* money / HUNGRY !

❛ — i am a child of a money hungry, prideful country. grass is green and it's always sunny. hands so bloody, tastes like honey. i'm finding it hard to leave.

[gownegirl]

DAISY JONES & THE SIX Track 3: Someone Saved My Life Tonight

[narcobarbies]

SAVANNAH SMITH via TikTok ⋅ 10-1-2022

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SABRINA CARPENTER via Instagram (March 3, 2023)

[memesfromstuff]

*: ･ﾟ✧   90 loaded questions / interview the muse.

found on this website, so credit goes to them.

What’s your favorite strategy for avoiding tough situations?

How often do you do things just for the attention?

Would you prefer to be manipulated or to be the manipulator?

What is something someone always tells you to do more of?

What is something someone always tells you to do less of?

Who do you look to blame when things go wrong?

What is the one thing people assume about you that you wish was true?

What is the one thing people assume about you that you wish wasn’t true?

When was the last time you lied to protect your image?

How often do you put on a happy face when you’re really not feeling it?

When do you think you began putting your guard up so much?

Who made you feel most anxious when you were a kid?

How do you speak about others when they’re not around?

What aspect of your life are you most delusional about?

How often do your admit you were wrong?

Which one of your biggest flaws do you like to rationalize the most?

Is it your fear of commitment or your fear of intimacy that makes you shut down more?

At what stage of a relationship are you most likely to withdraw emotionally?

What is the one compliment you always get that you’re too embarrassed to accept, so you deflect it?

What would someone say is your worst habit?

What is the one insecurity you are pretty sure has some basis in reality?

When was the last time you felt really insecure about the parts of yourself you pretend don’t exist?

What is the most interesting white lie you’ve told?

Do you ever feel like an imposter?

Do your friends know how competitive you are?

What’s the hardest thing about being rejected?

How do you deal when you know you’re being irrationally jealous?

How do you deal when you know someone’s not willing to give you what you want?

Are you ever afraid of people knowing who you really are?

If you went to a therapist today, what would they say is holding you back the most?

When was the last time you lowered your standards just to get someone else’s approval?

Is your need for revenge greater than your need for peace?

Have you stopped trying to control things yet?

Which parts of yourself do you still seek validation for?

How do you cope with being unfairly ignored?

Do you like punishing yourself for things that are out of your control?

What does someone say is your biggest problem when communicating?

Are you okay with not knowing what happens next?

Will you ever feel okay with being imperfect?

Does sabotaging yourself give you an odd sense of comfort?

How do you feel about being disliked by some people?

What’s the strangest thing you’ve done just to avoid failure?

What is the biggest risk you’ve taken just to prove yourself?

What’s the boldest thing you do every day, just to feel like you’re still in control?

What accusation would you defend yourself most fiercely against, even though you know it’s true?

What’s the most toxic thing about yourself you actually kind of secretly like?

How much do you enjoy being in control?

When do you give yourself permission to lose control?

What guilty pleasure are you currently justifying to yourself?

What is the most passive-aggressive way you’ve dealt with your rage?

What is the pettiest and most immature way you’ve avoided losing face?

What’s the worst habit you have that rewards you the most?

How do you get your needs met when you’re alone?

What is the most ridiculous thing you’ve done to please people?

What is the most ridiculous way you’ve rebelled?

What’s your favorite way to channel your aggression?

How do you cope with being betrayed?

Are you okay with disliking someone?

What is your favorite form of self-destruction?

What’s the one thing you struggle most to manifest in your life?

What’s the one thing that you manifest so easily, people are jealous of it?

What’s the most irrational reason you’ve ever had for disliking someone?

What is one fear that you’d be ashamed of your friends knowing about?

Which one of your deepest secrets do you think is the least common?

How do people normally find out you hate them?

What is your go-to strategy to deflect criticism, even constructive criticism?

What is one thing people always get wrong about you?

What emotion motivates you the most when you’re down?

What emotion makes you want to give up?

Are people shocked when you stand up for yourself?

How often do you say yes to the things you really want to say yes to?

How often do you say no to the things that make your skin crawl?

How far are you willing to go to maintain a relationship, even an unhealthy one?

What is the worst way someone’s ever abandoned you?

What is the worst way you’ve ever abandoned yourself?

How do you entertain yourself when you’re not around people?

Are you happier alone because you enjoy being alone or because you prefer it to being surrounded by horrible people?

What habit do you know you could quit but don’t want to?

What is your favorite strategy for avoiding difficult people?

What is your favorite strategy for avoiding conflict?

What is the weirdest thing that gets you angry?

What is the weirdest thing that makes you sad?

How often do you take responsibility for other people’s crappy behavior?

When are you most likely to shut people out?

Which insecurity would shock people if they knew about it?

