Hey, everyone, happy Thanksgiving for my American folks! Small update for those who somehow still see this blog.
I'm doing better! Its been a few years of hell (actually my life ever since high school has been an uphill battle) dealing with mental and physical chronic illness as well as just family and life issues that had me in the deepest trenches.
New medication and a LOT of personal work and I'm seeing some payoff! God it feels good to love life, is this how some normal people feel? Sleeping at normal times, being able to do stuff without feeling sick, not having to take a nap when it gets painful just to function two hours at a time, feeling hungry?? I never actually knew hunger was a thing, I just thought hunger was pain and nausea until you ate. Turns out hunger is, well, hunger! Wild.
Things are still not perfect, but I think with my body they never will be fully normal. But my drive and passion has come back! I have stories in my mind and the itch to bring them to life with my words! I look forward to every new day!
God, I love love, I love all of you! I love doing things!! Its amazing! Truly never take health for granted, never take passion for granted. It's a phrase beaten to death, but you truly never know what you have until its gone. Although, I'm not sure if I've ever had this level of health. It's world changing.
I can write again! My mind and body don't feel like they've been stuffed with cotton anymore.
So this year I'm thankful for what I've been given. The option and privilege to have tests and exams, even though its been hard paying them off. I'm thankful for myself, and not giving up on myself, even though there have been times where I've been close. I'm thankful for some people I've met, even though the friends I have could be counted on one finger, and I've never been in love, I have felt love, even if its been fleeting, that helped to show me ways to move forward. I'm thankful for people here, and Tumblr itself for all its faults, to let me have support through people's words and comments. Hell, I'm grateful just for sleep! Its been- I kid you not- about 4 or 5 months without good sleep, 2-4 a night if any, and naps during the day just to stay alive. Not exaggerating.
So thank you! And I hope you all have many many things to be grateful for, even if they are small.