~ ED TW ~

(she/her) I am in no way pro ana, pro mia or encouraging any sort of eating disorder or disordered eating. I moved all the thinspo to a private sideblog, so you don't have to worry about that. This blog has mainly memes about my ed (i think) because i use humour as a coping mecanism i guess. I am brazilian, bulimic and just trying to cope, so feel free to block me if it ever gets in the way of your recovery. All posts are okay to reblog unless stated otherwise. || 1,57m • SW: 59kg • CW: 59,0kg • LW: 51,6kg (mar '24) • HW: 62,0kg (jun '24) • GW: 50kg • GW2: 45kg • GW3: 40kg • UGW: 35kg || Last active: July 2024

[romanceangel]

i, personally , don’t like this but what can i do

[noteating--enough]

ill give some context

jan - feb: The Bulimic Era, honeymoon, long fasts and an unsustainable plan, losing consistently

mar: falls into binge restrict cycle, things start to fall apart, reach a new LW every week (and can never maintain bc every time i eat i binge)

apr - may: stops skipping meals in onder to try to get out of the binge restrict cycle, semirec gone wrong, stops restricting but binges still, gaining consistently. blood tests are a mess.

jun: tries to eat clean but still "semi rec", still ganing. eating more to try to prevent binging someway. reached a new HW and i kinda spiraled back to throwing up

none of this was done with profissional help . obviously i didnt do recovery right whatever that boat has sailed

[noteating--enough]

i've been struggling with different facets of disordered eating for over four years now and i still don't think i actually have an ed man this is crazy

[noteating--enough]

there's no escaping this nothing can save me this is my life forever

[self--destruction]

things really don’t get better

[noteating--enough]

i've been struggling with a huge binging problem since march

[imfartooobsessedwithkpop]

*sighs* gets vibrator to pass them time while restricting

[ivy-paintdr2ps]

she's a ten but she counts calories and then randomly stops for two weeks

[unpretty]

the funniest thing i did when i thought i didn't have an eating disorder was look on disordered eating blogs for tips and tricks they used to not eat. i was like "well objectively this is horrible and obviously these girls need help, but also, i am NOT using this advice to starve myself, i'm just using it to eat a normal amount so it's fine"

[she-whodreams]

Literally the worst

[0calcoffeeshop]

my brain goes from “it’s getting bad again:/“ to “it’s getting bad again🥳” within seconds i-

[noteating--enough]

i.. think i have ednos actually

[she-whodreams]

The reason I gain and lose the same 5lbs over and over.

[flowerghoul666]

😅oops

[skinbonesandalittlebitmore]

the way not eating is actually a lot of work. I have to plan according to what im gonna eat when, who’s gonna be there, coming up with lies, its a whole full time job frfr

[mscherrycola]

the feminine urge to completely destroy your health for beauty standards

[noteating--enough]

guys omg jsaksjaks

so my mom just poured ice tea for my friend and I and she asked "ahm are there too many calories in this?" and my mom was "oh dont worry about it youre skinny" and she was like "oh yeah i dont mind about calories in food but i dont like to drink to many liquid calories bc i dont think its worth it yknow?"

and i immediately said "oh the normal one has 36kcal per cup but the light one is just 4kcal per 200ml, so don't even worry about it"

AND WE JUST MOVED ON???@@? JSAKSJAJ LIKE I KNOW THESE CALORIES BY HEART AND NO ONE EVEN QUESTIONED IT