dette

angel, 21

[odetower]

odette, 21

they/them

minors dni. posting whatever and whenever, casual vents

intro and likes: writing, horror shows, ethel cain, the ocean, yellowjackets, sansa stark, alicent hightower and medieval history

“i feel it so deeply in my bones.”

[odetower]

i can’t help but wonder if someone will take the weight off my shoulders if they notice the weight i ripped from myself

[song-for-an-unborn-sun]

[odetower]

do you sometimes kinda just give up on love or ever finding it

[odetower]

maybe real soulmates are the people you met along the way of finding out the generational curse you have to escape from and the recorded history of your family tree while convincing yourself the guy you’re marrying is the one

[chris-hargreeves]

[freeezerbridee]

‘cause in your pick up truck with all of your dumb luck

is the only place i think i’d ever want to be ♡

[odetower]

i have this tiredness in my bones that no sleep can heal, no rest can mend, and no kiss can ease

[odetower]

while everyone moved on i’m still at the restaurant (the red wedding)

[odetower]

Weddings and Rebirth,

my thoughts on the new show, "Something very bad is going to happen."

I just finished watching Something Very Bad Is Going To Happen, and all I can say is that I’m obsessed. From the dark filter and coloring to the amazing characters and the denouement of a wedding and its horrors. I'll be honest, I am deeply impressed, because not a lot of Netflix shows have really made me feel this way. But what stood out to me the most is the concept of female intuition, marriage, and renewal. This irreparable sense of doom is portrayed since the very first scene, and catches your curiosity.

The story follows the main character, Rachel Harkin, as she travels with her fiancé to his parents' home in the woods. They've been engaged for 7 months, and their wedding week is near. Now, from the start, we see that Rachel is not exactly too thrilled about the idea of weddings or babies, but Nicky, her fiancé, is very quick to brush her worries off and change her mind. And before I get into all my thoughts about it, I just wanna deviate a little bit from the subject and state, why would you meet the family for the first time in the week of the wedding? Why would you do that to yourself? I mean, there are so many things that could go wrong, and the character's paranoia doesn’t necessarily help the situation. We know from episode one that Rachel is a very anxious person who spirals quickly, a trait that is repeatedly shown all throughout the show. You expect something to happen, as the title says, you expect a jump scare. You anticipate something just morbidly or a startle, the shit to go down, I truly felt once with her, the unease increasing. And I think that’s really done in such a good way and within the intent that you can feel Rachel‘s anxiety and fears, and you handle them through her. They just build up one over another. You start to also feel the intuition that she has, and I felt I was starting to go a little bit crazy without wanting to, like putting a soundtrack, the blue filter, and dark colors in an ensemble. Everything that she sees, the alarms in her brain go off, and everything is from her point of view. This dread and despair, they build up, making the watcher wait for something to happen. It builds up even more and more, and it’s just this constant teasing of "will there be a jump scare, when will something bad happen" because, as the title indicates, you know it’s going to happen, you just don’t know when and what. As you press play on the show, you don't know the grade of horror and plot we're getting. So you try to anticipate the moment until it just feeds into this madness, you kind of plunge into. All these feelings the main character is going through are linked with her self-destructiveness and the feeling of being an imposter, as she feels she is not good enough, always putting herself last. We know she was born without a mother and has a very, very distant relationship with her father, as they haven’t spoken in 11 years and never quite had people on her own. So she’s this really lonely girl who only has herself. And her paranoia is the result of being afraid to have something taken away from you. When we see this downhill of worry, she is only trusting herself and Nicky.

A thing that is hinted at is the implications of losing body autonomy, losing yourself. We see the big, creepy painting in the hallway and a free seat next to Nicky. No one asked her before or when she came there if she even wanted to be painted into the family portrait, with a bunch of strangers she had just met. It is a thing taken away from her, a "bride-shaped hole". This is also shown during the day when Rachel is pushed around like a doll to be made into this perfect bride by Portia, Victoria, and Nell. They are trying to strip her of individuality.

Now, these are just overall thoughts that I wanted to summarize after the introduction, but what I really wanna focus on is the parallel of the wedding as an end to something, as the start of freedom and rebirth. Throughout the shows, Rachel is constantly putting herself last, her needs, her feelings, her person. She is willing to lose a bone, to be changed forever, just so she can be sure Nicky is her soulmate. She doesn't entertain for a second the idea of leaving him at the altar and transferring the curse to him. She is a selfless character from the beginning. But even if she decides not to drink the concoction that would have assured her and Nicky being soulmates, she chooses to leave aside every negative feeling and mistrust, and she puts behind her intuition screaming at her to leave. And so she betrays herself, not listening to her person. Now, I don't think it's in an out-of-character way, her being self-sacrificing and putting herself in second place is present in this decision, but even without the potion that would have changed her, being stuck in marriage with the wrong person would have had the same outcome. So the wedding comes, she puts all her trust into him, in them, and she believes they are soulmates, only to be left at the altar by her so-called partner. And after hours of talking, only when she sees that he never saw her, as she truly is, that it was never them against the whole world, her vision shatters. In the end, Rachel chooses herself; she leaves Nicky after she realizes that he never believed her fully. The tipping point, when she realized, "I am more than this, I deserve better." The curse transfers to the Cunninghams, and as a try to reverse it for Jules and Nell's son, she is tricked and married to him. She can't escape her fate. Something very bad has happened, and Rachel dies alone, in the center of the house, in the cold snow. The witness is transferred, and she is reborn.

Rachel leaves the family behind, the part that was expected of her, too. She is free from a marriage that wouldn't have nourished her own person, a tie that would have inevitably killed her.

The wedding is considered a celebration of love, a new chapter, but for Rachel, it is the celebration of the end of a book and the start of a new one. She is free at last.

[odetower]

[ivydivy]

I'm still thinking about the foxes in "Something Very Bad Is Going to Happen," how they represent Rachel and her mother, Alexandra.

The fox Rachel finds in the bathroom in the very first episode is almost foreshadowing what was done to her mother's body upon her death/Rachel's birth.

The same way the fox Nicky traps later on runs away but leaves a foot behind and finds freedom, limping but alive. Rachel sacrificed not only a bone for the sake of the marriage working out, but also her life when it was deemed a failure.

It's almost like women have more to lose.

Where marriage is concerned, it is but a bloody pathway to the altar.

And then the fox howls and limps as Rachel drives away... It's so gutwrenching and beautiful. I'm going to go cry now.

[odetower]

ETHEL CAIN COACHELLA 2026

she’s so gorgeous what does coachella even know about my good friend ethel cain ??

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every tongue that rises against sansa stark shall fall

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ethel cain sun, florence and the machine moon and stevie nicks ascendant

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my favorite part in ethel cain’s discography is when she’s hooting and hollering in knuckle velvet and thoroughfare. that part really hits