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[brakehagen-deactivated20161009]

do u ever start typing out a long opinion post and feel very heated and then halfway through realize nothing matters and time is a flat circle and whatever i’m tired

[nuraluna]

Just Another Disappointed Fan

WARNING: THE SCORCH TRIALS SPOILER AHEAD I am more than disappointed with the fact that The Scorch Trials - the movie - doesn't really follow the book. I was expecting they would keep the same momentum they had with the first movie with the second one. But they had to go and change up the storyline and add in The Death Cure along with it. From here on out, I'll just summarise it in bullet form, seems easier for my brain that way. • I was expecting more Cranks action. Especially the extra creepy ones like the one Brenda and Thomas encountered while they were stuck on their own. That one Crank who kept yapping about wanting a nose was beyond creepy. Creepy Cranks keep me on my toes as I flipped through the pages and yet, the movie didn't deliver the same way the book did. • Brenda and Thomas getting drugged with the drinks and was confronted by Marcus and two of his other friends after. In the book, after Brenda and Thomas was caught, they confronted the both of them. Thomas even got shot while in the process. This is the part where we can really see Brenda's character and how her relationship with Thomas developed. The movie didn't really emphasise this scene and worse made Jorge confront Marcus instead. • Teresa was with them the whole time and Team B didn't even exist until they found the Right Arm. Apparently the Right Arm saved Team B and had been preparing to attack Wicked ever since. While I do like how they twist it, I still don't dig how they failed to mention Team B and Aris's connection with both Thomas and Teresa. • They left out the Flat Trans. I was kind of hoping to see how they'll try to conjure that one up but nope. Not even a peep. • They have Cranks or the used to be people in chains and made them their guard dogs and source of entertainment. Cranks used to be people or at least what's left of them and I find them depicting those people who lose themselves due to the flare as people in chains as something utterly disturbing. The only good thing about the movie was, Newt is saved! Not sure whether he's immune or not but thank God they swapped Winston for Newt and Thomas don't have to shoot him in the head too. This is the bit that I was not okay with in the book. That and the confusing epilogue. Like I know Thomas made the right decision since it's Newt's own choice but think about Minho and how awful everything would be if he finds out. Now that the Right Arm is dead, I can't wait to see what Thomas will serve Wicked with on the next movie. Especially now that Right Arm barely had any ammo left to protect themselves and the fact that Minho had been taken by Wicked too. Minho was supposed to go through everything along with Thomas, Brenda and Jorge. Guess Minho is stuck in Wicked till he gets out.

[nuraluna]

150925 // 2:59

it's almost 3am and i can't sleep. keep thinking no matter how much i try to reach out to people, i will always somehow went back to myself to fall back on. i find it hard to even so much as say 'hey, there's something that's been bothering me. care to hear me out?' to my own bestfriend, who i know will never judge me no matter what. it has come to the point where i no longer feel the need to reach out to people to discuss about things. not only the petty ones but also about things that kept me awake at night. things that can never seem to go away as much as i tried. now i just let all those troubling issues pass by. i occasionally give it a thought or two but other times i just outright ignore them. the point in all of this is that my trait has been and always will be, to keep things to myself. even the petty ones like how much vixx means to me and of course, the important ones like 'will i survive the year in uni?' pointless post is pointless. just need to let it out of my system and hopefully move on. basically, i've learned that i'm more closed off to people than i originally thought and i have yet to determine whether is a good or a bad thing.

[rickgrimesbabyface]

I blame my baby boomer parents for my intense cheapness 

when I’m in the checkout at the grocery store and watching the total go up, I start having anxiety. like I can feel my heart start to beat faster and my hands get sweaty and I get nauseated 

spending money literally makes me sick 

[rickgrimesbabyface]

I wish this was an exaggeration but it’s not

[lolcuuute]

This resonates with me so hard. Even when I HAVE money to spend and I’m not being irresponsible, I still feel like shit spending it.

[twozland-deactivated20160505]

This.

[nuraluna]

150919 // 14:14 // University Registration Day!

🎉 I am officially a UKM student!!! 🎉 Today is our registration day and thankfully it wasn't as long as I expected it to be. Plus, we don't even orientation week. It almost seems like a coincidence because I didn't get to attend our orientation during my Poly days as well. Maybe orientation week and I just don't mix well lol. Still got a long way to be excited though. Need to register my required courses and maybe add in a few extra credit ones if there's any. I wonder if there's any foreign language classes available and preferably a Korean one at that. But just my wishful thinking though. I am preparing myself to work and study even harder than I did back when I was doing my diploma since I did pay 50% of my tuition fees with my own money. Speaking of studying, I need to prepare myself for the uni life and how their studying system works. I think it'll be a little different than Poly for sure. But no matter, here's to me starting my degree and hopefully I'll get good grades for the semester!

