How you have come to visit me again
Seems like i cannot go far enough nor can i hide from you
You find a way to come to me and wrap me in your warm blanket of self-pity and whisper devastation in the most sweetest of ways
Oh Loving misery how you have captivated me and taken me hostage
You have built a solid foundation and have created a compound with walls as high as the great wall of china
Like a lover who has nothing but bad intentions, you have convinced me that without you i cannot live
You have sunk your roots deep within my soul never to be uprooted. How i think of you when you are no longer with me and dread your return
And as sure the sun rises and sets, you are sure to make me your home Changing and undoing all the good
All the pieces i have had to pick up in your absence your visits are the most chaotic
Sending me into a downward spiral deep within a pit so dark
I die with every breath i take as i see the light grow smaller
I am in this place and all i have are words
Comfort seems like a distant dream only for those worthy
i look for solace in scripture seeking a God i heard would know what to do with this brokenness that i am
I find a vacuum where all there is is my voice with questions of why and no answers
I seek you in the warm arms of the one im convinced i love
Yet all i find is confusion, clutter, brokenness and caring eyes with shackled hands of intention
Oh how im married to misery and am convinced that there cannot be anything without you
How i now become accustomed to the doom and the darkness
How i find comfort in the end of a dream i once was so growing to love
How i see that without you i am nothing As i find comfort in your cold, dark embrace and accept the bitter warmth you offer
As light becomes a distant memory
And i close my eyes with hope of not awaking
I will whimper one last cry for the hope that is deep within me and lay my head in your bosom