Just gotta get it out there.
I've been trapped for so long. Am I happy? Sure I can say I feel happy again. I love my boyfriend he's the only reason I haven't went completely off the rails. I am so lucky to have him. If I didn't have him, where would I be? Living. I would be living alone in my bedroom with no one ever checking on me, talking to me, or god forbid be around me. I mean yeah people have lives I understand, but damn does that even matter. No one has the time. Time. That's funny, cuz the time you said you didn't have, you had it for him and for him and for them, but for us you left behind all the time I had been there. All the times you were there for me. It's not you and only you, many people I would see everyday a memory in my past, I knew after high school it wouldn't last but fuck I'd thought you'd at least say hi... It sucks not knowing your finsl goodbye. I try to be friends with people whom idk online, when I game but it all turns out the same, they play they stay, they stray, ok, I'm lonely. I have my boyfriend. I love him. He's the only person I know that actually makes me loved... Wanted... If it wasn't for him. Where would I be...? Probably rotting away in the confort of my home. 🙂














