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Only

Only thing which will never discriminate against you,

Is your hard work.

Only thing which will never betray you,

Is your own conscious.

Only thing which will help you get up,

Is your own will.

Only thing which will always help you grow,

Is your own mistakes.

Only thing which will make a path for you,

Is your own brain.

Only thing which will help you climb,

Is your own arms and legs.

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Mistakes always rip my heart apart,

All the memories make me want to go back in past,

To fix everything, so I don't feel anything at all.

-karun

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Front and behind

-karun

I just want to put my past behind,

Make a new line in between,

Between, what it is in front and what is behind.

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Faith

-karun

You are everything divine.

Light that blinds,

Even those who live on the sun.

But that light will never reach the place I am in.

Where I am atoning for all the deeds that I have done.

If that's destiny,

I gladly accept it.

It's only right.

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Medicine for all my diseases

-karun

I don't think you are a doctor,

But,

Please look at my heart.

I am sick,

I want you to give me,

Medicine,

warm feeling of friendship.

I don't think you are a reader,

But read my mind and feelings.

I feel guilty,

This is not something like love,

But I want you to stay with me.

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I am that wild flower,

people pick apart from the roots to show their love to their beloved.

She wears me in her ears

to look more beautiful.

Who looks beautiful after wearing a skeleton?

Flesh of me, they sell in stores.

They also have my lifeless clones.

I am in their homes.

Am I in their heart?

-karun

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Ice cream in her hand,

Kiss on the cheek by mother,

Protective eyes of father,

Walking on Earth, souls of heaven.

Karun

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Smile on my face,

Walking,

On my way to hell.

Coz my mind cannot accept heaven.

Opinions, i am not good with if it's related to me.

Give me your eyes, i want to see what you see.

- karun

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I must apologize, but I still can't find what you need the most,

Satisfaction when you are alone.

Your brain will haunt you.

Trust issues? I think they will die when our mom wipes her tears with a tissue.

-karun

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Talking

-karun

They are always there for me, But when they are not.

Like Stone breaks, iron melts , so will this dependency.

I decided.

I keep moving upstairs,

feel the cold Breeze,

walk until my bones freeze,

my heart, and brain because alien to me.

“You don't have to live like this,

You can always wait, wait until the sun rise.”

That's just life.

When the sun sets , so will I,

When the sun rises, the person who comes to life is no longer “I”.

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Talking

-karun

They are always there for me, But when they are not.

Like Stone breaks, iron melts , so will this dependency.

I decided.

I keep moving upstairs,

feel the cold Breeze,

walk until my bones freeze,

my heart, and brain because alien to me.

“You don't have to live like this,

You can always wait, wait until the sun rise.”

That's just life.

When the sun sets , so will I,

When the sun rises, the person who comes to life is no longer “I”.

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Singing About You

-karun

The sun is up there but warmth that I feel,

You must have talked to the Gods about me.

Who else can it be,

Only you come to my mind when the wind blows and the sun gives me warm hugs?

You must've told Gods to look after me,

Why else I am here then,

I see no one, I feel only you in this warmth.

This presence is for me by you.

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What is life!?

Nightmare.

You walk and walk,

destined to fall!

End up in a hole made by your own.

Or end up burning until your bones turn to ashes.

In minutes,

You will be replaced.

Life will go on,

like you never excited!

Now tell me what is life !

Where you live for a minute and die every second.

They will say they will be there,

yes. They are the ones who will carry you,

And post how much they loved you.

Then start looking for sympathy in your dead name,

Claim they loved you.

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Solace karun

Stand and mourn the loss,

What else can you do anyway!

Let tears flow, bath in it.

They bear the weight.

What else can you do anyway!

Stand and weep, no one is coming and that's the reality!

Sky is blue, so are the thoughts, memories.

Let the rain fall from memories.

Nothing is changing, nothing ever will.

Might just hang myself to see what's the value.

Value of loss is more great than the value of what lies besides.

Maybe get some flowers and eyes,

On this grave.

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Burnt than buried inside you - karun

Every day is the same.

Dying slowly.

So why should I give you my attention?

You will leave and die.

I have to be the one, to bury you inside.

I'd rather be with myself in misery,

Then cry over someone.

Things are never meant to be.

They will die and,

I have to be the one who will bury you.

Another breath left me, another second left me.

Why should I give myself to you?

I don't believe in heaven.

You will be left alone,

You will blame me,

Whenever you talk to your friends.

I would rather be burnt than buried

inside you.

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Beautiful night karun

Potions takes me to different trips,

Out-of-body experiences,

Space in spaceships, I am not just me, I am living, breathing, smoking different beings.

Red eyes, I despise.

The world is a reflection,

Then what is true?

Everything is just reflection in my eyes.

You want me to follow the day, but,

Why is everything so beautiful at nights?

Why do I sleep at night,

Only time I get to talk to you.

Is it fair?

They say you know nothing,

I know how I feel.

I know how this knife feels.

I know how this gun tastes.

I know how December touches.

But it's only temporary,

Just a lie then?

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Another life -karun

Just turned 20, next moment 30,

Then 40. 50! 60!

After that, I will likely die from some desire.

I made it. Next life.

I am a flower, Sun touching my surface.

She likes me, hold me with her love.

Then hold my stem! Pulling me out !!

I am Dead!

While she celebrates!

Is something wrong?

Cycle repeats -

Something is wrong with everything.