j u n e
What a start when we’re just reached the half-mark for 2021. Got a QO for (less than) 2 weeks and today’s my 5th day and I actually like it here so far.
It’s quite ironic cause I got the contact on the weekend when I actually decided to be well-behaved (and not loiter outside) and only left the house for work. Who’d have thought I’d caught it in the transport lol. But my results were negative so Alhamdulillah for that (though I still have to serve the QO).
But it’s been good so far. Kinda feels like travelling solo (which was my 2020 plan but C-19 happened) and this week made me realized that I am capable of being by myself. The only difference is that I can’t leave my hotel room lol.
This is the first time I’m all by myself too. All the previous times was when I was overseas, and all I could recall was not-so-nice memories lol. Having to wake up early, rushing to get ready. All the random memories like the arguments and the silent treatments filled my mind too. Guess that trip scarred me lol.
Anyway, prior to this I’ve always been spending my off days sleeping in and taking afternoon naps. I guess it’s the mental exhaustion, I was always so tired. Spending every moment of my time entertaining other people, doing small favours and having to live up to the expectations of “I should know all the answers to the questions”. I guess it’s the expectations others have of me that broke me.
But so far here I’ve been waking up by 9am almost automatically and spending slow mornings having breakfasts with a view. It’s a big deal for me because I was never a morning person (1130 was the earliest I could wake up on my off days lol). I didn’t even take a single afternoon nap in my days here so far. I’m amazed at myself hahahaha.
Although it’d be better if I could make use of the time being more productive (instead of alternating between my iPad, switch and kindle all day), it’s actually a really good break for me, mentally.
I’ve had so many people warning me about how dull the QO is going to be but it’s been alright so far. Oh and I’m quite thankful too for all the thoughts that went into delivering food for me 🎆 Thank you for reminding me that I have my blessings too.
Decided to blog this out cause I’ve lost my attention span while watching shows and it’s a nice change for once. I haven’t phrase my thoughts in a while.
I guess it’s a sign that I really needed the break for whatever that may come, and before I actually do crack. 6 more days left.
