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[nolongerherex-blog]

wtf am i supposed to do with “essence of dragon”

found a recipe for it, https://www.tumblr.com/dashboard/blog/veneficiumxxveritas/139646652134

but i dont know what to use it for. 

i dont regularly astral and can already spirit-shift for the rare times i do.

and i dont need draconic enchantments.  im on good terms with a bunch of dragon spirits, so i dont need to mix stuff up if i ever need draconic-grade spirit ether. the local climate is home to immigrant chinese/east asian storm dragons...so the local air is laced with dragon’s breath. (I live in an area with a huge chinese-american population, their spirits followed them to america)

i just gotta air out my room by opening my sliding-glass door, if i need draconic energies....

and i already own etheric dragon bones, skin, and scales....

and i spend my free time, gaming and nerd stuff, not doing item-based magic. 

so its not like i can think up uses for “essence of dragon” 

not really my field

[cosmicwitchcraft]

Essence of Dragon

Dragon’s Blood

 Dragon’s skin 

Scales 

Blood of the Grove 

Blood of the Fallen

Combine said ingredients under a full moon, within a vessel over the Dragon’s Breathe, calling upon him to bless your right. Connect to the Dragon’s Pulse and call forth.

Used to add the power of the Dragon to any rite or working. 

[spiritscraft-deactivated2025031]

What is dragon skin bro?

[nolongerherex-blog]

Take etheric skin of a dead dragon spirit. This is an etheric/spirit item, not physical.  Anchor it to reptilian leather or/and snake skin. 

mmmmm, literal blood of the fallen would be difficult to collect. getting an exiled angel/one linked to physical reality to shed their etheric blood would require an extremely good relationship with one or skill to slay an exiled angel’s etheric body or avatar. 

if one goes by the star/angel connection...i think hydrogen would suffice. the fuel of stars.  ...in a pinch, water. (hydrogen + oxygen = water)

blood of the grove = sap. maple sap can be bought at the supermarket in certain seasons under the label of maple water. maple syrup is sap with less water.

dragon’s blood. if dragon, closer to fauna level, collect the etheric blood. if dragon as in pure elemental force/land spirit,collect that element from the geo-dragon’s domain. 

[nolongerherex-blog]

So ive been away from occult spaces long enough to understand what a calm tapestry field feels like. (Undisturbed fatelines) In occult spaces, shit gets turbulent. All those wills and intentions flying together . All clashing and disrupting each other in an attempt to influence or even overwrite the flux. Yeah fuck that. I aint dealing with the disturbances in the force. Clouds my haptikos, my psyker senses Hate dealing with strong mage-forces that cant bloody control their shit. Easier to loose your fucks and retreat into nerd space. Also i picked up two tabletop war games. X-wing and Kings of War. Its nice feeling the flux as the dice roll.

[nolongerherex-blog]

....I went to a Catholic Church. willingly for the first time in years.

Not to worship...but to hack portals in this gps game called Ingress.

yeeeeeeeeh.

same people who are working on pokemon go. 

yeeeeeeeh

got to see a bunch of angels monitoring me, going wtf. 

it was sorta nice dropping by the church that my mom dragged me to when i was younger

[nolongerherex-blog]

Words

Hahaha

I need to post that chant/ stated words for resurructing unused languagues back to useage.

A language isnt dead until all memory- archiving is wiped. The speakers are gone, the verbal part forgotten, the writings destroyed, the pictures disintegrated, etc. It still exists.

If its not being used….its asleep. The nonliving archives like Inert-shell books and carvings can always be studied to wake it up. —- I translated this post from  vibes as accurately as possible, so wording is funky.

Living archives refers to biological speakers, but in  thought living archives can also mean ensouled electronic databases and books.

English has no good terms to refer to ensouled items and biological beings in the same grouping.  langagues often group ensouled items and biological beings together. English thinks you are alive only if you biological physical meat.  tongues group you as alive if you have intact spirit body. Regardless if you have biological or item body or none at all.in languagues means your psyche doesnt exist at all anymore, your particles are mindless and scattered to reality to be recycled into new matter. Non-existance. End of existance of you as an individual unit/independent hive mind.

