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☾ ☆ ☆ She was not supposed to win a game that was not supposed to exist. LAROTYX | 22 | DRIFTER A lion-hearted girl who seems to have risen out of nowhere and shares those very same ideals for the future; to be nowhere particular in life and lost amongst others is bliss to her.

[noirejeux]

posts this over here 2

[inbecillis-blog]

okay fine part time beat master part time whiner full time crow is that good? i like that

im actually really really boring but now with your little description as to who what how where why you are im actually really confused and im a bit dumbfounded

points to you for confusing the bird

[noirejeux]

How backwards. Usually it is the birds who confuse me, what with their prittle prattles and tattling to death and whatnot.

You don't sound boring to me.

[milkdays-archive-blog]

meh

[kartsinoma-hatesyou]

THERE ARE MUTANTS ON EARTH. I GUESS THAT FACT NEVER OCCURRED TO ME, BECAUSE I DON’T KNOW WHAT THEY LOOK LIKE. I WAS NEVER ABLE TO IDENTIFY THEM OUT OF THE CROWD.  DO THEY HAVE DIFFERENT BLOOD COLORS OR WHAT? DO THEY EVEN DESERVE TO BE CALLED MUTANTS? WELL, I CAN ANSWER THAT MYSELF. OF COURSE THEY DON’T DESERVE IT. NO ONE DESERVES THAT JUST BECAUSE THEY’RE A MUTANT. I MEAN, I DOUBT THEY’RE ANY DIFFERENT FROM EVERYONE. SERIOUSLY.

MUTANT BLOODS BEING FEARED. I WISH ALL THE MUTANTS KNEW THAT. I WISH THEY COULD HAVE READ THIS, WHAT YOU’RE SAYING. THAT’S NEAR IMPOSSIBLE THOUGH, THE ONLY MUTANTS SEEING IT ARE WHOEVER IS A MUTANT AND SEES ME REPLY TO THIS.

BEING PROUD OF MUTANT BLOOD…

SO BE IT. YOU WOULD BE A MUTANT. 

[noirejeux]

No, not really. I think we all have the same blood color. Maybe. Maybe not.

Mutants on Earth have very visible differences, like extra limbs, or a whole other body sprouting from them, or meshed features or...pale skin and white hair.

Heh.

[kartsinoma-hatesyou]

WHOA, REALLY? THEY CAN LOOK LIKE US? OR LIKE YOU? I WASN’T AWARE THEY COULD DO THAT. WELL, I’VE NEVER STUDIED DEMONS IN THE FIRST PLACE, SO THERE MIGHT HAVE BEEN SOMETHING ABOUT THEM LIKE ‘THEY CAN LOOK LIKE HUMANS’ OR SOMETHING. I DON’T SPEND MY FREE TIME READING ON OTHER SPECIES, THOUGH.

I DON’T THINK WHITE BLOOD IS A POSSIBILITY. I WAS GOING TO SAY YOU’D HAVE TO LIKE, DYE YOUR BLOOD. IN THE END, THAT WOULD KILL YOU. SO DISCARD THAT IDEA. MUTATIONS ARE DIFFERENT FROM THE BUNCH, ARE BACK THEN WERE SHAMED AND HUNTED TO EXTINCTION. BEING A MUTANT IS NOTHING TO BE PROUD OF ON ALTERNIA, AND I I MEAN, MUTANTS HAD TO HIDE INDOORS TO AVOID BEING KILLED.

STILL WANT TO BE A MUTANT?

[noirejeux]

Maybe through mutation it is, though. Nothing is impossible.

I don't think I have ever heard of a mutant being praised for being different. That's a universal fact, Karkat. Here on Earth, mutants are shamed; poked fun at, beaten even. Experimented on. Treating as anything but what they are, and that is, indeed, a person. 

Being a mutant is an arguable thing to be proud of. I think I would be proud, you know. Even if it confirmed my death. Even if I didn't like my white blood or the size of my horns or anything else that you described, I think I would still be proud in the end. Knowing I was different, and that they feared me for it.

Because that is what it is, really. Fear. 

They will see me as an abomination for what they do not have, and then they will try to put an end to me before I can spread.

