◇ khlorisa ◇

✨CW: 97 GW1: 110 GW2: 100 UGW: 90 active as of 2021✨pls be a friend and drop a follow i am very lonely 🤠

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seasonings and spices have calories.

my day is ruined

my crops have been trampled

i hate it here

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TJIS SHOULDNT BE FUNNT JDNDJDNDHNF

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the amount of love i have for the caloriefriend website….. IMMEASURABLE

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good news: i now have a prescribed antidepressant

bad news: i will literally kms if it causes me to gain weight 🤡

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i survived my vacation and guess what??

i lost weight,,, i am living the dream rn

it was fucking stressful at points, but definitely doable

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i went shopping today for the first time since i lost weight (clothes and bikinis) and everything looked so good 😳😳😳 and i only fit into the smallest sizes

never let them tell you it’s not worth it to be skinny,,,, it’s the best fucking feeling

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going on vacation soon, very scared of all the scrumptious food lurking around every corner 😫

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can we talk about the physical pain that comes with starving yourself??? not the hunger pains that’s obvious

i mean the pain you feel in your bones when you are trying to sleep, the deep discomfort in your ribs and pelvis that makes you feel old and arthritic.

or is it just me ☝️😯,,,✊😐

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was feeling bored so i decided to fuck around and restrict harder 🤪

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I DONT WANT A GRAD CAKE 😫😫😫

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not me fantasizing about university because I’ll be too busy to eat and restriction will be easier 🤪

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god being hungry feels so good

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WOW HAHA I AM FURTHER INTO THIS THAN I THOUGHT

so normally I weigh out and record EVERYTHING when cooking so I can calculate the calories for the entire dish and then divide by weight so I know the exact calories of homemade food 

today I decided that I could be ~chill~ for once and just estimate half of the thai curry in the pan and be fine because it would be close enough and I didn't want to have to weigh the finished dish,,,, BOY WAS I WRONG

turns out estimating is not so easy, especially when I put my portion on top of konjac noodles for volume so I couldn't just ‘make it even’ and I had to work around shrimp (i could only have 11)

the anxiety was astronomical

so now I feel bloated and fat and awful cause I have no idea if my estimate was accurate, haha guess im in a lot deeper than i thought LOL

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update: good news!!! i successfully ate nothing without being sus!! (i hope LOL) i just drank a shit ton of coke zero and bought other items to distract 😌👍

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HELP my friends wanna hangout and walk to the grocery store to get snacks, what could i get to not be sus???

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good morning gorgeous humans,

guess who’s got a blood test today!!!

let’s find out what’s wrong with me, maybe it will answer some questions for y’all too if we have similar symptoms.

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HOLY SHIT U GUYS I HIT 99.6 lbs TODAY THIS IS THE FIRAT TIME IVE BEEN UNDER 100