So I decided to write down what im feeling in the hopes of getting it over and done with. So here it goes...
Hello the first time I clearly saw you was in crew mess kasi my friends were teasing one of our chef friend that you look alike. And i cant help but agree because you really do. Your response was just smile.
Its funny kasi I hardly notice you back then. We dont meet that frequently kasi maybe coz im supper team that first few weeks you sign on. I remember our next encounter was when our supervisor asked me to rescue outdoor aft where you were stationed that time. We barely talk at all that time. I kept on bussing out, and i remember you saying "mainit ngayon" and I dont think i responded to that comment. The other day, you were still outdoor aft and then again i was asked to rescue you. That day you casually gave me two choco choco. I cannot remember how i responded that time and i barely really care about anyone that time because i just want to focus on work.
Do you know when i started to crush on you? I think it's when you constantly giving me new blue wipe. Wala e your quick remarks just hits different. That time we were all trying to control the usage of blue wipes yet you consistently give me new one everyday. I still remember you handing it to me while I was busy wiping in the buffet line. Pero me being overly independent sa work- I remember rejecting it saying "de ok lang to, ok pa tong wipe ko." But you still insist. One time I was refilling laoganma by the noodle station then you came and noticed na i finished the bottle. I remember you asking "tapon na to?" You constantly help me. Its new to me. You know when you're helping me, i dont know how to react. Pasensya na I dont know how to be soft its hard for me to thank you for helping me that time. I was used to doing it all by myself then came you. Very unfamiliar feeling. Sorry if you think I'm too shallow for this.
We were together in starboard manning, for almost 3 weeks i think. Those days were the happiest i have ever been since i came on board. I am always looking forward to be on duty that time.
One time you insisted to do the brooming when you saw me started to broom the carpet. I insisted to do it because Im thinking na walang may gusto ng pagwawalis. But you still get the broom from me then I asked bakit. Bakit gusto mo magwalis. I can still remember your reply clearly like it was just yesterday. You said: para di ka mahirapan. That time i dont know what to respond. You keep on making those little remarks, naiinis ako sayo dahil don. Kasi kapag may girlfriend ka na dapat di ka ganon. Dapat di ka masyadong mabait. Dapat di ka caring. Dapat di ka ngumingiti masyado. Dapat di ka nangangamusta lagi. Dapat di ka masyadong appreciative sa ibang babae tulad ko. Dapat di mo ko masyadong tinutulungan sa pagbuhat ng serving gears ko, sa pagbukas ng basurahan kasi nakita mong may itatapon ako, sa pagligpit ng mga empty box na itatapon ko.
Dapat di mo nalang tinanggap yung dalawang ice cream na binigay ko kasi ang alam ko nakakain ka na ng ice cream sa pantry that time pero inubos mo pa rin yung bigay ko. Bakit? Bakit lagi mo kong inaappreciate yung kasipagan ko? Dapat kapag may jowa ka, di ka dapat caring sa ibang babae. Dapat di ka masyadong gentleman. Dapat maging red flag ka. Gustong gusto kita i-hate haha kaso wala kong makitang masama sayo. Sana naging tamad ka na lang para mas madaling magmove on. Sana di mo na lang ako pinapansin para mas madali.
Dapat di mo na kinausap si jomaris tungkol sa biruan namin. Dapat di mo na pinipigilan si david kapag inaasar nya ako. Ang hirap naman mag move on sayo.
Dapat di mo na shineshare samin yung mga goals mo sa buhay kasi lalo ka lang nagkakaplus points sakin nakakainis.
One time sa pantry nabanggit ko na ang ganda ng kantang Muli kasi narinig kong kinakanta mo. Sana di mo na lang ako tinanong bigla kung nagkajowa na ba ako. Di ko alam isasagot. Sabi ko sayo babae gusto ko. Tinanong mo pa ko kung bakit di pa ko nagkakajowa sabi ko kasi ayaw ko ng may inuupdate. Tapos pinipilit mo pa iexplain sakin na responsibilidad yun ng may jowa. Sabi mo kung nagkakagusto din ba ko sa lalaki
Pano kaya ako magmomove on sayo kung bigla bigla ka susulpot
nagpatugtog si kent ng random sa gym, nagplay yung Muli
di mo naman daw usual na ginagawa yun sabi ni kent
natanong ni kent na alam mo pala yung kantang Muli
Sabi mo daw- favorite ni iza yan
Naopen ni kent yung inuman sa beach, nabanggit nya yung biro ko na theme song namin ng crush ko yung Muli.
sabi mo wag ko na isipin yun, na guni guni ko lang yun.
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