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had a very nice dream where i for some reason reached out to redacted and he entertained the idea and we went to the movies and he did the exact same thing to me again while insulting me the entire time i was giving him head lmao and then he like turned around and left with a different girl after making it clear this was who he was interested in and then i went to this event filled with people i knew were making keychains and i tried to join someones group but they all looked at me weird and basically ignored me in that way where they acknowledge you but dont try to include you and look at you weird if you try to talk while also running into the girl redacted was with and she was talking about how nice he was and how he gave her gifts and then i looked at old pictures reminding myself ill never be happy again because of the choices ive made and then i woke up looked in the mirror for the first time in a month and cried

#this isnt even a dream these are all memories

god