What do you find yourself justifying to people, even when no justification is needed?

When was the last time you tried to please someone who made you angry?

What do people often tell you need to focus more on?

What do people often tell you need to focus less on?

What is the one thing that could make you happy, but you refuse to do it because you’re afraid of what others would think?

[lunememes]

🌙  *  ―     𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐕𝐄 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐒𝐄𝐒  (  prompts for the five senses. add [reversed] to reverse the action. feel free to change wording as needed & add details )

𝐓𝐎𝐔𝐂𝐇.

[ 𝐒𝐎𝐅𝐓 ] ― sender wraps a soft blanket around receiver’s shoulders [ 𝐒𝐈𝐋𝐊 ] ― sender and receiver fall into bed together on silk sheets [ 𝐏𝐔𝐋𝐋 ] ― sender pulls receiver’s hair ( gently / hard ) [ 𝐇𝐀𝐈𝐑 ] ― sender strokes receiver’s hair [ 𝐁𝐑𝐔𝐒𝐇 ] ― sender brushes receiver’s hair [ 𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐓 ] ― sender paints a picture onto part of receiver’s body ( specify what & where ) [ 𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐄 ] ― sender traces their fingertips over receiver’s body [ 𝐒𝐂𝐀𝐑 ] ― sender traces a scar on receiver’s body [ 𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐃 ] ― sender reaches out to hold receiver’s hand [ 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏 ] ― sender worships receiver’s body

𝐓𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄.

[ 𝐔𝐍𝐔𝐒𝐔𝐀𝐋 ] ― sender feeds receiver something they’ve never tried before ( specify what ) [ 𝐒𝐎𝐔𝐑 ] ― sender feeds receiver something sour ( specify what ) [ 𝐒𝐖𝐄𝐄𝐓 ] ― sender feeds receiver something sweet ( specify what ) [ 𝐒𝐏𝐈𝐂𝐄 ] ― sender feeds receiver something spicy ( specify what ) [ 𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐑 ] ― sender kisses receiver to taste the lingering flavour of what they ate or drank on their lips ( specify what ) [ 𝐂𝐎𝐏𝐏𝐄𝐑 ] ― sender bites receiver hard enough to draw blood [ 𝐔𝐍𝐖𝐄𝐋𝐋 ] ― sender feeds receiver soup when they’ve fallen ill [ 𝐃𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐊 ] ― sender makes receiver a cocktail to try [ 𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐇 ] ― sender cooks receiver their favourite meal [ 𝐓𝐑𝐘 ] ―  sender gives receiver a taste of what they’re cooking / baking for their opinion

𝐒𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓.

[ 𝐁𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐃 ] ― sender blindfolds receiver [ 𝐑𝐄𝐔𝐍𝐈𝐓𝐄 ] ― sender and receiver see each other again after a period of being apart [ 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐄 ] ― sender notices something different about receiver ( injury / haircut / tattoo / piercing / etc ) [ 𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐋 ] ― sender greets receiver in formal partywear ( feel free to add detail ) [ 𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐍𝐒 ] ― sender takes receiver to see lanterns in the sky [ 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐒 ] ― sender and receiver lay under the stars to stargaze [ 𝐆𝐀𝐙𝐄 ] ― sender and receiver lock eyes across the room [ 𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐃𝐎𝐖 ] ― sender and receiver see a shadow move out the corner of their eye [ 𝐁𝐔𝐑𝐍 ] ― sender and receive watch as something burns ( candles / a building / a campfire / etc ) [ 𝐅𝐈𝐒𝐇 ] ― sender takes receiver to the aquarium to watch the sea life [ 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐊 ] ― sender recognises receiver at a masquerade party

𝐒𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃.

[ 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐈𝐂 ] ― sender puts on the radio to listen to music with receiver [ 𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐘 ] ― sender plays receiver their favourite song on an instrument ( specify what ) [ 𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐍 ] ― sender and receiver are in bed together while rain lashes against the windows / tent / etc [ 𝐖𝐇𝐈𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐑 ] ― sender whispers something in receiver’s ear ( specify what ) [ 𝐃𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄 ] ― sender asks receiver for a dance upon hearing a song [ 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐀𝐍𝐘 ] ― sender and receiver hear a sound when they should be alone ( footsteps / creaking floorboards / a scream / etc ) [ 𝐇𝐔𝐌 ] ― sender hums a lullaby to lull receiver to sleep [ 𝐌𝐔𝐅𝐅𝐋𝐄𝐃 ] ― sender comforts a temporally deaf receiver after a loud sound ( gunshot / explosion / etc ) [ 𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐋𝐌 ] ― sender calms receiver down from a panic attack in a loud place [ 𝐀𝐅𝐀𝐑 ] ― sender and receiver hear a muffled sound from another room / outside ( music / people / creature / etc ) [ 𝐒𝐎𝐑𝐑𝐎𝐖 ] ― sender hears receiver crying and approaches comfort them

𝐒𝐌𝐄𝐋𝐋.