Because I am ugly, and they are fearful.

I'd like to be a mutant, please.

[kartsinoma-hatesyou]

NOT DEMONS, OH NO. TROLLS. THAT MAKES ME WONDER THOUGH, HOW DEMONS LOOK LIKE. I ALWAYS IMAGINED THEM TO BE THIN, SHORT CREATURES WITH LANKY RAZOR SHARP CLAWS. MAYBE SOME GLOWING EYES AND THE SHARPEST TEETH EVER. BUT THAT PROBABLY ISN’T WHAT THEY LOOK LIKE, RIGHT?

WELL, BLOOD COLOR REALLY ISN’T UP TO YOU. DUH. MAYBE YOU’D BE A MID BLOOD. BUT I’D HATE TO BREAK IT TO YOU, BUT THOSE AREN’T COLORS YOU CAN HAVE. WHITE DEFINITELY ISN’T, AS FOR SALMON

THAT’D BE A MUTATION.

[noirejeux]

They look just as you do, and just as I do. Sometimes they are human and sometimes they are monsters. All the time they're people, though.

Besides, I would care very much to have white blood, even if it meant I would be a mutation. Mutations sound special--like a lot of work was put into their creation, or like little surprises among very normal things! I think that sounds fine. 

I'd like to be a mutation, then. 

[kartsinoma-hatesyou]

WELL I JUST DID.

US TROLLS LOOK PRETTY FREAKY. A FEW FRIENDS OF MINE TELL ME I’M THE MOST HUMAN LOOKING ONE, BUT ONLY BECAUSE I HAVE THE SHORTEST HORNS. BY THE WAY, IT DOESN’T MATTER HOW LARGE THEY ARE! IT DOESN’T MAKE YOU WEAK OR PATHETIC, HAVING SHORT HORNS. LONGER HORNS ARE MUCH MORE INCONVENIENT, IN MY OPINION.

WE HAVE THIS GRAY SKIN, BUT SOME SKIN IS DARKER THAN OTHERS. OR LIGHTER. THIS IS THE LOOK OF TROLLS WHO HAVE HATCHED OUT OF THEIR BODY, THOUGH. JUST LETTING YOU KNOW. WE HAVE YELLOW FINGERNAILS AND SOME OF US HAS SHARPENED TEETH. THIS DEPENDS ON YOUR BLOOD COLOR, THOUGH.

MAN, DON’T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON SEA DWELLERS. 

[noirejeux]

My! You all sound positively ghastly. More like demons, actually. 

But I've met a few demons in my own time. Ones that were killers, no less; quite the thirst for blood. They didn't offer me any harm, just like you.

What colors does your blood come in? Do you think mine could be a pretty color if I wanted it to? I'm thinking some more of a salmon color, or maybe even white...

[kartsinoma-hatesyou]

NO COMMENT.

TRUST ME, YOU DON’T WANT TO GO THERE. MAYBE IF WE OPENED UP SOME TOURIST TOWN, MAYBE YOU’D WANT TO GO, BUT NOT STAY. I KNOW FOR A FACT YOU WOULDN’T WANT TO. I CAN PREDICT THAT THOUGHT, I’M PSYCHIC. NOT REALLY.

DO EVEN KNOW WHAT WE LOOK LIKE? 

[noirejeux]

I don't think you should predict anything from anyone.

And no, I don't. Would you care to show me? Perhaps weave me a tale? I do love a good story!

[kartsinoma-hatesyou]

THAT’S RIGHT. I DON’T.

BUT YOU’RE MISSING MY POINT! OKAY, YES. SOME OF US ARE EASY TO BEFRIEND! SOME OF US WOULD BE HAPPY WITH MAKING NEW FRIENDS, BUT IN OUR CULTURE IT IS 100% ACCEPTABLE TO MURDER SOMEONE. ON HOMEBASE IT IS ANYWAY, BUT ON EARTH? OF COURSE IT ISN’T. THERE ARE OBVIOUSLY CONSEQUENCES. THEY’RE HOSTILE, SOME OF THEM. SOME OF THE TROLLS I KNOW HAVE KILLED THEIR FRIENDS OVER SILLY PROBLEMS.

