Vee's Existential Shitpost Doom Piles

Where I, Vee(he/they/xe), do things other than write to cope with the weight of world

[hauntedsalem13]

trying my hand at these type of shitposts so i did this one as test, if you like it i will do more :)

[nonwritersblog-thefinalform]

something that's taken awhile to realize is that yes, i hate change, but only change i can't control

and that's all change for me

so i avoid making personal changes as often as possible, as I'm already being stressed by the other changes

and then i become a recluse

not the worst outcome but if people let other people have more control in their lives i think we could all chill out a bit

[nonwritersblog-thefinalform]

if yk me irl, uh... don't read too deeply into this/srs

can someone explain how the flying fuck my body looks worse than ever but I'm pretty sure I'm losing weight?

[remuscore]

I talk about my visions time

My last fic I had Remus doing that famous trope where he’s getting attacked by intrusive thoughts of his own and it’s making him all funky and dissociative. I thought about this again, but in a more public setting where Janus and Roman are witnessing it.

Janus wants to help, but the only way he can is really absorbing the thoughts with him and repressing them. He LOVES Remus, but he knows his way of tackling a problem is only temporary. So he turns to Roman with talk about testing a theory.

Roman—who hasn’t seen this shit EVER—is kinda being a pissy bitch. He’s uncomfortable and disturbed cause Remus is being all twitchy and quiet and that’s scary as fuck for him. He argues with Janus and digs in his feet while Janus is dragging him over to the unresponsive Remus.

Remus doesn’t like to be touched during these events because that makes his thoughts more touch and person focused and that’s so much worse. Thoughts without people attached are like sticking your hand in a shredder or bathing in a bathtub filled with cleaning chemicals. Thoughts WITH people touching him can range from them hurting him or (more likely) him being disgusting and hurting them. And those are projected to them too. So not fun.

Janus tells Roman to take Remus’ hand anyway and Roman is hit with an onslaught of gross thoughts about the two of them. He argues with Janus more that this is awful and he doesn’t see why he’s doing this shit, but then the thoughts start slowing down and shifting. Roman yelling at Janus turns one thought into Roman tripping Janus down the stairs and it makes him snort. Then it turns to more childish and dumb reckless behavior like Roman chugging an entire bottle of mouthwash.

Before you know it, Roman is turning Remus’ thoughts into joking scenarios and Remus is brought out of his little dissociative state by laughing at the stupid ideas and pitching in more.

Tldr, Roman as his brother in creativity, is the healthiest outlet for getting through Remus’ intrusive thoughts cause he’s able to shift the negative energy into something more ridiculous and silly.

[thebluelittlewitch]

Can't just vent like a normal person i gotta do whatever this is

Roman is the victim this time cause he's the only one i can imagine going thru this

[uh-e-rinnie]

what makes purple

under the layers:

a work in progress

[uh-e-rinnie]

yknow how there are some spots cats/dogs wont let you pet? well the same applies to imaginary purple emos

[pattonapologist]

I may not show it but I’m always a little insane about how Broadway, Here I Come is on Roman’s official playlist

[nonwritersblog-thefinalform]

e x c u s e m e w h a t

[astronomical-bagel]

HI. HI. YES. SO IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT THIS FOR SIX YEARS. SO DID YOU KNOW THAT THERE IS A HUGE MOTIF IN ROMAN'S PLAYLIST OF HIM WANTING TO LEAVE SOMEHOW

Some examples being: 'you take the high road I'll take the low' (wonderboy), I wanna feel like you've let me go/so let me go/ let go of everything (x4)' (king), ‘Do I head out on the lonesome trail and let you down?' (Humility), AND ALSO THE ENTIRE SONG OF GO. ‘EXIT STAGE LEFT’. ‘BREAK FREE AND LIVE.’

(Not fully adhering to the theme of 'leaving' but paving the runway has the repeated line of "youre gonna fly' WHICH COMPARED TO BROADWAY HERE I COME MAKES ME VERY NERVOUS YK??)

And those aren’t even the most depressing lyrics but there is a HUGE theme of wanting to escape and/or suicidal themes in his playlist and. And I can’t stop obsessing over it.

[nonwritersblog-thefinalform]

@astronomical-bagel i would absolutely love the full essay with my whole heart/gen /nf

[nonwritersblog-thefinalform]

trying to figure out what's wrong is a harrowing task i am choosing to ignore

[pattonapologist]

I may not show it but I’m always a little insane about how Broadway, Here I Come is on Roman’s official playlist

[nonwritersblog-thefinalform]

e x c u s e m e w h a t

[nonwritersblog-thefinalform]

something that's annoying is when someone consistently puts down your feelings and minimizes them

like:

"i just don't understand why you feel this way"

*explains to the best of my ability*

"i just don't understand"

or

"why do you need a label? it's just a piece of paper someone's gonna sign"

yes, i understand that these are technically true statements, but the things matter to me, so maybe a little bit of respect?

[nonwritersblog-thefinalform]

i cannot take anything seriously

my list of sleep agents for my fandoms is too long to not be a silly little guy

not one person can say the words pressure, purple, katana, omen, justice, blue, or vigilance without me absolutely exploding and dying(internally, in public)

and this is just the smallest sample of the list

[officialsolangelo]

i should write fanfiction

what do the people want?

logan ed angst

trans virgil angst

fluffy intrulogical

autistic virgil angst

Voting ended onFeb 12

!!!!!

[nonwritersblog-thefinalform]

from my actual writing account:

[nonwritersblog-thefinalform]

i wish i were a boy

[nonwritersblog-thefinalform]

listening to the opening pressure soundtracks throws me off so much because i know exactly which spot in each song angler usually come through and i get tense and subconsciously start thinking about lockers

[nonwritersblog-thefinalform]

may this foolish human vessel rot in the pits of hell for the amount of victorian child energy i am giving off right now

[nonwritersblog-thefinalform]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JANUS SANDERS!!!!!!

THERE IS SNITTIE ART COMING YOUR WAY SWEARSIES💛💛💛

[nonwritersblog-thefinalform]

you're telling me

that my body might have gotten so confused

that it started attacking it's own cells?????