[smoke-stungeyes]

Do you ever wonder how much you exist in other people’s lives? I’m always curious if people think of me when a certain song comes on, or when they pass through a certain town. I wonder how many stories I’ve been a part of that I may have forgotten. I wonder if I still I exist in the minds of people that I don’t speak to anymore. I wonder how many times a day I pass through someone’s head.

[nuraluna]

150915 // 21:31 // Uni

the truth is i'm nervous for uni to start. i'll be going to a completely different environment and it's definitely going to be 10x harder than poly for sure and i don't even know if i'll fit in there. but i watched a lot of youtube videos on college tips and most of them are basically saying that you don't have to care about that sort of things. but still, i'm scared that i won't be able to adapt to uni life and it scares me.

[theperksofbeingaprocrastinator]

Go to university, but go for the right reasons. Education isn’t a gun held to your head: it’s a weapon in your hands. Go not because you’re afraid of not getting a job but go because you love to learn, because you’re excited by ideas, because you believe that education is important for its own sake, and when you get there, pay attention, read everything you can get your hands on, cram yourself with words and figures and ideas, because that’s the one thing they can never take away from you.

Laurie Penney, The Independent, August 2012  

Fucking love this

(via chasssingthesun)

[coltre]

I hate being so sensitive. I hate being able to detect the slightest change in the way people message me, or talk to me, or look at me. I hate overthinking about it for the whole night. I hate when I can feel someone is slowly losing interest in me.

[nuraluna]

next goal in life is to go to korea so i can finally buy clothes from aa, åland, opening ceremony and mixxmix

[nuraluna]

150826 // 1:13 // TAEKBIN

i honestly just lovelovelovelovelovelove taekbin sosososossososososososososso much??¿¿ ended it with question marks because i'm as confused as the next person as to why i love the both of them so much. like the way leo/taekwoon is so super caring towards hongbin, cares and worries for him, occasionally feeds him and most of the time let hongbin get away with teasing him and vice versa. maybe i'll sound super biased (considering i'm a hardcore taekbin shipper, i probably am) but i don't think taekwoon ever show such affections towards other younger members than he do with hongbin? hongbin even ticked the 'because leo hyung is fun.' when a fan asked why did he always made fun of leo despite getting hit. their friendship and hyung/dongsaeng relationship is just sosososossososososo adorable and amazing and just-- UGGGHHHGGHH i just can't seem to describe their relationship in words. i just reallyreallyreally love them.

[nuraluna]

150807 // 22:49 // N/A

i honestly feel like my life had took a 360 turn and somehow i feel like wishing that i could turn back time. i wish i could go back to the time when everything was easy. when everything to me wasn't as complicated as they are now. sometimes, i find myself wishing for things to change. change to go back to the way it was but i know it'll never happen, as much as i wanted it too. i know that in order for me to be happy, i need to fake it till i make it. i tried to keep myself with happy thoughts. no matter how hard it gets.

[peachmilkis]

when you tried to take a pic of your bomb as shoes but failed miserably

[nuraluna]

150805 // 00:32 // it's been a while

so as the title suggested, it's been a while since i last even thought of putting my thoughts out there. well, other than me being all proud of myself for having quite a stable job and finally having the means to get what i want. life had been a huge roller coaster for me. especially after i moved to my new place. i experienced two horrible things which i refused to delve into at the moment. and i even had this moment of regret. i somehow regretted the fact that i decided to move to klia2 instead of staying at kl and continue working at mid valley. for a few weeks, the same questions kept popping up, again and again and again and eventually, i realised that in the end, it was up to me to change my regret into something positive. i am still trying to prove to myself that i made the right decision but it just feels hard sometimes. i'll definitely try to get past my regret slowly. work aside, i'm almost excited for my upcoming convocation which is happening in a few days time. i said almost because i'm not that excited about the idea of spending a shitload of cash for a once in a lifetime event that i don't even think would be memorable to me in the slightest. but since i'll finally have the proof that i actually finished my diploma, i digress and reluctantly agreed to travel all the way to perlis to get the damn scroll. luckily, convocation means a chance for me to actually dress up for once and needless to say, i'm planning on using it to my full advantage. bought a few things just for the sort of big event and i even bought the adidas superstar 80s that vixx wore during their love equation mv and perfs. got it in size uk 7 so hopefully it'll somehow fit me. if not then... 😪 i'm actually pretty dead tired right now and my legs feels like they're melting off of my body.... another 4 more days to go..

[luxx-life]

[nuraluna]

the shoes that i’ve been looking for since forever are 15% off! God bless!!!

[nuraluna]

150604 // 01:01 // VIXX Fantasia Utopia Live in Singapore (Part 1)

It's been nearly a week since I went to Singapore along with Nasrul and I thought it would be better for me to write it down so that I won't forget.

