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[nymeriaking]

alysa liu and amber glen playing hollanova, send tweet

[nymeriaking]

troy barrett doesn't say a lot when he's on the ice (or ever), so a lot of opposing players think he's taken too many hits to the head, is dumb, or that's just his style of being mean

he's actually shutting down because the arena lights are too bright to speak intelligibly

[nymeriaking]

To Be Desired by NymeriaKing

Summary:

He answered with no preface, no pretense, just the bare facts. “I'm at the hospital with Shane. He wasn't waking up for me.”

The line was quiet for a bit, almost long enough for Hayden to start thinking she'd put the phone down. When she spoke, her tone was serious.

“What do you mean, not waking up?”

“I got to Drapeau's place and tried to wake him up to get him in the car, but he wouldn't wake up. It was like he couldn't. And then,” he trailed off, unsure what to even say about what he found to his wife.

“And then what?”

He took a deep breath, reluctant to say it out loud, but he had to tell her. “I think something bad happened to him, Jacks. Like, really bad.”

-

Shane is sexually assaulted at a house party in Montreal. He, Hayden, and Ilya make their attempts to recover in the aftermath.

[nymeriaking]

hayden and jackie go to marriage counseling

that's it, that's the headcanon

[all4vans]

[theprophetoftroy]

Unfortunately, Odysseus (ao3) is trapped at sea (not working AGAIN) so Penelope (tumblr) must face the suitors (real life)

[ilovefandoms]

Ilya in TLG: please send me a good right wing, the best one you have

Troy in toronto:

[nymeriaking]

so I wrote a thing...

(I Guess I'm) My Own Better Half by NymeriaKing on Ao3, 7k

Dr. Galina had helped him make a list of symptoms that had bothered him in the past year. Lethargy, poor appetite, sleeping too much, sleeping too little, irritability, suicidal thoughts, periods where he couldn't think clearly at all, thinking too much. She added a few to the list that he didn't agree with: large purchases, impulsivity, fighting. He fought back with her on them, and she added one more: belligerence.

Snippets of Ilya Rozanov's bipolar symptoms, and a glimpse of his journey through diagnosis.

This is kind of a personal one. It's the first thing I've written since the pandemic, my 20th fic, and echoes my own story of getting diagnosed with bipolar a little later in my self-destructive spiral than I would've liked

[nymeriaking]

writing a bipolar character is proving to be so cathartic for me. I've been dying to talk about my diagnosis in a way that doesn't make people sad for so long now

[m00nbig]

It's reassuring to know that however bad of a time I'm having, I'm never going to be having as bad a time as Troy Barrett did that one fortnight in November 2020.

His boyfriend of two years dumps him, keeping in mind he is DEEPLY in the closet and doesn't think he's ever going to be able to find anyone else who he'd be able to make a relationship work because of that + his schedule. Three days later said ex-bf announces he's ENGAGED and has apparently been with his fiancé for months (i think...?) so yeah apparently he was being cheated on the whole time while he was busy being madly in love! Also said exbf apparently was okay with being out if it was for someone else, just not Troy!

Then, TWO DAYS LATER, reports start coming out that his best friend of his entire career is a serial rapist, and over the next two days continue to come out and he realises that oh, that's actually completely in character and has to grapple with the fact that that's the kind of person he was best friends with. At that point, he calls Dallas out, yk, tries to do the right thing, and as a result is traded to the worst team in the entire league only a few days later.

Mind you he gets to that new team and they all hate him because, yk, best friends with no. 1 bigot and rapist Dallas Kent, and he can't even really blame them for it cause like... They're right. Also! Can't even grieve said relationship or complain about being cheated on because he would have to out himself to do it! So they all thought he was in a horrible mood just because he was a prick and hated their team not because he just got dumped!

It's like karma for being Dallas' side kick all those years, he had to go through hell first to access his redemption arc.

[nymeriaking]

this is very selfish of me, but I want to see a bipolar ilya rozanov. I don't just want him despondent and depressed, I want to see a mixed episode where he calls the police on himself because he can't stop thinking about all the worst things he can do to himself. it's like a storm of thoughts bombarding him, and he can't make it stop without taking dramatic action, and he's scared of himself and what he might do. I want to see him knocking loose his own support system because his brain won't let anyone help him. I want to see his manic side winning and winning and winning during the playoffs. I want to see him chase the highs because he deserves them, because that's the real him, because he isn't real if he isn't dancing and singing and platonically kissing his friends because his heart is so so so full because only he can love everybody this much and nobody understands just how much he can feel. nobody could ever touch him here, and fuck you if you think you know better than him. fuck you if you think he won't win because he already knows he'll win because he just knows these things. fuck you because fuck you. go fuck yourself. he feels fucking amazing, he is fucking amazing. he's a fucking god

[nymeriaking]

I might write this. maybe.

[nymeriaking]

this is very selfish of me, but I want to see a bipolar ilya rozanov. I don't just want him despondent and depressed, I want to see a mixed episode where he calls the police on himself because he can't stop thinking about all the worst things he can do to himself. it's like a storm of thoughts bombarding him, and he can't make it stop without taking dramatic action, and he's scared of himself and what he might do. I want to see him knocking loose his own support system because his brain won't let anyone help him. I want to see his manic side winning and winning and winning during the playoffs. I want to see him chase the highs because he deserves them, because that's the real him, because he isn't real if he isn't dancing and singing and platonically kissing his friends because his heart is so so so full because only he can love everybody this much and nobody understands just how much he can feel. nobody could ever touch him here, and fuck you if you think you know better than him. fuck you if you think he won't win because he already knows he'll win because he just knows these things. fuck you because fuck you. go fuck yourself. he feels fucking amazing, he is fucking amazing. he's a fucking god

[hollanoveau]

they watched all that shit happen and finally went “you are all like little babies. watch this.”

[your-void-senpai]

Love how Ilya just adopts Troy. Hey lonely little gayboy with a bad father I clocked you from a mile away do you need a wingman

[nettlepixie]

i know that in role model/the long game troy and ilya mostly bond over secretly being nicer and softer and gayer than people realise, BUT i choose to believe that one day (maybe post the stanley cup the centaurs win with the power of friendship) the team all goes out to the club and there’s throwback edm hits playing and troy and ilya’s fuckboy party personas activate like fucking sleeper agents and they have the biggest night of their lives together

[thisfeebleheart]

"It's a long story."

Shane and Ilya through the years

[nymeriaking]

maybe I'm back, maybe I'm not

but I need a fic that looks at Troy Barrett more closely. I need Troy to explore himself and his friendships more. give me a whole book of Troy developing his weird personality, please