Maa kallis isien

Päivi, 32, stranded Finn "The Finns have something they call Sisu. It is a compound of bravado and bravery, of ferocity and tenacity, of the ability to keep fighting after most people would have quit, and to fight with the will to win."

[notsorainyaday-blog]

mary-wake:

Mary feels the tug on her coat and she’s not sure why, but she still stops her step forward and at that moment she hears watch out and takes a large step back, but keeps her balance. Thankfully. “Whoa,” she breathes and looks over at her familiar savoir. “Thanks for that.”

Päivi wants to apologize and hurry off in shame first, but when she recognizes Mary decides to restrict herself to the former, saying “Sorry for the...yanking” while giving a nod at Mary’s coat. “I probably keep my eyes on the ground too much. Growing up in a place with constantly frozen ground, you know. My first attempts at walking were probably just step, step, fall, step, step, fall”

[section1rules]

[notsorainyaday-blog]

section1rules:

Secret Mission | Looking For Michael

Operations and Madeline plot to wipe out all the witnesses to Adrian’s failed attempt to bring down Section. Only one to go…grrrrrhhhh. These two.

[notsorainyaday-blog]

Päivi yanks on the coat of the person in front of her, right as they are about to step into what is the shiniest and in her experience therefore also the most slippery, tangle of leaves and rain puddle she has seen in a while. “Look out!” And she likes to believe she doesn’t do so with too much force, but Päivi has never been good at estimating her physical strength. 

[notsorainyaday-blog]

Character Aesthetics: Päivi Vuorela

You watch the sunrise rather than the sunset as you sip on an iced coffee the price of which still pains you. Maybe it’s one of the ways in which you pay for this state of limbo which seems to have become irrevocably yours. You used to wear jeans and trainers due to the distance between you and them. Now you still wear the same clothes; but these days, you do so because you have learned that there is more to distance than geography. You run both Nordic forest and concrete jungle, but after all those years you still aren’t sure if limbo is a good place to live in for anybody. And you’d hold out your hand had you been taught to rely on others for saving you. 

[notsorainyaday-blog]

succubarefemina:

“I didn’t get to say goodbye to him..”

“I guess time always goes faster than we’d like it to.” Päivi swallows and pauses for a moment. “Say Goodye to whom though?” Please don’t let it be a family thing. Please. 

[carmen--rivera-blog]

Carmen has to remind herself to hold in her anger because, well, if she wants to keep up consistent appearances, the identity she’s going as doesn’t even have any powers. But, still, she allows herself some tiny form of irritation. Bone marrow, she fills in for Paivi. Carmen’s not looking for a fight, so she checks herself. Checks her body language, her posture, keeps her arms by her side even though she wants to defensively cross them. There’s a tip when arguing with someone - make sure you’re both standing side by side, which the two of them are. The psychology of it makes it more difficult to fight with someone. My problem with it, though, is… take for example that exhibit with the, um, contact lenses. Perfect vision without the dangers of lasik surgery would be great. But, all of that other stuff that could follow? Microscopic, telescopic, x-ray vision? Available for everyone? 

She averts her gaze to the rest of the room, to the crowd, because if anything, Carmen’s eyes tell all about her when she’s angry, and she doesn’t need that to blow her cover. Humans being able to do what post-humans are already able to do without being oppressed for it. Oh, that was a strong word choice. If Carmen was to be caught with that, she wouldn’t even be surprised. Oppressed. A word Rogues would use because PROTECT would most likely dance around it. A word Nexus would evade like a child ignores chores. But, it’s the truth. That is what they are. That sounds just like appropriation, in a way, to me. Just like, you know, every now and then, I’ll read articles online about trends popping up everywhere - women wearing the veil I’m wearing right now without facing the same kind of backlash from society. All of the privilege, none of the problems. 

[notsorainyaday-blog]

Päivi initially really doesn’t get where the woman is headed. But she’s never been good at making charming exits, plus maybe standing here and having this conversation is still better than having Camilla drag her around and watching the latter be on best terms with all those people Päivi should know and doesn’t. That would one hundred percent make her feel bad whereas this - doesn’t. She probably should care about how science draws on the abilities of people like her, but fear subsides after a while, and maybe it’s twenty-seven years spent not knowing what “post-human” actually means that gives her this ability to stand her and discuss this without raising her voice and just using the excessive amount of gestures she usually needs in English: “Well, of course you’d need limits. Laws and regulations and stuff. You can’t just let people walk around look through walls and so on. That’s not what I’m saying.”