I GUESS I DON’T WANT YOU TO BE A VICTIM OF THAT? THIS IS JUST A WARNING. I’M JUST LETTING YOU KNOW WE ARE PRETTY VICIOUS!

AND SO AM I. 

[noirejeux]

Why, mister Karkat, had I not known any better, I'd say you were waxing something rather amicable for me. A true friendship blossoming amongst lilies, yes?

Besides, it is unfortunate that reality could not send me into a galaxy unknown to your planet; only in my mind, really. I'm afraid our rendezvous is but a dream. 

[kartsinoma-hatesyou]

YES! AN ENTIRE PLANET IS INHABITED BY OUR KIND, LAROTYX. WE ALL ARE DIFFERENT THOUGH, AND IT’S RARE TO FIND A TWO TROLLS WHO ARE SIMILAR.

YOU DON’T WANT TO MEET EACH AND EVERYONE OF US. SOME ARE COMPLETELY INSANE WHILE OTHERS ARE JUST A LITTLE TOO… FRAGILE? AND IF THEY ARE, I WONDER HOW THEY EVER MADE IT PAST THE GRUB STAGE. A GREAT MAJORITY OF US WOULD THREATEN YOU AND POSSIBLY KILL YOU ON SIGHT. OR KILL YOU EVENTUALLY. I DON’T SUGGEST YOU TRYING TO BEFRIEND OUR SPECIES. 

[noirejeux]

But you don't want to kill me.

If I befriended you, I think I could befriend them, too. Unless you are calling yourself soft.

[kartsinoma-hatesyou]

BUT YOUR INITIAL DEFINITIONS OF TROLLS SUCK.

THE TREES DID NOTHING, SO DON’T USE THEM AS AN EXCUSE! IT WON’T WORK. THE TREES JUST SWAY AND OFFER SHADE, AND ARE USED BY BIRDS FOR THE SOLE PURPOSE OF SHITTING ALL OVER VICTIMS. I WOULD KNOW, SINCE THAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME.

WE DON’T ACTUALLY LOOK EXACTLY LIKE YOU, OBVIOUSLY. BUT WE STAND ON TWO LEGS AND HAVE FINGERS AND TOES AND TEETH AND TONGUES. BOTH OUR RACES ARE ADVANCED, BUT I’M JUST SAYING THAT TROLLS ARE MORE ADVANCED THAN YOUR TROLL-BRIDGE ONES. 

[noirejeux]

Hmmmmmm! Hm hm hm. 

That is quite the synopsis. 

So, you are telling me you have an entire species just like you? Many, many trolls? Ones who do not collect tolls and are not unusually hairy?

Huh. Then I would like to meet you all, if I could. And I say I should.

[noirejeux]

I sure am raking in a lot of people here, tonight.

[kartsinoma-hatesyou]

I AM NOT THAT HAIRY! I HAVE A MANE OF HAIR ATOP MY HEAD AND ON MY ARMS AND WHY AM I EVEN INFORMING YOU ON WHERE UGH, NO. YOU’RE WRONG AND NOW YOU’RE JUST PICKING ON ME.

WE ARE FAAAAR MORE ADVANCE THAN YOUR STORY BOOK TROLLS. WE DON’T EVEN LOOK ANYTHING LIKE THOSE TROLLS. SURPRISINGLY ENOUGH, WE LOOK LIKE YOU GUYS! OF COURSE THERE ARE MODIFICATIONS TO THE SKIN AND A LOAD OF OTHER ASSETS BUT WE HAVE THE SAME GENERAL FIGURE. SO YES, WE ARE A DIFFERENT KIND OF TROLL!

WE DON’T SUCK.

[noirejeux]

I never said you sucked, Karkat.

Maybe you are hearing someone else. The trees, even. Sometimes they pick on people because they can't do much on their own. That's why it's a good idea to coddle them.

So, if you are so advanced, why do you look like us? 

