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Welcome to Off Your Mind Confessional!

Here you may spill your deepest secrets, wildest dreams, or even just vent about your day. Unlike most confessionals, you may receive feedback or advice if I feel like giving it.

Confessions may contain explicit or triggering content. Posts will be tagged accordingly, though I encourage you to trigger tag at the beginning of your asks. Please let me know if you need something tagged!

I reserve the right to decide what does and does not get posted. I want you to have a safe space to speak your mind, and this includes keeping the space safe for others. I will not tolerate hate speech. Please do not send me suicide notes. Confessions will all be evaluated on a case by case basis.

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Is it normal that i like the idea of finding my soulmate and have a forever love story in the future very cliche-like, but at the same time i got so much anxiety from my parents relationship that a part of me hates the idea of marrying someday? Idk what i want. And i'm glad i never fell in love before, because if i was in love now i would be even more confused.

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I love my friends, I really, really do. But FUCK they can so exhausting to be around. Always finding faults in shit that don't even matter, always being pessimistic and negative I'M fucking tired. I can't do shit I don't know what to do. The slightest things can set them off into a spiral and I don't want them to hurt themselves in some reckless episode I feel like I'm a horrible friend that I can't empathize with them

You're not a horrible friend. You're only human, and there's only so much negativity you can take. You need to set boundaries with them, and if they can't handle that, they're the ones being bad friends

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i may have a queerplatonic crush on another person. thing is, i'm 99% sure they don't reciprocate. but god their voice is so dreamy. if only!

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I lose sleep over me thinking my friend was a femme lesbian when we first met, only to find out she's straight. And the only reason why I thought she was gay was because I forgot gays weren't the universal default

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I used to think i dont exprience jealousy,since its always ever only portrayed as making you feel Extreme furious adrenaline enough to murder a person. And i have never ever in my life seen anyone talk about whatever im experiencing. When im jealous i just feel sad pathetic and small just unable to hate, at the best i can be scared of the person im jealous of but i feel so sad i cant even bring myself to hate anyone i actually still love some people im jealous of

The worst thing jealousy has made me do is just cry in someones ask box about how im jealous that he didnt gave me attention and wanting to be his friend looking like some troll lmao thats it

I exprience emotions in weird uniquine ways than others and i dont know why

That is often how jealousy manifests, actually. We're most often shown the extremes of jealousy, but that's not accurate to how it's always felt

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This is very very strange for me because im usually happy and optimistic guy that doesnt overthink or anything and i never really had social anxiety or anything but in September i had discovered YouTube webseries on here and i really loved it and for no reason in like march to april i started being convinced everyone in this fandom hates me and its so weird since it was my first time this happening and the fandom is very nice and i have found cool friends there and now im over it

When im paranoid its always over physical danger not social thingies im so confused like i genuinely dont care when poeple dont answer me for long time or anything i just assume they didnt saw my message and will reply later i never assume they ignore me but yeah i was just being paranoid for no reason then

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a long time mutual of mine blocked me on every social media platform we're mutuals in and then unfriended me on discord (didn't block me weirdly enough). mutuals and friends for 4-5 years just gone without an explanation. i know it's none of my business why she did that, but i can't help but be curious what the final straw was for her.

but somehow, i'm not really sad about it? i should be sad, right? but i'm not, i just feel like some kind of weight's been lifted off my shoulders. hell, i think i feel relieved that she cut ties with me for some reason.

