the art of writing

///akhsara///

[oasisdaze]

05/07/13

rain, rain

pouring rain

as i stare at your photograph

moon light shines

as i lay in my bed

missing you

stars shine so bright

but my love for you is the brightest

[oasisdaze]

i miss you

can you hear it?

a drop in the ocean of my tears

can you see it?

a heap of thorns that came from my heart

can you feel it?

how sad i am

how hurt is my feeling

how suck is my life

without you

where are you?

this world is too big, too wide, i can't find you

this life is too dark, i can't see you

i miss you

like the moon miss the sun

like the flower miss the spring

like the book miss the writer

i could i want to go back to the time when

the sun shines just for us

our love made the endless wave

we heard the symphonies of apologies

[oasisdaze]

Dawn

It’s night here…

Not actually night, if you know what i mean

I can’t see

But i’m not blind

I just can’t face the world

World full of drama, lies, tears, and sadness

I don’t know you feel the same or not

But my world is just like that

All i want is to disappear

I don’t care about my family or friends

They’re fake

It’s black

Only black that i can see

Nothing’s colorful

So i took cigarette

I smoke

But it’s not enough…

I eat

Not food. Drugs.

I drink

Not water or milk or tea. Alcohol.

I go to school

Just pretend

You know…

Cutting class

Who cares?

Teachers? Friends? Who? Nobody

Society sucks

I locked myself in my room

It’s 3 AM here

Everyone’s asleep

So no one would notice

Well, if they’re awake they wouldn’t notice anyway

So i took cutter

Not for paper

Or to open something

To cut

Cut myself

Until i bleed

I woke up…

Whole friends, family, teachers are there

I thought i was die

No

I wish i was die

They asked what happened last night?

I said i accidentally cut myself

I know they don’t care

And never will

[oasisdaze]

Wallflower

I'm a wallflower, I'm the only one who gets bullied. I'm a wallflower, I'm the only one who sits alone when lunch time comes. I'm a wallflower, I'm the only one who understands the meaning of every word in a book. I'm a wallflower, I'm the only one who walks alone in the hallways, looking for a friend and never gets one. I'm a wallflower, I'm the only one who doesn't dance in homecoming party. I'm a wallflower, I'm the only one who never been kissed by anyone. I'm a wallflower, I'm the only one who wants to loved by someone. I'm a wallflower, I'm the only one who never had happiness. But one day, wallflowers will be tired of their lives. They'll lock themselves in the room and cry. And one day, wallflowers will realize they have to stand up and face the world. They'll try to speak, find a friend or a lover, learn how to dance, and run far away to find their happiness and catch their dream. Wallflowers aren't that sad, depressed, frustrated, and lonely. You have to realize... "I'm a wallflower, i see things, i keep quiet about them, and i understand."