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and all at once, i knew; i was not magnificent.

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[notnicki]

milogarner:

“Tell them to bring it on, we’ll rumble at midnight.” He teased. “Well you could give that example to being hit by a bus, too.” Milo joked. “No… go on. I need to hear this.”

“I’m not your messenger. You wanna rumble, take it up with the fat cats themselves,” Nicki said, wrinkling her nose. “Uh? Not really. Being hit by a bus is pretty negative, I’d say.” And then she sighed. “Well, we see each other all the time now, don’t we? I’m not gonna go out of my way to avoid you. You’re in my life and I’m in yours, that’s just how it is.”

[notnicki]

milogarner:

Unable to stop a smile on his lips from her reaction, he turned his head away. “You’ve got to be kidding me, there’s another town rebel?” Milo fired back. “It is to me, feelings is an awful thing, Nic.” He explained. “It just did. Change is terrifying, you know? – Why are you gonna make sure of it?” 

“Ooh, yeah. There’s a whole bunch of them, and they all wanna fight you, sharks vs. jets style,” she smiled. “Did you ever think just because something’s scary to you doesn’t mean it’s inherently bad. Sometimes heights are heights, and sometimes they’re views. Same thing with change,” she promised. “Because... shut up.”

[notnicki]

ivygarxia:

“Definitely impressed –– she’s freaking adorable!”

“Is she... friendly?”

[notnicki]

graymonroe:

❝ everyone has bad days, don’t they ? ❞ grayson said, in lieu of a proper explanation.❝ oh, alright. i won’t ask why. ❞

“I guess so...” she said, somewhat suspiciously. “Really? I was half expecting you to be judgmental about it. Most people would be.”

[notnicki]

fckjayde:

“There’s a decent list of things. One being the majority of it are convinced that in the vast incredible unknown of the universe they are willing to say without a shadow of doubt they believe they are literally the only lifeforms in existence. Secondly, they detached themselves from things like the food chain or the animal kingdom in favor of saying ‘humans’ with the implication they are an entirely separate existence from every other living breathing creature on the planet– I could go on, but we’d be here more than five minutes.”

“I guess some people just find it easier to be skeptical. Or they’re too busy with themselves to worry about it. I know a lot of people like that, actually.” She was beginning to wonder in the span of this conversation if she wasn’t one of those people herself. “Oh, that does bother me. My favorite show in the entire world is Planet Earth. When I saw Blackfish, I cried like a baby.”

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milogarner:

“That’s no way to speak to your father.” He quipped with a small smile, knowing very well his jokes could go too far. Quirking a brow in confusion, he took a breath. “So you still like have a love boner for me?” He wondered out loud, instead of keeping it in his unfiltered thoughts. “That’s the saddest thing I’ve ever heard of. Don’t ever tell that to anyone ever again.” He forced a laugh as he looked away. “You sure about that? Ten years.”

For a moment, the actual implication of what he’d just said had rung her speechless, but then it caused her laugh. Actually, genuinely laugh, in a way she hadn’t around him for quite a while. Or around anyone, really. “Oh my god. You better stop before I hang out with the wrong crowd and go out with the town rebel just to get back at you.” And then she rolled her eyes. “You can say feelings. It’s not a dirty word,” Nic sighed. “Why not! Did it make you sad?” She asked, suddenly concerned. “Yeah, I’m sure about that."

[notnicki]

ivygarxia

“Well… if you can steal them off walmart carpark then sure,”

“Not sure whether I should be impressed or concerned.”

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fckjayde:

Jayde furrowed her eyebrows, half sneaking a look over her own shoulder without making it too obvious. “Ah. Hiding from someone? Okay. I can attempt a round two of fake talking.” She’d paused, briefly “I actually feel like I am taking some kind of bullshit test now though, so I can’t think of anything besides asking why humanity on the whole happens to be arrogant as fuck.”

“Thank you. I appreciate it.” And she did. She got the impression this person wasn’t too thrilled to be stopped by her, but regardless, it was sort of the only cover Nicki had at the moment. “Bullshit test, hm? That’s pretty clever, actually. What about humanity makes you think it’s arrogant?”

[notnicki]

graymonroe:

❝ nah, don’t worry it about it. i can sympathize, ❞ he replied.❝ who’re you trying to avoid ? how about that ? ❞

“You can?” She wondered, raising a brow. “Um. ...My mother.”

[notnicki]

milogarner:

“Yes. This kingdom is yours now, Simba.” He teased, thinking he meant she’d meant it jokingly. “It’s hard to believe that, actually. I still care for you. I probably always will. I just wonder if this has turned into platonic love instead of what it used to be.” He watched her gesture as he nodded, letting out a quiet sigh. “Not really, what do you mean?” Asking a question purposefully to avoid a sad goodbye he shrugged. “We both know you won’t though.”

“Shut up,” Nicki said, shaking her head, although she was hiding a smile. “Well, believe it or don’t believe it, it’s how I feel. Platonic? No.” She took in a breath before continuing. “I mean I don’t know how you feel. But for me, you’re probably always gonna have a piece of me,” she said, figuring if this was going to be how it ended she might as well be honest. “I mean that even if people change, they’re still the same in our memories of them. So I guess that counts for something. -- No, I will. I’ll see you all the time, I’m sure. The world’s smaller than we think it is.”

[notnicki]

milogarner:

“I will not, prideful mc pride. Okay, but for how long? Because you could go off and act like it doesn’t matter at the drop of a hat.” He mused with a sigh. “Yeah… guess ten years changes a person except not really.” And he didn’t feel so different now when he was around her like this. “’Kay. So… see you around?”

“Who am I, Simba?” She said, meaning for it to sound clipped but it almost came out jokey. “Just because I act like it doesn’t mean I don’t love you, Mi. You were the first, that’s never gonna go away. You know, regardless of -- all this,” she said, gesturing between the two of them slowly. “No. I guess not really,” Nicki shrugged. The goodbye was there and waiting, but instead of addressing it, she lingered. “Yeah. Of course.”

[notnicki]

milogarner:

“It doesn’t really matter now even if it is, so. Uh huh… I’m sure the other way actually is true too, you’re just too prideful.” He said actually cracking a smirk. “So you mean we’re gonna come back to this in ten years time? That’s a long break. I did actually love you, but things got complicated. That’s life, though.”

“I am not! Take it back. -- And you know? It matters to me, so.” Nicki frowned, letting her face fall to a neutral state as she protectively crossed her arms. “No, I mean. We already had the long break. Technically.” She wasn’t sure why she felt so warm. It was more like a burning feeling than something fuzzy. “Yeah, whatever you say, Mi. -- I should probably go.”

[notnicki]

henrylevan:

sure, he could. but would he? meh. “i can pretend to listen for three.”

“Why are you being difficult?”

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ivygarxia:

a subtle nod, her lips curled. “no, no –– I don’t quite know how anyone could not get a kitten?I mean… it’s a kitten; so I took it,”

“Wait, took it? As in stole?”

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graymonroe:

❝ — you put me on the spot, okay ! ❞ grayson explained.❝ what would you wanna talk about instead ? ❞

“No, no. I’m sorry. It’s just been a bad day,” she sighed. “I don’t know, actually. Now I’m on the spot.”

[notnicki]

lilypricefield:

“If the luck of the gods is on your side that day, then yes. But not all of the time and definitely not this particular time.”

“Wow. Kinda sounds like you needed a better toilet. Have you ever seen the ones that spray water?”