[ 𝐁𝐀𝐓𝐇 ] ― sender puts a scented bath bomb into receiver’s bath [ 𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐋𝐄 ] ― sender lights a scented candle for receiver [ 𝐅𝐑𝐀𝐆𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄 ] ― sender puts perfume / aftershave on receiver’s ( wrist / neck / cheek ) [ 𝐒𝐂𝐄𝐍𝐓 ] ― sender inhales receiver’s scent [ 𝐂𝐎𝐎𝐊 ] ― sender is drawn to the kitchen by receiver’s cooking [ 𝐂𝐋𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐒 ] ― sender steals an item of receiver’s clothes because it smells like them [ 𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐑 ] ― sender notices receiver smells of their shampoo / shower gel [ 𝐅𝐋𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐑𝐒 ] ― sender gives receiver flowers [ 𝐖𝐀𝐒𝐇 ] ― sender helps clean receiver after a long day / stressful situation [ 𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐊𝐘 ] ― sender and receiver walk through the sewers to escape capture / avoid detection / chase someone [ 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐒𝐀𝐆𝐄 ] ― sender massages receiver with a scented oil

[coffineds]

MAX IRONS interview for The Rich Eisen Show 

[gencva]

EVAN RODERICK as Justin in SPINNING OUT (2019)

[ofregiums]

📞+😔 dima and jl

— a sad voicemail ;

“ babeeee, do you think we could maybe not go out tonight ? everything’s just bumming me out. don’t know why. maybe it’s trying to figure out this career shit. maybe i miss my family. i just don’t have the energy to socialize with the outside world right now. is that okay ??? it sounds so stupid when i say it out loud. like, what the hell do i have to be sad about ? my life’s great. maybe i’m being a dumb annoying bitch about it all. . . but maybe we can just watch a movie at yours. i’ll even let you pick. oh, and we’re gonna need ice cream. a lot of it. i want to stop feeling so fucking blah. sorry if i’m being weird. just a weird day. i promise i’m not getting bad again, though. ok ? kay. let me know. i’m gonna go back to sleep. buh bye. ”

[ofregiums]

antocleo 📞😠

— an angry voicemail ;

“ for fuck’s sake, cleo. i told you to stay inside ! when i say shit like that, i’m not trying to undermine you or think less of you. i say it because i want you to be fucking safe. you could have died. do you get that ? that may not mean shit to you but it means something to me. we’re supposed to be a team. you should never be out there like that alone ! goddamnit, woman. you’re going to be the death of me. i’m heading out to look for you and we’re sure as hell talking about this when i see you. keep your phone on you, okay ? don’t pull this shit again. — click — ”

[ofregiums]

📞+😍 karilo

— a loving voicemail ;

“ sorry i’m only now calling you back, amore. i just got done with my shoot. whatever you’re doing right now better be more important than answering my call, that’s all i’m saying. you’re lucky you’re cute. speaking of, i just saw the picture you posted on instagram and what the hell ? who gave you permission to be so freaking hot ? i’m torn between showing it off on my stories or making you delete it so no one gets the wrong idea. ugh, i miss you a ton. no more work trips for the next month, i promise. i hate sleeping without you. give pasha a snuggle for me and make sure galina takes her medicine. i’ll see you all in three days. i can’t wait to kiss that face of yours. i love you, facetime when you get this. byeeee. ”

[ofregiums]

georgie/sasha 📞😔

— a sad voicemail ;

“ hi, baby. didn’t expect you to pick up. it’s like. . . 4am in california right now, isn’t it ? maybe i shouldn’t be calling so late. i hope this doesn’t wake you up. i’m just feeling — i don’t know — not great. today’s his birthday and i thought i’d be used to it by now but i’m not. i feel weird. it sucks. and i want to talk to my mom or my sister about it but i can’t because they’re going through it too. probably worse than me. i dunno, georgie. i wish i could stay in bed all day and ignore everything but i can’t. i have soundcheck to get ready for. life doesn’t stop because i want it to, i guess. . . i miss you. a lot. i think today would be easier if we were closer. but don’t worry about me. i’ll be okay. i hope you wake up after a night of beautiful dreams. i love you. bye. ”

[ghstmemes]

SEND 📞 + AN EMOJI BELOW FOR A VOICEMAIL MY MUSE LEFT FOR YOUR MUSE

😃 : a happy voicemail 

😍 : a loving voicemail

🤪 : a goofy voicemail

😞 : a disappointed voicemail

😔 : a sad voicemail

😟 : a worried voicemail

😠 : an angry voicemail

😳 : an embarrassing voicemail

😨 : a scared voicemail

😯 : a surprised voicemail

🥱 : a sleepy voicemail

🥴 : a drunk voicemail

[ofregiums]

