Dear Diary

This is my diary. So if you're wondering why it's all tmi, it's because you probably shouldn't be reading it.

[azariusbaines]

Only once in 400 years

[nowwiththisfeelingillforget-blog]

I hope one day someone looks at you the way you’ve always wanted to be seen.

I hope one day you look at yourself the way you’ve always wanted to be seen.

[fyeahshialabeouf]

[nowwiththisfeelingillforget-blog]

Dead inside

[nowwiththisfeelingillforget-blog]

Once upon a time, I told him I wanted my future husband to give me all 3 rings. It looks like he listened. 😍💜☺️💍 thank you to my amazing boyfriend for the most beautiful ring and the most wonderful promise 💙 thank you for always fining a way to go above and beyond my expectations ☺️ I love you so much! #babes #woah

[floozys-deactivated20180908]

i can’t describe how happy this robocat makes me 

[ifyougrinyoulose]

[buhreez]

stop white people holyshit

[nowwiththisfeelingillforget-blog]

So Robert does this thing where he chokes me to the point where I pass out and when I wake up his dick is inside me. Let me tell you it has to be the most amazing feeling I've ever experienced. It's addicting and feels like pure ecstasy. I can't tell you how amazing it feels to wake up to someone fucking the shit out of you. You feel like you've died and been sent to heaven to be honest. Damn I love that man. And his peen 😏

[nowwiththisfeelingillforget-blog]

robert and i will be successful. i dont give a damn about what unique or anyone else says because i know that he is my world. we are going to make a wonderful family and future. they cant say shit about him. he is his own person who i dont mind. i dont mind his quirks. they bug me sometimes but nothing bugs me more than someone trying to judge him off his worth. he is worth the world to me and i dont need any negativity. i trust my instincts and know that he is telling me the truth. (about kik) i know ive been fucked over before and people dont trust my judgement but this is different. i cant look past the overwhelming love i feel towards robert. i feel like this is it... this is my life now. he is the one. he is the one i want to be with forever. i dont see myself being with anyone else and i know if we both get our shit together and prove to the world who we are, people will finally take us seriously. we are going to grow into the people we want to become together. we are going to get healthy and active, we are going to find sustaining careers, we are going to become close to god again, we are going to rule the world together because we are made for each other. i have more than enough reason to believe that he is going to provide and love me for the rest of my life. he is already on his way to becoming the man of my dreams, so what if i have to go along for the ride, so what if i have to wait for him to become that person. im not where i want to be yet so i just think that it is perfect... its exciting to grow and become something with someone. we can look back on life and remember all that we have overcome. i dont give a damn anymore. no one knows robert like i do. we are going to do this. we are going to be the definition of success. 

[nowwiththisfeelingillforget-blog]

I'm a horny animal and I am going to go insane if I don't get some soon.

[nowwiththisfeelingillforget-blog]

[staypozitive]

[nowwiththisfeelingillforget-blog]

ihatesocialnetworking, come back to me!! I miss you! We were becoming such good friends. I'm sorry you were hurt by us. I'm sorry. You actually understood me regardless of how any of our other friends acted, you got it... Idk. Idk if you'll read this but I hope you're okay out there. Been thinking about ya. *oh nanana* lol Ps. Sorry it had to lead you to this blog. Don't mind my obnoxious posts.

[nowwiththisfeelingillforget-blog]

Turns out my friends don't hate me... They hate my boyfriend... Go figure. Heh... -_-

[nowwiththisfeelingillforget-blog]

Also, I'm pretty much done with my Hemet friends. I went to universal studios to be with them yesterday and they didn't even make an effort to meet up with me. I texted them all night. I even saw them in line to a maze and asked them to wait for me and nope.... They didn't even care. They did post a picture of the guys they were obsessed with in line all flirting and shit.... That's why they didn't leave or try and meet up with me... They were basically ditching me for a group of random guys that they will never see again. That's sooooo nice... Thanks guys.... Im really sad. I don't think they are legit my friends anymore :/ Thank God I had Robert and Theresa there. I love them.

[nowwiththisfeelingillforget-blog]

I feel so lonely. I don't have many friends out here. I mean I didn't have many friends in Hemet but I had my family and Robert. I feel like have no one. I have one person willing to hang out with me. I want to make friends. I can't wait til I start my new job and I'm going to do my best to make some friends.

[nowwiththisfeelingillforget-blog]

So last weekend my weed was stolen from my room. Like honestly I don't even care that it was weed but the fact that one of my roommates or their dumbass friend stole from my room is complete bull shit. Also knowing that there is only once other person that smokes in this house leads me to think he took it. Shit doesn't magically disappear and every time I bring it up they're super short with me so I don't even know how to approach im the situation anymore. I want to get a lock for my door but the apartments said it was illegal? So dumb. I'm really upset about it and hope that nothing else goes missing.