[kartsinoma-hatesyou]

WHAT. WHAT?? WHAT ARE EVEN THOSE THINGS? THOSE TWO OTHER ONES YOU LISTED. MERMAIDS ARE KNOWN WORLD WIDE BUT WHAT THE EVERLOVING FUCK ARE SALTIES AND HIPPO CAMPS.MERMAIDS DON’T EVEN EXIST. YOU’RE INVESTING YOUR STUDIES ON A TOPIC THAT IS TOTALLY MYTHICAL. I’M NOT TELLING YOU TO STOP, BUT I’M JUST POINTING THAT OUT TO YOU. THAT’S ALL I’M DOING! SO DON’T GET ON MY CASE ABOUT IT.

WELL, STONES ARE JUST POSSIBLE TREASURES LYING AROUND THE EARTH. THE CRYSTALS ARE WHAT ARE ODD. YOU CAN EVEN SEE THE CRYSTALS ON ROCKS JUST BY LOOKING AT THEM, BUT THEY AREN’T THE FLASHY AND FANCY KIND. I MEAN, STONES ARE OKAY. A GOOD TOOL IN BATTLES. A GREAT, SMALL AND DENSE ITEM TO THROW AT YOUR OPPONENT. I FIND THEM MORE USEFUL THAN ODD.

HAIRY? LITTLE?? AND UNDER BRIDGES? BRIDGES CAN’T EVEN BE A HIVE UNLESS A TROLL IS HIDING OR— NO!!! THAT IS NOT WHAT WE ARE. WHERE DID YOU EVEN GET THAT IDEA?

[noirejeux]

You're an odd one to be saying whether or not something is mythical.

I read it in a storybook once. Why, are you a different kind of troll? Do you stand beneath docks and toll boatsmen to anchor? How hairy are you? Hairy, scary, or quite contrary?

[inbecillis-blog]

im dave dave strider

part time beat master full time crow

thats basically all there is to me whore you?

[noirejeux]

And to what does the other part time serve? You must have a part time for your part time to balance out your full time, yes?

I don't believe that. No one is so...black and white. Especially crows. Harbingers of bad beginnings, they are, and they are always full of little secrets and whispers. I still find them beautiful, though. 

I'm not so much a who as I am a how and why--maybe even a what? But never a who, because I know who I am. I'm not a who. Hoohoo!

I'm a why named Larotyx, and a how named Flowers; a whyhow named Larotyx Flowers, spawn of a who-what and sister to a where. It's nice to meet you, Dave.

[noirejeux]

And who might you be? Or, rather, who wouldn't you be?

[kartsinoma-hatesyou]

THE SCOREBOARDS REMAIN UNTOUCHED, BOTH OF US WITH AN EQUAL SCORE OF ZERO. … WE’RE LEFT. YES, WE ARE LEFT.

THOSE ARE NOT SHELLS, THE ONES THAT MOVE ON THEIR OWN. THEY’RE ACTUAL LITTLE CREATURES INSIDE OF THEM, BUT I HAVE A FEELING YOU ALREADY KNOW THIS. I MEAN, UNLESS YOU HAVEN’T BEEN TO THE BEACH VERY OFTEN? OR HATE LEARNING ABOUT SEA BEINGS. ANYWAY, I CAN’T MAKE THE CONNECTION BETWEEN ODDNESS AND STONES. YOU’RE GOING TO HAVE TO OPEN MY EYES FOR ME ON THAT ONE.

ALRIGHT, HERE COME THE TEACHINGS. ALTERNIA, A PLANET THAT ISN’T IN THIS GALAXY. IT’S MY HOME PLANET, WHERE A BUNCH OF TROLLS WHO KIND OF LOOK LIKE ME ROAM. THAT’S THE BASIC DEFINITION OF IT, ANYWAY. 

[noirejeux]

Oh no, I love learning about sea beings! Especially mermaids and selkies and even hippocamps. I feel bad that I did not document seeing the shell-creature scuttle off; truly a disappointment. 

Anyway, I think stones are as odd as they are beautiful. Did you know that if you crack some of them open, they have pretty crystals inside? And yet such a brute of an exterior. You can never tell which ones hold surprises, though. They're very secretive of their business. That's why I think they are odd!

Ohhhhhh, trolls! Hairy little people who demand tolls under bridges, correct?