— ben ! ( @aureliuswrites​ )

     keep that big mouth of yours shut — a cautionary tale that had been told to cressida ever since she could speak. that big mouth of hers had lead to hundreds of tricky situations and even more consequences throughout her lifetime. and yet, she found it far too difficult to keep quiet. that was precisely why she found herself currently struggling with what to say and what not to say. a routine patrol of the montague territory was usually easy to fill with anecdotes, laughter, and comfortable silence. but now ? it felt stifling.

     maybe it was the emotional aftermath of the riots, maybe it was the secret that she was keeping. . . all she knew was something had changed.

          “ so. . . ” the brunette sounded out, folding her arms over her small frame as she surveyed the scene. it had been eerily quiet since the chaos that had wrecked the city. she was prepared for the other shoe to drop. “ romeo’s been sorta mia. ”

[ofregiums]

— emmeline ! ( @serpvnts​ )

          “ told ya, i’d win. ” hero spoke with all the confidence in the world, his swollen nose be damned. it wasn’t and wouldn’t be the worst injury he’d ever received. considering he’d once shown up on emmy’s doorstep, trying not to stain her carpet with blood, tonight felt like a victory. he just needed a pack of ice and he’d be ace. 

    slowly, he trekked over to the fridge and immediately helped himself to the bag of frozen vegetable. a wince was forcibly swallowed as the cold compressed against his face, eyes trailing over to the other. “ i’m fuckin’ starving. are you ? ” hero inquired nonchalantly, as if this was a normal occurrence. and truth be told, it was. going over to emmy’s place after a match became a bit of a habit in recent years ; he had no desire to change it.

          “ i’m sick of bulking up on bland chicken breast. ”

[ofregiums]

— nathalie ! ( @ofaphrvdite​ )

     celeste couldn’t help but watch in awe as nathalie emerged from the backstage, immaculately put together in a way no person who just did a three hour ballet should be — but alas, she was. then again, that wasn’t too surprising. nathalie had never looked bad a day of her life. as she approached, celeste’s fingers tightened around the stems of the bouquet, her teeth wearing into her bottom lip. she couldn’t even explain why she suddenly felt nervous. it just happened to be the magical effect of the other woman, she supposed. 

         “ congratulations ! ” the blonde piped up excitedly as nathalie stood before her. “ you were amazing. ” with that genuine compliment, celeste offered up the bouquet. “ . . . purple gladiolus. they symbolize grace and charm. both, you totally embodied tonight. ” was that too much ? ah well, the words were already said. 

[ofregiums]

— antoine ! ( @aureliuswrites​ )

         “ whiskey sour. make it double, please. ”

      lord knows, angel would need it. her date for the night didn’t know the definition of shutting the fuck up. a headache was already blooming and it would only get worse with him talking himself, himself, and only himself. it was far more annoying than it was disappointing. after all, it wasn’t like she actually liked him. she just needed a hot distraction and the pickings were rather slim for a last minute choice. all she needed from him was a few pictures together for the press and to flex on social media. the brunette was more than happy to ignore him for the rest of the time. 

      she loved a good party as much as the next person, but lately, any press and event to do with her latest global campaign filled her with a sense of dread. the brunette wished she could pass it off as exhaustion but she knew the direct cause.

      and fuck, the direct cause was heading this way. looking stupidly cute.

          “ your sister knows how to host a party. ” angel announced as a greeting, turning to face the bar. it was fucking weird to see a picture of the two of them, hanging as a banner, over the massive alcohol collection. she stared it down as if to remind herself to keep this professional. “ having a good time ? ”

[ofregiums]

— eli ! ( @ofaphrvdite​ )

     charlotte felt incredibly silly, curled up into a ball in the corner of her guest chambers, but something about the spanish dynasty always made her feel like a scared child once more. that was essentially what she had been when she’d been sent to wed adolfo — a bright, naive girl. and oh how the house of de trastamara took advantage of that fact. all it had taken upon her arrival to versailles was a chance encounter with the now queen and the princess felt all those very same anxieties and pain she endured a decade before.

      the abuse, the harsh words, the threats to her and her child’s life. . . she remembered it all.

     she could hear the door open but she lacked the strength to force herself back onto her feet. charlotte could only hope it was celeste’s nurse, here to return her beloved sunflower back into her arms. at least, the princess could trust the woman not to gossip about her fragility. however, her cerulean gaze flitted up to see eli standing there instead. her eyes softened, cheeks burning red in embarrassment. this was certainly not the most flattering position to be in. 

          “ i-i am fine. i just felt faint. ”

     technically, that was not a lie.