If that's what you need.

Ethan Cameron. Patrol. Harvest survivor. Murderer. Middle Cameron brother. Former police officer from sunshine-y Miami, Florida. I can hold the weight of worlds.

[officercameron]

devynbrenner:

“That’s pretty much the same way that I feel. No matter the amount of sleep I do get, I always wake up exhausted. Plus, I’ve been eating a lot and I’m just.. I don’t know how to define it really. I need to lie in bed for a whole week straight and I’ll probably be back to myself in no time.”

“I think we all could use that but unfortunately, things don’t run or protect themselves. I mean, imagine it, just laying there, staring at the ceiling and doing nothing just to do nothing or doing those things you’ve been meaning to do for so long... Sounds like a plan to me. Back to myself might take a bit more than a week and some extra sleep. Might need to clear the Walkers, if you know what I mean.”

[officercameron]

lara-alive:

“You can’t bash someones head in with a laminated piece of card. Maybe cut someone, but not bash someone.”

“Oh...”

“I was thinking it would be a bit more... bash-y.”

[officercameron]

lara-alive:

“I can make you a fake badge if it will make you feel better?”

“I like the sound of that. I would look so badass and official again... Too bad Wolf would probably bash my head in with it.”

[officercameron]

lucas–cameron:

“Oh yeah? Cry me a river. Look. Blow off ten of your own guys’ heads so they don’t turn while being surrounded by a swarm of rotters, up to your elbows in black-brain-goo, then come talk to me ‘bout not sleeping, okay? Until then, hand me a rag, some oil, and count your strokes. Okay?”

“Lucas, I’m not trying to have a pissing contest for Christ’s sake. I was just saying anyway. I don’t need your bullshit,” he said, adding in an eye roll for good measure. Ethan grabbed the rag and oil and slid it to Lucas, not really caring to listen to him for the rest of the day... or month... either would work.

[officercameron]

xwolfleader:

“Do you need a hug? Maybe some warm milk and cookies? Mommy? Should I go grab Lucas and have him give you some brotherly love? Cause this whole ‘thing’ you’re doing? I can’t have that. You want to bitch and cry? Do it in the privacy of your shower.”

“I’m not bitching-- or crying. I was just saying. It’s not bad. I mean I was comparing it to Miami, so honestly, that’s the best thing I could’ve compared it to. I did this stuff just as often back on the force so no, I don’t need milk, my dead mom or Lucas. I’m fine, I’m just trying to make conversation,” Ethan shrugged with a weak smile. 

[officercameron]

devynbrenner:

“I couldn’t have said any of that better myself. I feel like I’m a walking corpse right now. How’re you holding up apart from the no sleeping thing?”

“I’ve been better but I’ve been worse, too. Although I’ve found that the more tired you are, the less you can taste, so some of the food options aren’t as bad. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not complaining, food is food after all, but it’s nice not to have the aftertaste sometimes. What about you?”

[officercameron]

masonxfisher:

“I feel you. Not sleeping makes me pretty nervous and it’s not ok when I have a family. By the looks of it, this is pretty similar to the force. I mean, I’ve never been there, but I can only imagine.”

“I have a little family too here and I swear, he doesn’t sleep either. Not sleeping just makes me tired... and occasionally on edge. Yeah, it’s pretty close. Long hours, night and day shift, trying to decide what is a real threat and what isn’t... Same things, just a little quieter here.”

[officercameron]

catthevetwithaknife:

“I keep slaying I’ll sleep when the work is done, hasn’t happened yet,” she turned to look at the young man, offering a small smile. “Too bad sleeping pills aren’t an option anymore, huh?”

“Yeah, they weren’t all that great of an option even when they were. I can see too many people getting hooked on them,” Ethan shrugged, trying not to imagine the whole town drugged up on sleeping pills. “I think we all find reasons not to sleep, even with a large wall and patrol all around us, so I don’t think you’re alone in that.”

[officercameron]

“Yeah, I know how that is... The whole not sleeping thing blows. It was worse when I first got here but now the insomnia is back, plus all the patrolling, I feel like I’m back on the force again.”

[officercameron]

lara-alive:

She didn’t like the thought of Little Cameron going into the harvest either, hell it was a thought that actually made her a little sad. She rather liked the kid in all honesty. “Why would you want them to feel like that? They wouldn’t have been the ones to have killed him if that was his fate. It’s a tough thing, going out beyond the walls and walkers seem to be tricky little fuckers. I don’t see how wanting someone else to feel like shit over a death they had no control over would help this situation though.” 

Lara gave him a sly smile before leaning closer to him and patting him gently on the cheek, much like she had done to his brother previously. “Aw baby, don’t get too excited.I’m a bartender therefore I’m everyone’s therapist.”

“But we were supposed to have each other’s backs at least. I don’t know. To me, it seems justified... But I’m also the protective older brother who knows how to hold a grudge,” Ethan sighed, knowing that he really shouldn’t want people to feel bad over things they might not be able to control but when it came to Connor, Ethan was anything but sympathetic towards others needs verses his brother’s. It was just natural to him. 

