Excuses For Why We Failed At Love
by Warsan Shire
Iām lonely so I do lonely things
Loving you was like going to war; I never came back the same.
You hate women, just like your father and his father, so it runs in your blood.
I was wandering the derelict car park of your heart looking for a ride home.
Youāre a ghost town Iām too patriotic to leave.
I stay because youāre the beginning of the dream I want to remember.
I didnāt call him back because he likes his girls voiceless.
Itās not that he wants to be a liar; itās just that he doesnāt know the truth.
I couldnāt love you, you were a small war.
We covered the smell of loss with jokes.
I didnāt want to fail at love like our parents.
You made the nomad in me build a house and stay.
Iām not a dog.
We were trying to prove our blood wrong.
I was still lonely so I did even lonelier things.
Yes, Iām insecure, but so was my mother and her mother.
No, he loves me he just makes me cry a lot.
He knows all of my secrets and still wants to kiss me.
You were too cruel to love for a long time.
It just didnāt work out.
My dad walked out one afternoon and never came back.
I canāt sleep because I can still taste him in my mouth.
I cut him out at the root, he was my favorite tree, rotting, threatening the foundations of my home.
The women in my family die waiting.
Because I didnāt want to die waiting for you.
I had to leave, I felt lonely when he held me.
Youāre the song I rewind until I know all the words and I feel sick.
He sent me a text that said āI love you so bad.ā
His heart wasnāt as beautiful as his smile
We emotionally manipulated one another until we thought it was love.
Forgive me, I was lonely so I chose you.
Iām a lover without a lover.
Iām lovely and lonely.
I belong deeply to myself .
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