To My Husband

A series of notes, emotions, and reminders for my future husband (and myself), inshaa'Allah.

[notes-justforyou]

23:28

It's been a long time and I'm sitting opposite you - you're ill and I've spent the last two days with you and it's weird how true to myself I have become with a person who I didn't even know last year.

[notes-justforyou]

12:55

I really like you, but you're way too gullible. I need to fix you up bro xxx

[notes-justforyou]

salams sis! Where have you disappeared to? I miss you and your notes :( x

walaykum assalaam! life has been too busy for me to keep up with these days! i'll come back to this when i have more sweet things to say to him behind his back when i have a moment, promise! xxx

[notes-justforyou]

It has been a while since I've been here. Mostly because all the things I've had to say I've had to say it in person. That and really I don't know what to say on here anymore. It has been five months and nothing's changed.

[notes-justforyou]

14:28

I just like you a lot ok.

[notes-justforyou]

17:50

9 weeks and I'm falling in love with you so slowly and yet so fast.

[notes-justforyou]

20:00

Having patience with our surrounding lives is hard. I just really miss you.

[tinychatter-deactivated20131129]

you don’t realize how attached you are to someone until you go without talking to them for a bit

[omg-relatable]

[f4teful-deactivated20140330]

guys look 3748273984127374 times more attractive when they are suited up or in a sherwani like i honestly can’t

[notes-justforyou]

01:23

We're hitting the 7 week mark later on today. I can't believe how time flies. I'm happy.

[notes-justforyou]

17:40

I feel like even though I keep saying "for the rest of our lives" I keep living like I think we're going to have years beyond us. How dare I even think such a thing when one of us could be gone in the next five minutes let alone tomorrow?

[februarypoem-deactivated2019051]

I am not the first person you loved. You are not the first person I looked at with a mouthful of forevers. We have both known loss like the sharp edges of a knife. We have both lived with lips more scar tissue than skin. Our love came unannounced in the middle of the night. Our love came when we’d given up on asking love to come. I think that has to be part of its miracle. This is how we heal. I will kiss you like forgiveness. You will hold me like I’m hope. Our arms will bandage and we will press promises between us like flowers in a book. I will write sonnets to the salt of sweat on your skin. I will write novels to the scar of your nose. I will write a dictionary of all the words I have used trying to describe the way it feels to have finally, finally found you. And I will not be afraid of your scars. I know sometimes it’s still hard to let me see you in all your cracked perfection, but please know: whether it’s the days you burn more brilliant than the sun or the nights you collapse into my lap your body broken into a thousand questions, you are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen. I will love you when you are a still day. I will love you when you are a hurricane.

Mouthful of Forevers – Clementine von Radics (via februarypoem)

[user11223344]

[serious]

If you find someone who makes you smile, Who checks up on you to see if you’re okay, Who watches out for you and wants the very best for you, Don’t let them go. Keep them close and don’t take them for granted. People like them are hard to find.

(via gracefully-found)

[kwiekeb]

and anyway, I guess you’d rather I didn’t.

[sad-plath]

It’s weird to feel like you miss someone you’re not even sure you know.

David Foster Wallace, Infinite Jest    (via forlornes)