“Oh”. Päivi is quiet for a moment as her mind works through the other woman’s logic which, admittedly, is logical put like that. And her first impulse is of course to feel like it’s not fair, that she has to wear a tattoo and for someone able to do the same thing not to have to. But that still doesn’t sit with someone like her who still seeks her future in science: “I understand that. Really, I...I get what you’re saying. But isn’t that more of a social issue? What I mean is...maybe we should remove the obstacles post-humans have instead of stopping this kind of research? Then it would be fair and everyone would, you know, benefit. Everything’s put into this world for a purpose. I think.”

[carmen--rivera-blog]

She’s glad that there’s fabric covering her mouth - it’s easier to grin without giving herself away. Wrong cause… they’re all standing in the middle of one happening right now. Carmen shrugs, I believe in science leading to good things. It’s a rather vague statement, not letting out what she personally believes. Of course, science and genetically modifying humans doesn’t seem to be one of those good things, if that’s where Nexus is going with this. Which, Carmen’s guessing, isn’t too far off. However, all of this, to me, seems a bit, well, maybe just a bit appropriating. As in the cultural kind. She’s frowning, now, and Paivi can’t see it but she can probably definitely see it in Carmen’s eyes. 

[notsorainyaday-blog]

Päivi first gives a light smile, glad that her statement hasn’t sounded too blindly idealistic, she’s been out of the loop for too long. Then her expression is merely one of confusion, added to by how the other woman really seems dissatisfied with the entire concept of the exposition: “I’m sorry, I don’t really see the connection?” Päivi finally manages. “Like, when people wear my people’s dresses without knowing when we wear them, and why, that doesn’t really add anything to their lives? Like, they could just wear jeans instead? Or when they wear things as jewelry that my people used to use in religious rituals...that doesn’t make their lives better? But this...this could save lives, right? That seems to me like saying donating...what’s that stuff...the stuff that’s in your bones, is bad. You know what I mean?“ She probably shouldn’t have asked her next question, Päivi doesn’t like arguing to begin with, much less with someone she has only just met, but the question is out before Päivi can stop it: “If you think it’s so bad, why are you here?”

[peta-wilson]

Peta Wilson

TV Guide

2000

[carmen--rivera-blog]

Carmen shakes her head, Oh, no, I’m just here as a potential investor. Sussing out the competition, more like it. So far, she hasn’t seen anything that’s too particularly threatening. Maybe they’re saving the best for last like last time. Carmen just wonders how post-humans are supposed to be empowered by this crap- it feels like appropriation to her. How does all of this feel to you? Fascinating?

[notsorainyaday-blog]

There goes that networking opportunity then that Camilla has promised her - of course. Päivi has to think about that question for a moment. “I think fascinating’s a good way of describing it. And a bit scary maybe as well...like all the things you could do with all this knowledge if you put it to the wrong cause, that sort of thing? But I suppose if you don’t believe in science ever leading to anything good, you’re not gonna go into science.” Which is what she has told herself repeatedly in an attempt to make herself go and write applications - doesn’t help much, apparently, but Päivi still believes in this logic.

[carmen--rivera-blog]

Carmen is still getting used to the feeling of wearing a hijab in general, and then having it covering most of her face as well. She got in just fine and none of the people in the front asked her to uncover her face, and if they had, she would’ve started off about religious freedom and her rights. So, in total, she feels pretty good about how swell everything is going right now. Carmen has been paying attention to every person who’s come up to speak about their research or what have you, taking mental notes and overall, not looking very impressed. Or, well, she wouldn’t look impressed if her mouth could be seen. The woman’s voice catches her attention and Carmen shrugs, uselessly, Ah, I wouldn’t know, really. I’m just walking around, trying to take everything in, you know?

[notsorainyaday-blog]

The woman speaks in a casual tone, but that really doesn’t tell Päivi much as to whether she’s more of a random university student or a luminary of the science world (one of the insights her attempts at speaking better English have granted her). Then again, she probably wouldn’t even recognize her if she could see her face fully, Päivi’s too out of the loop of...everything, really, for that to work. “I keep telling myself I should do better planning and look things up in advance, but then it’s always like this.” Okay, no. Bad conversation starter for a future PhD student. “Are you presenting something later?” There. Much better. 

