[only-a-heartbeat-away]

Thank you for the tag!

Last song: My Michelle by Guns N Roses

Last movie: The Dirt

Currently reading: Nothing

Currently watching: Manifest

Currently craving: Chicken

@emometalhead @longlivejbj @artsyvioletgems @wierdoaliengirl420 and anyone else who wants to do this!

[de-luxeviolets]

Thank you @oxymarine for tagging me 💚! These are always fun 💕.

Last Song: West Coast - Lana Del Rey

Last Movie: Godzilla vs. Kong

Currently Reading: Not anything at the moment since I’m out of school for the year but I would like to read some more classic literature just because.

Currently Watching: I still need to finish Avatar: The Last Airbender but I’ve been too lazy get on Netflix on my own 😝. However, I kind of want to start watching The Tudors.

Currently Craving: Truffle Fries 🍟

Tagging: @strawberryswings @shelickedthebeater @tuesdaysgone @awildkaitlynhasappeared @joeelliott @green-tinted-sixties-mind @teenagedlobotomy @anotherhitandrun or anyone that wants to participate 💚!

[teenagedlobotomy]

thanks for the tag @artsyvioletgems !!💓

Last Song: Patience (Guns n’ Roses) 😌

Last Movie: i actually don’t remember. i think the last movie i watched was saw II

Currently Reading: Duff McKagan’s memoir :) shits fire

Currently Watching: nothing good on tv, so i started watching these stanford lectures on behavioral evolution on youtube. pretty neat stuff

Currently Craving: raspberries and bananas 😔

this is totally optional, no pressure, but i’m tagging: @i-wont-be-caged @savage-sunshine @slip-slip-slip-of-stephens-nips @wandahart and @til-our-ribs-get-tough !!

[been-takin-med1c1ne-again]

thank you @teenagedlobotomy

last song: ruby tuesday by the rolling stones and tragedy by hanoi rocks

last movie: the sons of katie elder is the last movie i watched, but the devil all the time is the last movie i watched purposefully lol

currently reading: emily dickinson first and second series poems

currently watching: a lot of law and order, law and order special victims unit, and law and order criminal intent

currently craving: painkiller pills and matcha

i’m tagging: @tommy-lees-lipstick @pinkpeachjams @ruined-razor

[pinkpeachjams]

Aww thank you @til-our-ribs-get-tough 🥺

last song: slumber party by ashnikko and mikrokosmos by bts

last movie: legally blonde lol

currently reading: “home body” by Rupi Kaur - it’s a poetry book and I like it a lot so far!

currently watching: Gotham and a shit ton of youtube

currently craving: Boba tea and cake

I’ll tag: @pinkpudgypearl @jiasdream @bonesfloat123 @name333

[justdonteat1807]

Thank you @pinkpeachjams 🥺💞

Last song: God’s Ddu-du Ddu-du by stray kids

Last movie: The lion King

Currently reading: the art of starving by Sam J. Miller

Currently watching: greys anatomy

Currently craving: Nori leafs and salmon

I’ll tag: @lowcal-vegan @edamame-salad @iqcaffeine

[edamame-salad]

Thanks @jiasdream how very sweet of you!

(you have a lovely taste in music btw..)

Last song: 3108 by Ha Hyunsang

Last movie: Conviction

Currently reading: The Secret Garden by Frances Hodgson Burnett

Currently watching: Breaking Bad (again)

Currently craving: surprisingly nothing, maybe a cup of coffee, but it’s late, so I shouldn’t.

I’d like to tag: @silkymacadamianut @heroes-are-dull-shit @heavenisaphantom @thevampirequeeniwanttobe @avistruggles @totally-fucked-up-and-not-skinny

only if you want to of course. 💙

[heroes-are-dull-shit]

Oh 😮 thank you @edamame-salad ❤️

Last song- oh shit by Lentra

I don’t really read or watch movies lol sorry

Currently watching - drawfee draw v tubers

Currently craving - salt, all the time, anytime

Id like to tag: @brittlerose @tobeperfecttt @thinparkji @skinny-and-sapphic @prettyrexia @wildflower-jiji

[wildflower-jiji]

@edamame-salad is actually my sideblog 🙈, but I’d love to do this again. So thank you for tagging me @heroes-are-dull-shit , how very sweet of you! 🧡💛💚

Last song:

I swear I’m fine.

Last movie:

It’s been quite a while, since I saw a movie, that really inspired me. But besides Conviction, I also liked The Woman In The Window on Netflix recently.

Currently reading:

It’s been a while since I read this book, but for those who haven’t already, I want to recommend „The Subtle Art Of Not Giving A Fuck“ by Mark Manson

Currently watching:

(rewatching) Breaking Bad, Scrubs and Buffy

Currently craving:

Mango 🥭

Who else shall I tag?: @filmegf @heroesaredull @awholelattenothing @nickmilleresque @obliviousreid and whoever wants to, but you don’t have to of course. ~

[awholelattenothing-deactivated2]

@wildflower-salad thanks so much for tagging me!☺️

Last song:

They soothe my soul

Last movie:

Currently reading: I’m taking a Korean class this summer so mostly Hangul letters and phrases 😅

Currently watching: I’m on season 9 and only have 8 more to catch up on!

Currently craving: watermelon with tajin!

I’ll tag @ambivalenk @foreverhastowait @paperthinandslim @teal-eaf

[foreverhastowait]

thanks for tagging me @awholelattenothing!! <3

last song: love will tear us apart - fall out boy

last movie: sabrina (1995)

currently reading: IQ84 - haruki murakami

currently watching: community & because this is my first life

currently craving: tiramisu 

i’ll tag @why-do-you-look-so-blue @visibleheart @sadangelh0urs @foreverraininginhere @dainty-gardens ,if you guys feel like doing this :)

[foreverraininginhere]

thanks for tagging me @foreverhastowait :,)

last song : power - siiickbrain feat. pussy riot

last movie : the woman in the window, on netflix

currently reading : haven’t been able to make myself read all the books in my closet in a while, but i am reading a bunch of theories online about the legend of zelda breath of the wild 2 coming out supposedly sometime next year

currently watching : rewatching - breaking bad, cobra kai, and spinning out (these are all on netflix btw if anyone’s interested)

currently craving : a tweety bird popsicle from the ice cream truck

I’ll tag @mmmmmyeah @moss-covered-lungs @strgzng444 @everythingtried @buzzyfuzzybee @skinandbohnes @mellowbonesland @nocalpizza @soon2bthinn2

only if you all feel like it of course :)

[nocalpizza]

Awwww thanks for the tag @foreverraininginhere ur so sweet

Last Song: Clay Pigeons - Michael Cera

Last Movie: The whole Divergent Series lol

Currently Reading: New Moon - S.M.

Currently Watching: Naruto, Community, Letterkenny, and Ghost Adventures

Currently Craving: Cool ranch Doritos (but they make me very sick) and Goldfish crackers. and a Taco Bell Bean and Rice Burrito

I'll Tag (but dont feel pressured to do this if you dont want to) @empty-shawtyy @downhearteddainty and @sugarfreeenergy-drink

[nocalpizza]

anyone have like some gooood bonespo? thinspo doesn't trigger me anymore