“But I thought I was your one and only,” he joked, casually, not really paying any mind to her touching him. Instead his eyes turned their attention to the drink again, as if it were extra interesting. “Maybe, for the Harvest, they should send experienced people rather than people that don’t know what they are doing. Maybe we’d lose less,” he said, out loud although he wasn’t really sure if he was saying it to Lara in particular or just to say it. “Or maybe with this mandatory training stuff, it’ll be better.”

[officercameron]

lara-alive:

She looked back at him, a small, sad smile on her face before she slid another drink across the bar to him. “You know being desensitized isn’t a rarity these days and people crave it but some people are just– too invested. And that’s not a bad thing.” She spoke softly. “You just gotta learn when to turn the caring off, you can’t let it beat you.”

“оцелели вина.” The Bulgarian flowed from her lips as if she had never spoken another language in her life, and for a moment she forgot to translate. “My mother used to say that. Roughly translated it means Survivors Guilt.” 

“All I keep picturing is if my brother went to the Harvest and didn’t come back and the people that did... I’d want them to feel like this for the rest of their lives,” he said looking into the drink, seeing the bubbles as they floated up and popped at the surface, disappearing forever. “I’m here, aren’t I? Not beat. I’ve seen people die before-- I was a cop in Miami before all this but now with so few people it feels worse because we’re dying out.”

Ethan took a drink of the beer before speaking again. His mind contemplating the survivor’s guilt. Sure, it was that. But it was also just plain guilt and regret. Not that he would tell anyone why. “Guilt. Yeah, sounds about right. You my therapist now?”

[officercameron]

lara-alive:

“I ran over an old Lady and her knitting club once. So yeah, I guess i know what you’re talking about, but not really. I mean other than that I don’t have anything close to contribute. But ya know, that’s how the world is now. People just die more often than they did before. Not saying that makes it any better, just saying it’s how it is.” 

“You should be happy that you’re a survivor. Only the strong survive, or something like that, right?”

“I get that people die more often now but it doesn’t mean I just become desensitized to it. It’s still someone... Someone who was breathing and living in Ravenswood and now two of those someones are dead. I don’t know, I just-- I can’t let myself shrug it off and say that’s how it is,” Ethan shook his head at himself, annoyed that he couldn’t just do that, at least for the one that had just been stupid and untrained enough to get himself killed.

“Yeah, I guess. Doesn’t feel too happy from this angle.”

[officercameron]

lara-alive:

“Can’t a girl ask?” She muttered before giving him a smile. “Come on, tell Doctor Lara whats wrong.”

Ethan tried to control his urge to roll his eyes. “I’m just-- It probably has something to do with the fact that I watched the two people on the Harvest die. Kinda fucks you up.”

“Happy?”

[officercameron]

lara-alive:

“Then why do you look like a bag of sick puppies? Whats up Cameron?”

“Well, it could be the whole zombie apocalypse or something. Who knows? Why are you interested?” he said, sipping his drink in front of him.

[officercameron]

Shots Fired, Bang, Bang

[officercameron]

masonxfisher:

Mason had been going crazy while looking for Lara and Colton. They were nowhere to be found and he couldn’t live thinking something happened to them. Everything around town went to shit pretty fast, all thanks to a damn storm “That was me. Fired my gun in the air to get these people away from me before I ended stepped on. And I was kinda hoping someone near would hear it too.“ thank God he was around “Are you alright?” Mason hadn’t been there long, but he was given a job and it was his duty to make sure everyone was ok, even though his mind only went to where Lara and Colton were “Have you seen Lara Fisher?”

Ethan looked at the man for a second wondering why in the Hell anyone would just fire a bullet into the air. Then again, the guy had thought he was in danger but now they could all be in more danger than before. The gun shot would obviously attract walker attention. “I’m fine, I was on patrol and heard the shot so I came running, obviously. Are you fine?” Ethan asked. He peered around to the people in the streets. “Your guess is as good as mine. Is she working?” he wondered to the man.

[officercameron]

ophelia-thomas:

“Good reasons, how is your brother anyways? Haven’t seen him since he helped me stock up on medical supplies.” Ophelia smiled, “Also the song is Up by Shania Twain.”

“Uh, well, that’s a good question. He’s around. Luckily, I got home and all so I can keep track of him again..” he said, mostly sarcastically. “Right, cool. Glad you got that off your mind. What’d I miss around here besides ya know, singing a song?”

[officercameron]

Shots Fired, Bang, Bang

“Really? The lights? How many people are going to panic now?” Ethan whispered, mostly under his breath as he moved toward the town to see if he could help at all. As soon as he hit the city limits, he heard a shot ringing through the streets and immediately went running toward the source. It was like back in Miami all over again. When he finally made it to where he had thought he heard the shot, Ethan stopped, seeing the people outside the few buildings, looking for anyone with information. “What’s going on?” he said loudly over the crowds talks. “Is anyone hurt?”