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hi i'm sivi i'm 28 cis + she/her

[innerchildabortionclinic]

my instant graham (I just use it to save selfies, don't really follow/interact much here)

sometimes I talk about "my world", more information on what that means here

all serious political posts are tagged #seriousposting, my art is tagged #sivi drawings, all posts about my world are tagged #my world, and all selfies are tagged #self (tagged on this post too for easy access if you're nosy)

credit for art in my header

[innerchildabortionclinic]

I've enjoyed seeing a bit of posting about your world for the first time in a while. Esp the art you recently did! It felt like putting a face to a name :). Hope you are well and this is okay to say.

thank you I appreciate it !!! I was drawing a lot more lately to distract myself from fears related to weather. if I post frequent drawings I may simply be near a storm lol

I will also draw more people from my world, I just wanted to draw jiji a while for practice with poses

[innerchildabortionclinic]

I felt like i'd throw up in the shower because I ate too many cookies. Rookie mistake

[the-owl-tree]

i'll always make fun of how stupid the "born evil baby" trope is but truly it is such a wretched trope i hope it dies forever

[the-owl-tree]

it's like the perfect package of "child you are allowed to harm" and "easy way to not interrogate how commonplace child abuse is". thank goodness this child was simply born wrong, we never have to examine the conditions they grew up in.

[sickerfxck]

Trying somno but we both fall fast asleep expecting the other to do something and end up both having a beautiful nights rest

[sailatina3]

[nociceptrix]

sucking on a worthless original

[innerchildabortionclinic]

You have a good way of wording, and have good things to say. Thank you

wahoo

[ovur]

[mammalianmammals]

Marbled Cat (Pardofelis m. marmorata), family Felidae, Sabah, Borneo

photograph by Raymond Voo Zhong Hao

[innerchildabortionclinic]

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I often viewed my stepdad as a heroic figure when I was younger but really what happened is we would simply have been less likely to improve our situation without a man's authority- people would not take my mom and her children's word over my dad's alone. My stepdad even being there deterred my dad. It makes me think about how a lot of 'problems' of being raised by a single mother are simply obstacles the single mother has to face that make you less safe, and less financially stable. If she was raised in a more "traditional" household she will also be at a disadvantage because it will take mental ruin for her to gain a backbone.

Still I see my stepdad as a better person comparatively to most men simply because he was willing to endure in a way a lot of men are not--many men talk about fantasies of enduring some form of suffering for a loved one, but they stay fantasies. But my stepdad actually put himself at risk in this situation--I had trauma-induced psychosis and for a while he could not even trust my behavior when he wasn't around. I would lash out if he used the word "daughter", I would see him as my father, I would become sick with fear. Still he loved me and never gave up on any of us. He didn't fully understand what was even happening, he just knew I was troubled in some sort of way. I come to learn he was sort of the black sheep in his family among siblings, so maybe he sympathized with me. He also has a negative view of men for the most part like my mom. He expressed this once when both of them warned me about dating. I got in an argument at the time not because I trust men but because I wanted them to trust that I have better judgment despite my circumstances. If anything I think I have more discernment than most women my age - there are a lot of situations I hear about that I would not end up in because I'd see the problem a mile away.

I don't know what the point of this post is, I guess I just wanted to talk

[innerchildabortionclinic]

when talking about young people in the united states being less supportive of capitalism and israel, do keep in mind that this development is not in fact creating principled marxists, but nick fuentes variety fascists. it will cause a split in the republican party specifically only if zoomers start voting

dissatisfaction with the system at hand doesn't automatically lead you in the right direction, there are a lot of other preexisting biases to navigate

[innerchildabortionclinic]

I sort of feel bad for moving because I can tell my mom misses me and she has a close connection to me, but she had also expressed concern about my future after she dies and I can at least live knowing I have a better, more stable job which she was hoping for. I live mostly for her

[innerchildabortionclinic]

the hot chocolate enjoyer when you ask where all the milk is going so fast:

[faraway-ant]

i’ve seen this user post this photo as a sort of reaction image a couple times now and it makes me laugh every time. because this is the incredibly elusive marbled cat and they really do just have a tendency to look so pitiful, guilty, and empty in the head. so here’s some more photos of them looking like there’s just one marble bouncing around their skull:

[innerchildabortionclinic]

You made a post at some point a while back that I can't remember the exact wording of, but it got me wondering how languages work in your world? Does everybody speak English, or does it have its own languages? When you spectate events, which language do you perceive them in?

it has its own languages but I perceive them in english

[innerchildabortionclinic]

any crime rooted in misogyny will never be identified at its source in the united states because of two important reasons: 1. it might make men feel bad 2. much of the enforcement class is guilty of such crimes. this is all while american men concern-troll on twitter about misogyny in other cultures when immigration comes up.

the family annihilations and networking with predators will continue for the time being until these truths are acknowledged. okay weird bots in my inbox in 3..2..

[innerchildabortionclinic]

I wish conservatives would stop being cowards in their cuckholding fantasies. It's so obvious YOU want to fuck him but you have to have him fuck your wife because it's more socially acceptable. Sorry I just got off twitter