So on one hand...arthritis
On the other hand, I want to curl up in a ball and weep. And hope that the curled shape that I form is in some way able to fix my back.
I just posted a quote from the Dalai Lama because I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately.
Amidst all this biz talk and startup-iness, health can go by the wayside. I had an x-ray recently, and it revealed that two of my vertebrae are not where they should be. I’ve been having back pain for awhile, but I didn’t realize it was this serious. Oh, plus minor arthritis. That was a pleasant addendum. All of the specialists I’ve seen have told me I have to strengthen my abdominal or gluteal muscles to try and fix the problem. So this got me thinking:
If you were told that you had to work out to exhaustion 5 days a week, every week, for the rest of your life, and if you missed one week, you’d become paralyzed, would you do it?
I’d think most of you would. Yet most of us also allow our health to deteriorate in ways that are completely preventable. I’m equally guilty of this.
Hearing this news about my health was completely terrifying. It was the first time a doctor has ever told me that there is something legitimately wrong with my body. So in my ‘goal-setting, you-can-do-it, raaaaaah!!!!!’ mentality, my strong thought is that I’ll work my body as hard as I can to fix this issue.
But what if that doesn’t work? Well, then I guess being a fit person with a crap back and some arthritis is an adequate consolation prize. Sadly though, the fit part isn’t there yet. It’ll take inner strength to push me to work that hard, so I hope I can find it.