I use the definition of death. I do not refer to.human ghosts as the dead. They are still bioetheric entities, needing energy like any living being, capable of reproducing. Animate. They are just shell-less.

Discussion of kinds of human ghosts and psychological impact on post-meat life, is for another post.

Inert-shell means soul-less / sapientless physical matter. Many human carvings/books have no soul, but the language/idea/story/meme spirit can be transmitted regardless. The inert shell is like a circuit for it.

 tongues have words for you as:

You as hive mind collective. Aka you are made up of countless cells and microflora.

You as small ecosystem. You as host, home to many tenant creatures.

You as part of greater being. You as a unit part of.something like an ecosystem.god, city entity, corporation etc.

You as part of many different communities and ecosystems.

You referring to an entire demographic

 and I are gonna culture jam this, shit.

You are not a single entity, person, unless you are literally a single cell organism in  thought, if i understand this right.

[nolongerherex-blog]

is a furry

’ fursona is a raven/ravenlike/corvid/etc. I laughed when I realized this and  facepalmed. Its not really a raven. Just looks like one. I’ve been wondering why a starsoul/angel/Goetic would have a psyche with an animal-drive level and etheric biological forms. Goddamned stellar phoneomena, not biological things.

I get vibes its to help them experience the reality they created from their exhausted star forms. That’s how explained it anyway.

So yes. Physical reality and all its timelines is like their version of second life/rpg. This universe/timeline is one “server”. In this" server",  is the username of the entity that made me, and the raven-shaped form is one of its many avatars. Overly simplified model. Like humans and their elaborate rpgs/fantasy lives, the stars gleefully live many lives in the reality they have constructed from their dead matter.

One of the things that has done to me is destroy any sense of a fixed visual identity. Its likes to reshape my spirit form to its liking. Too tired to explain the implications. Identity weirdness.

I still think it’s hilarious that many goetics’ animal forms is the cosmic equivalent of a fursona/anthro-sona/avatar/ user icon.

And for fuck’s sake, I still consider.this reality to be real and solid. It doesn’t bother me that a multiverse existing is possible.

is sick of being caged by human perceptions/assumptions of its Goetic handle/the western cultural schema.

I am furry trash, created by the originals furries, the stars. Who dreamed of matter and the strange critters that arised from it.

And they take on.their creations’ psyche to learn more about us.

Oh my god.

I think it’s.hilarious that I use modern fiction to help me understand cosmic eldritch entities

Also  is a furry because it wants to fuck, mix essences, etc with anything sapient. My god.

[thetribeandthemagpie]

I don't know if you ever check this blog of yours, but I've greatly enjoyed your thoughts on Zoroastrianism and the Daevas. I almost shelled out forty bucks to get Albert Pike's interpretation of the Daevas, but I actually think your interpretation is very compelling right, from what all I've read of the Gathas myself. Zoroaster's concept of truth (asha) was explained to me by a native Parsee as meaning more like "vision" or "idealism" than scientific objectivity.

Hi! Yes, I still check it, although I’ve been fairly uninspired about anything to write recently. Thank you for your kind words - and prompt to write something, actually!

Regarding Albert Pike’s works, I’ve had trouble finding his writings on Zoroastrianism both on and offline, and so haven’t read them, but there’s certainly a copy of his book on the Rig Veda available online. I believe it’s out of copyright, so there oughtn’t be any legal issues around downloading. I’m not sure if you’re a fan of ebooks, but thought I’d put it to you just in case? That said, his work isn’t just racist, my more recent readings suggest that in the end it’s just plain not aged well - most of his interpretations were a product of their times and since have been debunked by more recent research and translations. They’re still interesting though, because of historical the Western Occultist perspective he put forward - he was not at all objective in his reading.

Regarding asha, I think I may need to do more reading on modern Zoroastrianism as it’s currently practised, as I’ve become very steeped in the historical works. My observations of the modern religion suggest it’s moved quite strongly towards conservatism, and so if there was the scientific aspect I’ve interpreted in the texts - and it is my own interpretation, let’s be clear - it may well have since been lost in the modern practice.