150529

The date that will forever be engraved in my heart and soul as the date when I finally /finally/ met the 6 boys that had made a huge difference in my life. I accidentally rediscovered them while I was sick back in February and I've been a fan ever since. I had to thank my blood infection for that lol Anyways, I first found out about VIXX coming to Singapore through Twitter  and my first instinct was 'I have to go! I need to go!' So I planned various ways of me getting there, by plane, by train and even asked a few of my friends if they want to come along with me. I even set up an itinerary on how everything was going to go. Then finally, Nasrul agreed to accompany me and the rest is history.

150929 // 7:06 AM

I clearly set up my alarm for 6:05 am but I overslept and woke up around 7. The sun is already shining so I looked over at the clock and got so surprised, I quickly jumped out of my bed. I immediately went and ironed my clothes and got ready to go to KL Sentral to meet up with Nasrul there. The drive to JB was so tiring and time consuming. I won't get into details but I'm just glad that we arrived in JB safe and sound. We parked our car at Tune Hotel and called up an uber driver to pick us up so that we can go to JB Sentral. From there, we took a transit bus, the 950 bus to Woodlands. Then from Woodlands, we took an MRT all the way to Lavender.

We arrived in Woodlands around 3:51 and arrived in Lavender around 5:30. It was that long but somehow I knew the outcome of it will be worth it. After we arrived in Lavender, we followed the instructions provided and safely made our way to Blanc Inn hostel. Originally, we already booked a hotel in JB but since the hostel's price was lower, we decided to just stay in the hostel instead. Plus, it'll be easier for us to rest after the concert. We got ready in record time. I remember how nervous I felt and shaky my hands were while I was wearing my headscarf. It still felt so surreal to me. I'm finally in Singapore for the first time and to see VIXX live for the first time too. Come to think of it, it's both a first for me and VIXX to be in Singapore to be honest and I'm kind of proud of that. Since we don't want to waste anymore time getting an MRT, we took a taxi straight to the Singapore EXPO instead. The road was highly congested since it was during peak hours (around 6:00 something) and we managed to arrived at 6:57. We quickly made our way to the hall, but before that, I managed to take a proof shot of myself arriving at the Singapore EXPO.

Excuse the standees since they were doing some sort of road constructions near the signage. We made our way through the walkway to the hall and was quickly approached by one of the girl from VIXXSG on Twitter and was given a yellow banner that says '끝까지 함께 달리자!' and this blue little round stickers that we need to stick on our phone's flashlight for the rainbow project during the song Someday. After that, another banner was handed to us, this one says '항상 네 곁에 있을게!'. We need to wave that around during G.R.8.U (대.다.나.다.너). After that was done and over with, a girl carrying a bag of VIXX unofficial light sticks called out to us. I debated on whether I should buy one or not but considering I have nothing to wave my hand around with, I decided to get one. I handed over the 15 SGD and took one of the VIXX logo light stick instead of the Rovix ones.

Finally, we arrived at the ticket collection booth. I handed them my ID and my debit card and for a second they couldn't find my name and asked for me to show them my email. But luckily they found it while I was scrolling through my inbox. I safely collected them and we made our way to the entrance. After we got our tickets and bags checked, we went inside the waiting area and Nasrul swore as he saw the amount of people that were already waiting there. I decided to sit near this lady/auntie who was all alone and tried to make small talk. I asked her if they're sitting by their sections or they're just waiting around and a moment later, we saw the people in front started to stand up and made their way to the stage entrance. I felt nervous and excited at the same time and I'm pretty sure everybody around me was feeling the same way. There was a clear buzz of excitement as people made their way to each of their section. I searched for SECTION B5 and looked for my seats. As soon as I saw that seat 11 was a little bit more to the middle and had a better view of the stage, I quickly told Nasrul 'I'll take this seat' lol. Took a few pictures of the LCD screen showing VIXX Fantasia Utopia Live in Singapore and sat back down on my seat.

While we waited, all I could say was 'ohmygod, ohmygod, OHMYGOD' like a mantra. Can't really blame me though since I never thought that I would, in a million years, be in another country for the first time and also waiting for my first headlining concert, no less. And of course, the fact that it's VIXX made it trillion times better. The wait doesn't seem long. I managed to talk to the girls sitting beside me and I kind of mildly warned them that I might screamed a little too loud once the concert starts. Luckily, the two girls sitting on my left side said they understand. They would do the same thing too lmao. Found out that they are from Taiwan from my less than beginner's level of mandarin and that they both are fans of Leo a.k.a Taekwoon. They asked me, which one do I like and I pondered on it for a second before answering 'all. All of them.' I thought of saying Hongbin at first but then I thought of it again and I realised that I really /really/ like each and every one of them. A few minutes before the concert starts, they started playing the TVC of the concert and the hall was filled with excited cheers as the screen showed each and every member. They played the TVC 4 more times and each times, the whole audience never fail to scream and cheer. Then the TVC ended and the lights were dimmed. Suddenly, a loud warning alarm echoed through the hall and the crowd cheered again as we wait for the boys to emerged on stage...