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[noelbwriting]

Morning after

*Rolls over. Sun peaking in through blinds on face. Looks over at phone. Sees that its 12:30pm*

Fuck.  What the hell happened last night?

Sorta remember arguing about something. Let me send her a text..... shit, I don’t what to write,

But what if she ignores it? I know! I’ll just call her and try to make right,

*Attempts to call* ~Automated message:Sorry. Your phone has been temporarily disconnected~

Shit. I must have forgotten to pay my bill,

But it’s Saturday and she’s a creature of habit so I’m sure our favorite brunch spot is where she’ll chill,

*Hoping up and down trying to get pants leg on and falls over*

Ahhhhh. Got damn it, I feel like I broke a bone. Let me just hurry up and get there before my opportunity is blown,

I know its been less than 24 hours and I dont remember much of it but I need show her how much I’ve grown,

*Performs the “Leaving the house” ritual*

Keys....phone.....

Its 2018. How do people even function without a phone!?

*Rushes out door. Gets to restaurant and sees her sitting at a patio table for two.Sits in second seat at the table directly across from her as she stares off to the side*

Listen baby, I know you’ve heard it all before and I’m truly sorry but my memory is coming back slow,

I can tell by your body language that I made you feel low. I do get jealous so I probably called you ..., 

I don’t even want to think about that, lets just go back home and binge on our favorite show,

*She raises hand* ~Her: Check Please~

But you barely ate! *sigh* Forget it, I’ll just try to appease and pay the fees,

*Checks pockets. Performs the “Leaving the house” ritual*

Cellphone, wallet, keys. Cellphone.......

Wait......How did I skip the wallet part and go straight to keys!?

~Waiter: Here you go ma’am~

I left my wallet home by accident, I swear,

You know the thought of your heart breaking I can’t stand to bare but I really must have left it in the jeans I usually wear,

*She puts money down on table and walks away. Goes stumbling behind*

So where are we going babe, you know I wont leave you,

This silent treatment won’t work, we’ve seen worse so I know this something we’ll get through,

*Walks through park headed in direct of a highway*

We can keep this up all day, I won’t give up or get tired,

Even if it means I’ll miss my shift that starts in an hour, you mean more to me so I don’t care if I get fired,

*She stops near the end of the off ramp of the highway, stands there, looks down and lets out a big sigh*

I know, I know. You’re all the wise and sick of the lies,

But I didn’t this time! We might’ve already hit our lowest of lows but now lets strive for highest of highs!

*She turns around. Eyes weeping. Walks right past. Something is visible where she stood*

What is this? Some sorta mini shrine. Banner hanging above it. Whats it say? *squints* “Watch over us in the sky”

Huh? *See other writing. Takes closer look* In....loving.....memory....of.....*Big gasp* Wait....this can’t be.... *Looks in broken glass shard on floor. Sees no reflection* When the fuck did I die?.......

[noelbwriting]

Summer 2013

That apartment in Santa Monica is where we lay,

Not our first encounter but our first real interaction, here in beautiful Californ-I-A,

Beaches and Korean BBQ is how we spent that day,

Walking, talking and getting know each other, we had so much to say,

E3 convention floor is where you were left all alone,

Vibration in my pocket insinuates a new message on my phone,

"Let's hang out" of course, big place and a damsel in distress, it never fails,

I find you and immediately put you on the spot!... by making you karaoke the intro to Duck Tales,

End of the convention and everyone we know wants to go home, they were being such a bore,

But you and I headed to the after party where we danced and let loose on the dance floor,

Next day we meet up and go to the carni-ville,

Roller coasters and games were a blast then you suggested we cap the day off with a ride on the Ferris Wheel,

Fairytale scenario, sun setting as we're stopped at the very top and you giving me signs but a kiss from your lips I was too shy to steal,

End of the night you were tired of waiting so planted one on me, instant heart melt is the best way to describe the feel,

PJs to formal clothes, either way you slay,

Sasha Fierce to Drake, I guess girls love Beyonce,

Say my name, say my name,

They claim love is a losing game but I'm sure they never met you or else they would feel the same,

Way I do,

Been in my sorrows so long I thought my favor color was blue,

Then you give me sun flower kisses and make my flowers bloom,

It's then those grey clouds are lifted and I can see that my favorite hue is you,

I love you, you said first but I meant it more,

The Chrysalis I once knew is now the most beautiful butterfly I've ever seen so spread your wings and Let Your Spirit Soar

[noelbwriting]

Love

Love, 

What exactly is love?

Is it how just being around you can naturally make me smile? 

Or the fact that I remembered the exact number of days since I last saw you? Yeah its been a while,

Mean, petty and callous I was as if you were just the meat to my serrated knife, 

but yet, even now if I sneezed you’d bless me as if I’m not already blessed to have you back in my life,

Is love the way you countlessly and unconditionally sacrifice your heart? 

Is it how you found your way back to me even though we’re worlds apart?

Is it waking up to simple messages from you that put me on cloud nine for the entire day? 

Is it how our brief encounters face to face make me never want to walk away,

Love, 

L-O-V-E love, 

Lionhearted, Omnificent, Vibrant, Eccentric woman U R, 

Love U R, 

Sweet love-ur of mine you are,

When I’m in your presence, overwhelming senses of anxiety, joy and nervousness engulf me and bring me so high I can’t bare the thought of the fall, 

I often can’t tell if I’m going to laugh, cry, throw up or have a heart attack from the shear pressure of it all,

Does the combination of all these feelings create what we call “love”? 

If this is the case then you are the embodiment of which we all seek to attain and sustain one day, 

So to the question “what exactly is love?” it seems that I have found the answer, 

Love is.......You