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[nuisancecreator06]

What a waste of time. What a waste of all efforts, commitment, and understanding. What a waste of will, waste of tears, heartache, and believing you were enchanting. What a waste of belief.  What a dumb moment when every word that left your mouth, I believed. What a pathetic sight. What's the point in grieving over something that's already deceived?

[nuisancecreator06]

Afterglow

The loudest damn thing I've heard is your silence.  Cracks in my heart echo as a beast.  Coldness seeping through my bones turns to frost, holds my broken strings to the least. The frost melts in the right warmth, and that warmth happens to be yours. Only you can mend it back together, or you can let it pause. 

So put a little blame on me, let me drown in my guilt underneath. I'd rather die by knowing my sins than live in my hopes of false expertise. And I'm no God, to know that my faults are hard to ignore. It kills me intensely to see you low, But I'm not ready no, to let you go. 

[njoud-44-deactivated20181026]

Reblog If you're bored and you want anonymous questions.

[nuisancecreator06]

frfr

[nuisancecreator06]

You'll never be able to find yourself if you're lost in someone else.

[nuisancecreator06]

true-

[nuisancecreator06]

omg my jaw hurts from laughing so hard-

[nuisancecreator06]

Humanity

I faced death in an invisible cloak, I was in black ready to turn in my soul. Death smiled and said "not yet" "I often bear bad news but let's not forget, to the importance of death, you're not paying attention, even from death, you crave to receive affection. and indeed I shall, shower love upon your soul for I'm not heartless as I seem just trying to make you feel whole" I didn't believe him for second for I was still grieving that my time got finished. he came nearer, I closed my eyes and everything blackened, but I remained intact except my humanity vanished. The icy cold feeling turned into a comfortable desire and that's when I realized it was the last conversation I had with my sire, my humanity.

[diariesofaprisoner-deactivated2]

Conversation With Love

I met love it said hello young man

I said hello love from what i have seen I am a big fan

But I will never be like you

They say you never fail

I fail more than I would like to

You are so bright me I am shady

Lying in the dark feeling so lazy

My quest for you in words has become pathetic

Sorry love that is because I let it

I can not get a grip on you yet we hold this conversation

Why have you been avoiding me

No need for an explanation

I still get this impression 

That I deserve some love making

I will see you again eventually

I will be waiting

[nuisancecreator06]

this needs appreciation>>

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[nuisancecreator06]

eyes tho>>

[nuisancecreator06]

Mood>>

I think from my heart and not my brain you might think but it's not the same.  Ruining things is a habit I never got over till now, and all the bad stuff gets on top somehow. 

Loving you was meant to be easy, calming, and filled with affection. but now the arteries of my heart are craving attention.  Looking around myself, I find there's a life outside my mind.  I ask myself a hundred fucking times "Would I change anything if I get to revive the past?"  If anyone would acknowledge my scars?  I'm trying to be better but it's a long shot by far And the love of my life tells me that he's selling our car. 

I look back at my life and see a girl who was oblivious to the pain and seized  every opportunity coming her way  what happened now that I can't breathe? 

The voices around me speak  "You can't make everyone happy. Putting yourself first doesn't mean you're weak, just close your eyes and think about what you seek" It's easier said than done When you think that you've found the one. who's supposed to keep you away from the pain  but in the end, you've lost more than you've gained. 

[nuisancecreator06]

"It's really sad" "What is?" He asked while leaning forward.  "How people in relationships swear they're gonna be there for each other but then does some stupid shit the next day" He kept quiet, not knowing where she was going with it.  "But that's not the sad part. The belief that they show in their partner after the fuckup, that they're not going to do it again, is the thing that amuses me"