what a weird place to be

blog for writing prompts. you can tag "oddlyprompting" if you've used a prompt from me if you wish.

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slightly discolored sin

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Hi friend! This is such a fantastic blog and I didn't see you for a while and I got worried but I'm glad you're okay and sorry this year has been so hard :/ I hope it gets better soon! I'm rooting for you!

thank you so much for these kind words some weeks back

i’m definitely still alive, and i’ve been making very defiant attempts at at least bettering myself, even if the attempts are short and in some lights a bit escapist. i’ve taken up some childhood hobbies again (particularly bracelet-making), am considering getting back into embroidery eventually to do up a jacket of mine, am trying to read again (currently slowly making my way through the hellbound heart by clive barker after, yes, going through 8 of the hellraiser movies as is what i would call a guilty pleasure if i actually felt guilty about it). i’ve also been cooking again, more and more with new recipes and finally tackling things i’ve been scared to cook for a long time (seafood, mostly.) although i think, most importantly, i finally was able to pull together enough support and money to hire a japanese language tutor; a language i’ve already spent six years of my life learning and am very, very eager to get back into with the hopes of someday passing high levels of the proficiency test.

there are a lot of things that still suck. in the interest of earnestness i have had to contact a suicide hotline in these past weeks, yes–with the full intent of knowing i’d like to be better. none of what i’m doing takes that away, and i do remember this blog and feel bad about its sparseness at the moment. but the first half of the year sucked, the second half may still suck, but i’ll be damned if i’m gonna take it lying down.

it won’t fix what hurts, or what will hurt in the future, but i hope everyone takes some time to learn or experience something new with what little months the year has left. nothing fills the void, but at least we might be able to make it colorful.

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i am wounded animal levels of tired and scared

[breziarchive]

third time’s the charm, good GOD that’s a terrible “feature” or whatever the hell that’s going on on mobile–

ANYWAYS,

card comparisons to the major arcana i’m working on and calling machinations tarot. i do eventually want to do a full set…but it’s a slow process.

my ko-fi is here, any little bit helps and i super appreciate the consideration!

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not dead, 2018 has just been. a very hard year. from literally every place i can think of.

there’s a lot of struggling, and i’ve been struggling to keep it all upright. slow work, slow mind, slow body; i am only hoping the tortoise and the hare is a true tale. even working on this project (one of many) is a slow and painful process.

keep your head above water, followers. i promise i will someday be okay again.

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i wish screaming changed the world

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ants build society

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hollow throats

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the loyalty of a demon dog

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tar and bones

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rain that swallows the streets

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elysium did not look like what i expected it to look

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the queen returns at last

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regal heat

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the rotting that feed the living

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smile for the headlights

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parking lot forever holding the stench of cigarette smoke

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empathy?