Still, more likely it was never really there to start off with and I’ve put my own biases or even aspirations into my interpretation. Idealism and vision? Those are things I find critical as a scientist, because we must remember what it is we are doing our work for. It’s easy to become lost in the minute of protein folding, neuronal migration, and hormonal cascades that may constitute a project, and forget that the greater goal of that project is to find out, to the best of our ability, how to treat an illness. We mustn’t lose sight of the people, and even if our results are disappointing - the cure doesn’t work, the approach attempted fails - we still must report this because it furthers the body of knowledge. That is my view of asha - not simply scientific objectivity, but the spirit behind science entirely. The facts are there for us to find, but we must understand, interpret and present these in the best way possible for it to be consistent with the principle of ‘truth’.

Thanks again!

[bodaciousbanshee-deactivated202]

The more research I do the more I think that the legend Hawk of Achill is a result of folk memory of the Rokh/Roc in the Ancient Near East and similar legends, carried in the oral traditions of people as the migrated North to the British Isles thousands of years ago, and that this giant raptor/carrion bird motif was once revered as a god of funerary rites and the ascension of heroes and rulers before humans invented written language. I will have to compile more research. I don’t want to post my findings til the entire thing is finished.

[nolongerherex-blog]

Considering this ties in with our conversation on our old malphas...I can confirm that malphas is all about the funeral rites and proper recycling of materials, the dead included. I have hoards of dead plant material from my garden thats sitting in a bucket cause it has to be composted. And a pile of dead electronics cause it has to be recycled properly.

[nolongerherex-blog]

RNG has blessed me.

My atheist friend let me play magic on a MOTHERFUCKING ANGELARIUM PLAYMAT. Angelarium is a bunch of eldritch art of angels by an mtg artist, peter mohrbacher. My friend showed me the playmat and I immediately gushed and grabbed it and started playing on it. I was so so excite. This is hilarious because if you discuss non goetic angels with me in a grimoire/monotheist frame, im.very aversive to those theo-memetic currents and will.nope out so.hard. But angels...in eldritch surreal form on mtg playmat? In a secular setting? GIMME. I COULD FEEL THE ANGEL'S PRESENCE WATCHING ME, using the playmat as a 'camera'/dimensional window. My atheist friend had me play on Eistibus, Angel of Divination. IT WAS SO FUCKING COOL. I got to play mtg on its FACE. Yes Also feeling eistibus interfacing with the cards was fucking rad. Im sleep deprived and havent played in a while, so my luck-current sense sucks, but im so excite to play again on.that mat when im at the top of my game. Aaaah, the flow of the Random, the Flux between the gamer, the game itself, and the RNG entities. So beautiful, hitting that motherfucking zone. ALSO IM STARTING A NEW DIVINATION blog. Sooooo, this is a good coincidence. Yaaaay. Yaaay. Also the goddamned art quality is so fucking good. Its a goddamned art print that you can roll up. It mustve smelt amazing when it was printed new. I still got whiffs of it despite being exposed. My friend doesnt keep his playmats in a plastic tube unfortunately. If u keep them in the tube, the fresh ink smell will last FOREVR. I need me some angel playmats to appreciate in a olfactory manner. See, I like to take good care of my favorite playmats. Put them in expensive plastic tubes, clean off tables or place paper underneath the mat to keep them clean, fawn over their visual and olfactory manner...aaaah. Mtg playmats is the one medium where I can appreciate and fawn over surreal angels without the baggage of religion getting in the fucking way. The casual sacrilege amuses me. Also, I can totally use these playmats to communicate with the entities outside of game play via divination or/and telepathy, etheric empathy, etc. Interfacing with angels via raw flow of Random, means less interference from their "egos". I want to talk to their base coding, their core.

[mostlydeadlanguages]

“Her hands are stained with flesh and blood.” (TCL 6 49 r.13-29)

This incantation includes a common magical element: a deity showing how to solve a problem, so the petitioner can follow their example.  In this case, the demoness Lamashtu is diverted from her bloodlust by equipping her to be an ordinary woman rather than a monster.