[notsorainyaday-blog]

Päivi has barely made it a few steps in when her hands are already overflowing with leaflets. She tries to glance through all of them but finds herself standing in the way of other people repeatedly, making it hard to concentrate. Her flatmate Camila has vanished, probably to meet some important people Päivi doesn't know. She should have researched the program in advance, Päivi realizes, but she hasn't been good at that sort of thing recently. So she glances up at the person next to her: “Now where do I start? Any....anything in particular that must not be missed?”

[notsorainyaday-blog]

Päivi will get dragged to the Nexpo by her flatmate Camila, who is a PhD candidate in environmental sciences and thereby the exact thing that Päivi would actually like to be. She probably wouldn't have gone on her own account, both because it sort of feels iffy to her to attend a Nexus event as a post-human, and because she feels unworthy and embarrassed of being there, having dropped out of her career as a scientist (momentarily only, as Päivi likes to think). She is registered as a university employee (because she does these language classes there) so she can theoretically pretend that she's a professional scientist (she's probably not gonna be very good at that right now but let's see).

[section1rules]

Inquiries | End Game

Nikita is still hard at work trying to find out Michael’s address. But her little data break in incident is still not over and now an innocent operative was cancelled because of it.

[babybirdofthesea]

[notsorainyaday-blog]

Päivi tries her hardest to balance the pile of cardboard boxes in her arms while scrambling for the store key in the pocket of her jeans, but the first box slipping off the pile sets off a chain reaction and a second later, the sidewalk is covered in a pile of scarves and open cardboard boxes. Päivi falls to her knees to gather up the scarves, wiping off dust while failing miserably at folding them in a professional manner. “Sorry,” she mouths to the girl on the sidewalk, her face flushing over how she has probably managed to lose them a customer. “Too much new stuff.”

[succubarefemina]

Tatiana chuckles to herself as they head to the elevator. “It’s a hotel, Päivi. I can order us room service or we can go out to dinner. Your choice, my love.” The elevator pings open and she enters, holding it open for her. As the door closes, she turns to Päivi and clears her throat. “I mean, we could go shopping?” She offers, thinking that she needs to anyway. “That’s if you like supermarkets?” Tatiana wasn’t too keen on them, but it never really bugged her to much.

[notsorainyaday-blog]

Päivi blushes. “Room service is so expensive though,” she says pretty much out of habit. She'd have believed herself to no longer have to think like that at thirty-two but here she is and this is what it's like. She's told Tatiana she's already writing her PhD thesis, right? “University doesn't exactly pay well,” she says as an excuse, feeling intimidated by being in a hotel already (rather than a cheap hostel). “You probably can't cook here though, can you?” Päivi would've liked to – at least that was one thing she was good at. “No, it's okay, let's get room service. You're probably tired from your trip, so...” The doors give a ping and Päivi grabs Tatiana's luggage again.

[succubarefemina]

Tatiana often finds herself captivated by certain people, and Päivi was definitely one of those people. Not only in her looks, but in the way she spoke. It was like no one understood the English language more than her, and this surprises Tatiana even more when she tells her she was from Finland. The feeling of slapping one’s forehead immediately comes to Tatiana when she hears this. She refrains, however. “You just become more interesting every time I meet you, Päivi.” Noticing that they move swiftly from the topic of Europe, Tatiana realises that Päivi might not want to dwell on it - and it’s completely understandable. “Yes! That would be great. Then I can repay you with dinner.”

[notsorainyaday-blog]

Päivi is at a loss as to how to react to that (and that coming from someone who travels the world and meets important people for a living), so she raises her eyebrows (a very conscious reaction which she hopes will pass for nonchalant) and blushes (a very much not-conscious reaction which Päivi detests about herself). “I'm not interesting. Really,” she gets out before making to grab the first piece of luggage. At the invitation, her words run away with her, stumbling over a lot of shouldn'ts and quite some wants. “You don't have to...I mean thank you, but....I mean...you just returned from holiday...do you have food for dinner, I mean you don't have to go shopping just for dinner.”

[rragnaroks]

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