Perhaps that friendship was never good for you in the first place

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I want a caretaker when i grow up

i am disabled (fibromyalgia + autism etc), and i struggle to do chores on a regular basis, and also at taking care of myself

however, it just makes me feel like a lazy fucker who wants the easy way out. i feel like i don't deserve to have a caregiver because i can force myself to push through and do painful things for my body

(if this somehow goes off anon, please keep me as anon)

If you have to force yourself to do things and it harms you, then no, you absolutely are not lazy. You're not doing anything wrong by wanting things that improve your life

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//tw:// unsanitary, mild sinophobia, conspiracy thinking, mentions of self violence

Less of a confession and more of a rant but I am so. SO sick of having a special interest in esotericism. please god can i get some interesting videos about the yijing, I say into the void of YouTube, and the algorithm lovingly and stupidly places a video made by a white lady with a third eye tattooed on her forehead and dreadlocks she died purple with berry paste into my search results, and she's like "these are the ancient chinese secrets of the EYE CHING..." and im bashing my head into the desk because she genuinely believes the hexagrams will tell her how to cure cancer while CONCURRENTLY not knowing (or at least talking about) any of the interesting interpretations OF the yijing and how it's changed over the years from early heaven to later heaven and how the assortment of them in relation to cardinal directions CHANGES the interpretation ever so slightly and how the change stems from a fundamental change in perspective about reality in the zhou dynasty and then at the end of the video she tries to convince me the government is poisoning my water so she can sell me her own urine in a bottle that she cleansed in moonlight and it takes me all my strength not to do something newsworthy to myself every time this happens.

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Honestly kind of the average teenage sibling experience. You're not horrible, but it's up to you to be the better sibling you want to be.

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I'm so so so tired of donation posts being worded like "I'll never forgive you if you scroll past" "if you don't donate, death is on your hands" and the like because like!!!! I genuinely can't donate!!!!!! I really wish I could but I DO NOT have money!!!!!! Stop making me feel like an evil terrible person for being poor!!!!!!!!!! BE KIND TO PEOPLE WITH OCD OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "just block the tags/filter the words!" I DO!!!!! SO MANY OF THEM AREN'T TAGGED!!!!! I CAN'T KEEP DOING THIS LEAVE ME ALONE

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Is this a safe space to say I still don't understand why the Bonnie Blue thing was bad? Not as in I think it was good, I just didn't get why there was so much outrage behind it considering as far as I'm aware, everyone involved was consenting

Had to go look it up and read about the whole thing, and honestly the real issue is her politics. Fucking over 1000 people in a day is wild but not a moral failing. She just has some real shitty opinions on women and promoting cheating and such. And she's buddy buddy with Andrew Tate so I think that says quite a lot about her :/

There's also the whole thing though about them going hard on the "barely legal" branding of the boys she was with which isn't great. All consenting adults yes, but they really went all in on them only technically being of age.

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I'm my worst enemy. I'm neglecting my health because of my phobias, and I barely can enjoy daily life because I'm constantly anticipating death. It's infinite cycle. I probably should get therapy, but I'm aware that it's not a panacea and it's up to you to free yourself from your mind traps. I've been this way since forever. I don't know how deep this anxiety goes, I don't know what it's like to be normal.

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figuring out i'm probably a system because of ginger snaps of all things ??? been questioning on and off for a very very long time but watched that and some voice deep inside my brain became VERY vocal about how movie ginger is basically her. i am not very that! also i'm nonbinary but she's definitely a girl. so now sort of fictive? but it seems like she's been around a lot longer and only really.... idk awakened/activated or something??? because of the movie ??? ended up drawing her cause she was so There and she's so pretty,,,,, one of the best drawings i've done in a long time tbh. ummmmm hi ginger i love you and it's fun having you in my head even if you're angry most of the time <3

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2 of my friends have attempted suicide lately (didn't succeed, thankfully) but i feel so bad because i can't do anything since they're online friends from different countries. i wish i could do more for them

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Tw: physical abuse, sh

I’m so disgusting I want my partner to hurt me physically idk why I’ve never been physically abused I don’t mean to glorify it I just feel like I deserve it and they deserve to take their emotions out on me and I hate it bc they wouldn’t hurt me and would be really upset if I told them this and they’d also be really upset if I hurt myself even though I really really want to because maybe I’ll finally be helped oh my god I can’t hurt myself so I want them to because they would never let me hurt myself so if they did it it would be allowed uhhtgijgnttnjibt

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