<incantation>

She is furious, she is fierce, she is divine, she is dazzling —         and she is a she-wolf, the daughter of Anu! Her feet are talons [1]; her hands are unclean;         her face looks like the face of a savage lion. She rose up from a reed-thicket,         her hair hanging loose, her panties cut away. She travels the tracks of cattle; she follows the tracks of sheep.         Her hands are stained with flesh and blood. She enters through the window;         she slithers in like a snake. She moves in and out of houses.

Keep reading

[nolongerherex-blog]

washed hair today, new lice spirits are doing well. they seem to be enjoying my leg hair. jfc

at my moms house, told the central valley elf house-mates, they could share mountain dew and chips if they want. they did a quick bow in thanks. i surprised by that, but i guess it means they respect my family’s claim to the house. first time a spirit, ever done anything like that. it felt good. i better not let it go to my head.

i do get frustrated that there’s little talk of small casual spirit interactions like that, for those who have the sight. i rarely do formal offerings/altar offerings and just mention, they can share food/have an understanding they can jack food from the kitchen any time. i dont have a lot of deep spirit relations outside of malphas, just a bunch of casual ones. companionable silence would often describe it. 

or its small stuff like, sensing my computer spirit getting anxious when i try to play a game beyond her specs or the annoyance of the car trash goblins when i tidy up the car. 

i find observation of spirits to be a lot safer then outright interaction a lot of the time, but i do wish i tried harder to foster deeper ones. hard to do when you are surrounded by a fuck ton of etheric lifeforms

[nolongerherex-blog]

ive died and went to furry hell

today i drew furfag porn for money, while eating Doritos and mountain dew. however, i didnt even finish the mountain dew and put it in my fridge, jesus fuck did u know one bottle is close to 300 calories? i only had like a third of it and put the rest in the fridge. and i shared the doritos with my furfag friend

so im like...being a healthy furfag. 

my god.

and i have my workout cards so im gonna do a quick workout after waking up tomorrow

[nolongerherex-blog]

Not calling myself an occultist anymore. (I dont like how occultism uses blinds/gatekeeps. I perfer letting knowledge flow) Sticking with, "psyker". From warhammer 40k. Yay for sci fi terms. Woooo. It makes.more sense for me to consider my spirit sight, etheric sensing and fate vision to be psionic/extensions of my physical senses.

[nolongerherex-blog]

I got rid of my mage name/persona because i could tell it was starting to take on a life of its own and it was freaking me out. I want the real me to show. Not some fucking misconcieved notion. I need to revamp this blog

[nolongerherex-blog]

Ah yes, today my sense of reality was nearly threatened by a post on cleansing. It was weird, everything nearly dropping into a surreal sense. Then I blinked and backspaced. Pretty fucking sure my derealization is slowly getting worse. I did read the post again and it didnt trigger anything that time. Strange I have science, video games, and malphas to keep my brain safe. I am getting sick of the occult being a mental mindfield however, especially since I was so emotionally invested into it for nearly ten years. I would bemoan on how this is destroying my ability to do "magic" but Im adaptable. I am sick of believing that I must constantly cleanse things or bad things will.happen. I really dont know when I will be able to safely practice.again. I do some candle.lighting and incense burning but its eh, a grey zone for me???

[astrophagia]

Someone who knows I practice witchcraft: so what did you do for the full moon last night ????

Me: slept and played video games

[nolongerherex-blog]

Yes. ....I like to build goetic temples in terraria and plot to take over vegas in fallout...

[nolongerherex-blog]

Dont ever tell me that objective reality is an illusion. Im going to leave the conversation. Im too damn prone to psychosis shit to deal with that shite. I nearly hallucinated an entity this week telling me to kill myself and had to deal with repeating headvoices telling me that suicide is always an option if things get bad enough. The only thing that saved me was knowing that the voices are fake. That the entity was fake. A glitch. That in reality, REAL reality that I am okay. There is nothing telling me to kill myself. There is no entity following me around telling me to off myself. I deal with my anxiety, my emotions, my depression by accepting that they are just flawed perceptions, distorted emotions. Fleeting. Illusory. It will pass. They are not real, use the world to distract myself. I grip to reality and the possibility that the world is my oyster. I cannot worry or it will kill me. The only thing saving me from. depression is the feeling of my physical body getting stronger. Rooting into the world keeps me from disassociation. I will not fall into madness.